(Almost) Two Year Wedding Anniversary

Mine and Jon’s 2 year anniversary is coming up! It’s this Sunday, the 24th. If you care to read about our one year anniversary or our entire (very long) love story, I’ll post a link below.

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Christmas in Iraq, 2008. Also, that cot behind Jon is where we had our first kiss *fireworks* Haha.

One year anniversary

The last post of our love story (the other links are in this one)


Savannah trip with my parents in late 2009.

I was laying in bed this morning with Tom, excited for Jon to come home tonight! And then I remembered he won’t be home tonight and I probably won’t see him tomorrow night either since I’ll be at my parent’s house. And then I just so totally in love with him randomly and remembered that our two year anniversary is coming up this weekend!


Fall 2010.

There are definitely days where Jon drives me crazy. Just last weekend I was convinced that I married the wrong person and that there is no way our marriage is ever going to last because we can’t communicate! And really, I think that periodically anyway, especially since being pregnant. I’m a real treat to be married to 🙂 But you know what? No marriage is perfect. I knew when we got married that there would be times where one of us is just completely over our marriage and wants to be done with it. We have an entire life together. It’s naive to think that we’re both going to be happy for the entire marriage.


Valentine’s Weekend, 2011.

But really, I love him. I’ve known he was “the one” since we first started dating in Iraq in 2008. Even through our break ups, with the longest being over a year, I still never stopped feeling that about him even when I didn’t have any kind of “romantic feelings” for him at all. I just always had a feeling that part of my life was missing, and that part of my life was him.


Back together again! Braves game in 2013.

Jon really is a man who knows how to love unconditionally. Even when I’m telling him that our marriage will never work, he always reassures me that he didn’t marry me to leave me. He always still shows me the same love. He has always been honest with me and I’ve never had to question him. He takes care of me and loves providing and being the “man of the house.” (Even though I run the house.) He is always supportive of me and my decisions, even when they involve taking a gigantic pay cut just so I could try and get other experience in nursing, in a job that I’m not even planning on staying at.


The night we got engaged, December 23, 2013.

I’m so grateful to have met him, and especially grateful that we were in Iraq when we met, cause I don’t think our personalities would have ever meshed had we met outside of our deployment! I was far too crazy and too much of a mess before our deployment! When we’re walking along the road and he moves me away from the road or he rubs my back and feet when they hurt, it just reminds me why I love him so much.


Cabin trip around our wedding, May 2014. (We got courthouse married in January 2014, which is what we actually celebrate as our anniversary.)

Jon really is my rock. I feel like together, we can accomplish anything (well, except for me becoming a world traveling nurse, cause he likes his wife to be at home with him- what’s that all about?!). He really is my other half and I wouldn’t have it any other way.


One of my favorite wedding photos that my brother took of us. That’s my mom in the left side of the photo! I also absolutely loved the photos my brother got of our wedding, even though he wasn’t our photographer. May 24, 2014.

I hope we manage to love each other for the rest of our lives and grow old and saggy together. Although I’m nervous about the changes coming up in our marriage with the addition of a new baby, I also can’t wait for one of Jon’s biggest dreams in life to come true this year: being a father.


Christmas 2015.




One Year Anniversary Weekend, ClassPass: Svelte, Land of a Thousand Hills

I had a great weekend, despite being sick! Saturday night was mine and Jon’s one year anniversary date night at The Melting Pot! We used to go there on Christmas Eve, but this year we weren’t feeling like spending $100 on dinner right after a cross country road trip and Christmas shopping! So we pushed it back and made it our one year anniversary night.

Although most of you don’t know this, Jon and I actually got married on January 24th, 2014. We decided to go ahead and do a courthouse wedding because I wanted to start getting licensed in other states under my new name and didn’t want the hassle of changing it all around right before starting to do travel nursing. So we went to the courthouse on a Friday afternoon when I was hangry and had a 12 second ceremony in the hallway of the courthouse, with all the other couples waiting to get married as our guests. I was too hungry to even make it for the 10 minute ceremony and we knew we had a real wedding coming up. So, here we are in the courthouse.


Stunning wedding photo. Afterwards, we went to Leon’s Full Service Garage to eat since we had heard great things about it and we were both slightly disappointed. Then we went home and Jon took a nap. So ladies and gents, that was our real wedding day.


We’ve decided to celebrate this as our real anniversary since we felt like we were married after that. I had to change my name at work, so quite a few people found out about it (although, we kept it from most people attending our wedding).

I will say, this past year has been better than I could have imagined. I’ll ignore the parts prior to our actual wedding when I think we may have hated each other (wedding planning is a bitch, what can I say?), but after that, things have been great! I truly love him more now than I thought I could after one year of marriage. We’ve grown together and are really becoming a team. I love planning our lives together in the future and knowing he’s mine for the rest of my life!

Anyway, so back to date night… We had some delicious fondue at The Melting Pot! I was hoping Jon would let me ask our server to take our picture, but he refused. So we took an “ussie.”


Afterwards, we come home and Jon surprised me by having my Gina, Kassie, and Laura over with their boyfriends! He was hoping to get all of my bridesmaids, but Annie (my sister) couldn’t make it down from Wisconsin and Crista was sick.


 (I have no idea why all our blankets ended up on our fireplace that night, and Tom has to always be near us. I should have put my heels back on so I’d be taller!)


(Kassie, Gina, me, Laura.)

We all hung out for awhile and then when they went home, Jon and I read our one year anniversary letters and reread our vows and danced to our song. I have a sweet man!

Sunday morning, Laura and I woke up for a barre class at Svelte. This class was nice since it was actually close to our houses! I’m not sure that this was the exact same as a pure barre class or not since I’ve never taken one, but it was definitely tiring! I still prefer workouts where I actually work up a sweat, but my legs were shaking during this workout so I still definitely enjoyed it! I’m hoping to go back, but I work almost every Sunday in February so I don’t know that I’ll make it to that particular one! I’m really having fun trying some different types of workouts though!

After our class, Jon and I decided to go to get coffee at my new favorite place but the parking lot was full so we weren’t allowed in! Instead we found Land of a Thousand Hills, which I have actually been wanting to try! I thought it was cute and the coffee was so good! I’d definitely go back there!


We somehow decided to go look at open houses, so we spent the next two hours looking at open houses! We loved the first house we saw, but of course, we aren’t ready to buy quite yet! We’ll put our condo on the market whenever I get pregnant (not yet). I think we’ll make open houses a regular thing when I’m off on Sundays though. It was a ton of fun to just go look around!

After our housing explorations, we stopped by my mom and dad’s and Jon and I went on a walk with my dad since it was such a nice day out! After eating some dinner with them, we headed out to see American Sniper. Definitely a good movie. Oddly enough, the trial is coming up for the guy who actually killed Chris Kyle. I’m curious how the jury will end up ruling since it sounds like the guy had some serious PTSD when he killed Chris Kyle.

Anyway, I’m up and moving around this morning! I’m heading out to another ClassPass class at noon. This one looks just like CrossFit without the name attached, so we’ll see how it goes! I haven’t been doing CrossFit for months and have stayed away from the lifts because of my hip, but I’m excited to do a fast paced workout! I need to get some grocery shopping done after the gym and really start on my taxes now that my grad school application is 100% finished!

List for Sunday

A list because I’m lazy.

1. This past week, I went to the cabin with my sister, brother-in-law, and Jon. I already mentioned it. We stopped by Vogel State Park for a quick waterfall sighting and then spent the night playing Scrabble (I won) and listening to the boys talk about football. Boring.



2. I bought a new computer! I got a MacBook Air. It’s the same computer than Jon has and I really wanted to hold off because I’m feeling like money is just going down the drain lately (wedding time is expensive time- trust me- money just disappears), but I wanted some time to get acquainted with my computer before heading off to MA. I need to be able to Skype with Jon while I’m gone and keep everybody updated.

3. I’m dying to get back to the gym. I had a nice week off but now, my arms are feeling small again and I just want to be active. Between my insane work schedule coming up and needing to spend time with Jon, I’m putting it off till I get settled in my new home.

4. After today, I have one full week and one weekend between me and leaving! Every night when I get in bed, I snuggle up to Jon (I am NOT  a cuddler in bed) because I’m going to miss him! And my cats! I don’t know what Kitty is going to do without me for so long! I’m worried it’ll stress her out and she’ll start eating the fur out of her back again. She’s such a mommy’s girl. But really, I’m going to miss my own house, my own kitchen and food, my cats, and Jon like crazy. I feel like I’m preparing for a deployment because I have no idea when I’ll be able to fly back. I may end up having to go two full assignment without coming home (26 weeks).

5. My brother posted some wedding photos online!


I do wish my sister had put the ring bearer pillow down for the photos!



He got some really good ones of the ceremony. I’m looking forward to getting our professional ones back, but I may not see them until I come home next time around since I don’t think they’ll be done in time for me to leave. I wish I could just have a million wedding days over and over again. It’s such a fun day! Minus all the planning.

6. I have started planning my trip to Maine with Jon and decided I want to go to Nova Scotia. I don’t think it’ll work in our time frame (it’s 13 hours from Boston to Nova Scotia) and I’m bummed! We COULD make it work, but it’s too long in the car. Also, people at work freaked me out thinking I would have to change my name on my passport. But if I’m not driving, I don’t see why. My passport is a valid form of ID, and if I ever fly out of the country, I would think I could just book my ticket under my old last name, since they never see my driver’s license either. I’ll probably still send my passport in soon for a name change, but it doesn’t seem necessary.

7. I am going to go make some breakfast and start a day full of errands. We have groceries to be bought and food to be made. And other things.

Wedding Weekend! I’m a married woman!

I’m finally back! Woohoo! I’m  a married woman! This past week has been insanely crazy! Who knew getting married took so much time?! Friday morning rolled around and I knew we were getting close! I woke up and got my nails done, picked up my car (I ran over a nail just in time for the weekend), and then headed out to our rehearsal!



Jon showed up in that cute tank top! All his groomsmen had on gray ones. Cute.


Practicing our ceremony! Oddly enough, that is our friend Danny, who we were in the Army with. Since Jon and I aren’t religious, we were brainstorming who could actually perform our ceremony. I mentioned Danny and we laughed about it for awhile and then finally one day, we were both like, “No, but really, that would be awesome.” He’s well spoken, well organized, and it was an honor to have a person we both know stand up there with us to marry us. This was the first wedding he did and it went off without a hitch. Amazing job.

Friday night we spent the evening at my parent’s house having dinner with Jon’s family and the wedding party. My aunts and uncles came in and it was so nice to see everybody! I had really wanted to stay later, but left around 8pm since Jon and I were checking into the Westin downtown. When we got down to the Westin, we decided to run up to the Sundial Cafe to see the city, and we happened to run in to quite a few people who were in town on Jon’s side of the wedding. We stayed out till midnight with them and headed back to the wedding!


Saturday morning (after barely sleeping all night), I went over to Gina’s parent’s condo to get ready with the girls. My hairdresser, Malcolm, met us over there to start on my hair! It was so fun having my hair professionally done up like that! Jessie did my makeup (not done in the photo below) and we listened to that I’m so Fancy song about a million times since Jessie and I had been singing it all week long. #weddingsong #wesofancy (I hashtag cause I’m cool.)


We got there are 10am and thought we’d have tons and tons of time, but when the alarm went off at 1 for us to pack up, it had come really fast! We rode out to Lake Allatoona Inn for our ceremony!

When we got there, we had plenty of time to go! We got there early for me to change, but my mom wasn’t there yet and the photographer wanted to photograph me getting dressed. So we hung our in the room until Mom was ready to get me in my dress! Luckily, we were able to get it zipped.


Also luckily, although it’s the end of May in Georgia, the weather was really not too bad! It was a little humid out, as always, but really, in my wedding dress, I wasn’t nearly as hot as I had expected. The girls and my family took our pictures and Jon and his guys and his family took theirs. Then it was 4:30 and I was shut back in the bridal room till the ceremony!

I started getting a little nervous at this point. Well, not nervous, but my stomach started feeling a little off. I sucked it up, loosened my dress for a bit, and then just kept hanging out. Right before the girls walked down the aisle, Laura came back in and we had a moment. This is the only time I cried! I managed to get it together and then went out for my dad to walk me down the aisle!


For me, this is really the part of the wedding I was so excited about! I couldn’t wait for Jon to finally see me in my wedding dress! I almost cried twice walking down the aisle, but then at the end, my dad (who hadn’t come to the rehearsal), my dad forgot to hug me and just walked away after he said “Her mother and I and the whole damn family” were giving me away, so I had to call him back and that made me laugh. Once I got up next to Jon, I didn’t even come close to crying (total surprise for me- I thought I’d cry for the entire ceremony).


It was really awesome standing up there next to him. I could tell the ceremony was going smoothly and aside from a few small things, it was perfect (I forgot to repeat Danny, Jon’s hand was swollen from his broken elbow and I had to visibly force his ring on, etc.)


The ceremony lasted 19 minutes total (Jon said), and that was with a train that came through. At the end, Jon Rick Rolled me. His vows totally ended with the Never Gonna Give You Up song. It got a good laugh from the audience.


After the ceremony, we did all of our family pictures while the guests had cocktail hour. Then we were announced, Jon and I shoved our faces with barbecue that we got tons of compliments on (it’s my favorite place- Cue), and then had our cake cutting.


Right after the cake cutting, Jon and I left to do our pictures by ourselves. Since Jon had smeared cake all over my face, I’m hoping the icing isn’t visible in the photos after that! We came back in to music playing and guests dancing, and then Jon and I did our toasts and then our first dances (we did this out of a traditional order so that people wouldn’t be sitting around during our photos). Kassie and Adam gave our toasts and they did a great job! I was really impressed! And then Jon and I finally had some time to enjoy our wedding! We danced for over an hour and then we did our getaway in the Jeep!

Jon and I headed down to our house to swap out cars and headed back down to the Westin since we were staying there. A bunch of guests came out to Meehan’s downtown to meet us for drinks.


Although Jon and I didn’t get to sleep until 3am, we both finally slept so good! I hadn’t slept all week so I was so excited! We met Jon’s family for breakfast on Sunday morning at Cracker Barrel and then headed over to my mom and dad’s house to hang out with my family. We got there just in time to see my aunts and uncles for about an hour before they headed out. Jon and I headed home after that and finally had a chance to relax! After cleaning up a bit (we had 9 people stay in our house all weekend), we sat down to watch a movie and then ended up falling sleeping not even halfway into it.

Jon and I talked about our wedding pretty much the entire day on Sunday. First of all, we got so many compliments on our wedding. When Jon and I looked at the venue in the winter, we picked it because it was in our budget and it had the dates we needed available. But everybody absolutely loved in. People liked the mix of the indoor and outdoor area, there are horses on the land that the kids liked to look at, there’s a big driveway to hang out in. Not to mention there is nice shade there and there is just so much greenery! It ended up being really pretty! Tons of people said that it was really simple and that it was laid back (our goal). We were told it moved along well and didn’t seem to last forever (which is really important if you go to a lot of weddings). Second of all, Jessie hands down made our day! I don’t even have a picture with her, but she coordinated the entire day! She was the go to woman. She told everybody when to walk during the ceremony, handled the DJ and bartender before and after the ceremony, cued the DJ for the bouquet toss and first songs. Although she has never coordinated a wedding (but I think she said she has now gone to 22 weddings or some crazy number, and she’s had her own) she really could have been a professional. She made our day! So, Jon and I were extremely happy with our wedding and really loved everything about it.

Anyway, that’s the end of the weekend. I have more to talk about, like my new job as a travel nurse (it’s official, guys!), but I’ll do that tomorrow. By the way, almost all of the photos above (except for the one of my mom and me) were taken on phones. Laura had a camera but I haven’t gotten her photos, and all my others are still on my flash drive and I’m not skilled on Jon’s computer, so that’s just the mix of Instagram and Facebook photos.

CrossFit, Travel Nursing, Wedding Dresses!

What a busy week! I’m on a roll with working lately (Tues, Wed, Fri, Sat, Sun, Tues, Wed), so I’m on my Thursday off in the middle there. I go into overtime this pay week which is really nice, especially since I don’t work much surrounding the wedding.

I just got home from CrossFit. We did:

21-15-9-6-3 reps for time of:
Strict handstand push-ups
195-lb. front squats

I finished in 15:29 and did 75# for front squats. Rx for women was 135#. Uh, no. I did my first round without stopping and then felt like dying every 2 seconds after that. I still ended up with a pretty good time though. I almost didn’t go since I’m not a fan of burpees, but I convinced myself that it really wasn’t that many and decided to suck it up. It didn’t really feel like that many, but I’m not used to the heat yet so I’m getting super nauseous with working out lately.

Anywho, I’ve been having my final fittings for my wedding dress lately. I had a bit of a breakdown (that sound really dramatic- it was not) on Monday. Laura met me at David’s Bridal for a fitting and I thought the dress just didn’t look right. My boob fat was everywhere but if the top was let out, it would fall down. No hips to hold anything up. I said I’d go back and try it with a different bra on Tuesday night and hope that it looked better. But I was just really regretting my dress decision all together, wishing I had found one with straps like I had wanted. The wedding was planned with such short notice though that I felt rushed to get a dress and I was on a budget! I was really wishing I had spent the $1200 to get the dress I loved, so I was all disappointed on my way home from David’s Bridal. Tuesday we went back and the girl let out the top and tightened the waist to see how it fit. I was initially against this, but I sneezed while I had the dress on and popped the clasp in the back, so I knew I had to let it out! It does look better now, but the boob fat is still there a little. So I’m duct taping it in. I used to always duct tape strapless bras in place cause you can lift your boobs up and hold them there, so I know it works. Quick fix (by the way- I don’t wear strapless tops anymore so I don’t do that anymore). The waist now is insanely tight, but I moved around in it and it didn’t feel like it was about to rip so I’m going with it. I’d rather have to suffer breathing than have to pull up my dress repeatedly. And I’m sure when I sweat all in that expensive dress at the wedding, it’ll stretch out some too. So I feel better about how it looks, so I have it at home to do the final try on (should be fine) since I was in no mood to do it after work last night. Getting close!

I spoke with a recruiter today from RNNetwork, which is one of the travel companies I’m looking at. They have 4 ER spots open in June and some ICU (the girl I’m going with is doing ICU) so I’m hoping that this assignment will work out. They ranked #3 in Fortune 500 companies in one of the recent years and I read good reviews on them, so I’m hoping this works out. Otherwise, I have Cirrus to contact also since they have a lot of Boston contracts. I need to get online tonight and go through a bunch of paperwork for the company. It’s starting to hit me that I’ll be leaving next month! I used to be really independent of Jon, but since he’s been with me every night since we went to Italy in June and is going to be my husband, I kind of like my time with him.

I believe I made either a very high B or an A in my biology class. Had I known the curve was going to be so huge on the final, I would have actually looked over some stuff since I would have easily had an A in the whole class had I not made a 45% on the multiple choice portion of the final. If my calculations are correct though, I did end up with an A. Just waiting on the final calculations to come through since a few grades still aren’t posted.

I’m feeling overwhelmed with my to do list. I have tons of cleaning to do, paint touch ups, grocery shopping, studying for the GRE (I seriously forgot all simple, basic math- you should have seen me studying last night- thankfully Jon is a smart man and just finished calculus and is refreshed on all these silly math things), getting ready for the wedding, paperwork for travel assignments… It’s just insane. I wish I knew how it felt to wake up with hardly anything to get done in a day! But instead of getting those things done, I’m going to head to the pool for a bit (getting at least a little bit of a tan is also on my to do list before the wedding- especially since I managed to get horrible V-neck tan lines the other week), get my hair cut, and then stop by the store to pick up food to make tacos for dinner and then work on paperwork before having to work the next 3 days.


Happy 28th Birthday to ME!

I wasn’t going to post a blog today because I’m cramming for my final (in beautiful weather- how depressing) but I’m drinking my coffee right now and I have a general rule that I can’t do any homework while I enjoy my coffee. Also, if you have a Keurig, try the brown sugar cake K-cups from Target.

Just a quick update on the highlight decision- I walked into Toni & Guy and said to the girl, “I have an appointment at 4pm with Malcolm” and then she said, “Nooo… It’s with Ashari,” who is my hair colorist! Cue freakout. My response was actually, “Oh shit, but I don’t know what I want to do with my hair color yet!” Haha. Anyway, I went with highlights. They’re fairly obvious in person, but the camera wasn’t capturing it well. I also had to switch my part because I have a weird darker stripe in the front of my head if I part my hair on the normal side. I may have them fix it, but then again, I haven’t switched my part in awhile and need to anyway. I don’t love the highlights but everybody at work said they looked good.

Thursday night, I got home and Jon let me open my birthday present!


A starter camera kit! That’s a Canon Rebel EOS T3i (I have no idea what all that means). I LOVE it! Granted, I have not a freaking clue how to use it, but luckily my brother and Jon’s sister both use DSLRs so they can teach me a thing or two. I was shocked and had no idea what Jon was getting me! I have been mentioning how much I want a nice camera since I travel so much. I’m always so bummed when I looked back at my Switzerland pictures because it was such an awesome place and my camera was such a POS. (I do have a better point and shoot now- I went to Switzerland when I was 21.) With travel nursing coming up, I wanted something to really capture all that I’m about to see! I also wouldn’t have invested in a camera for myself since I still have to buy a laptop, so Jon really did awesome with this gift!

I worked yesterday and had a fairly good 8 hour day. I asked to go to my favorite assignment for the last 4 cause it was my birthday and the supervisor let me. Always nice.

Then I went to Treehouse Pub with Gina, Brian, Kassie, Billy, Laura, and Jon for my birthday dinner. I was so glad Jon was able to make it! The food was pretty good and the atmosphere was decent! They had nice porch seating there which I love. I had a great time with my friends and was glad to get to spend some time with them on a Thursday night. It was actually a lot of fun and I’d like to do it more often.  We rarely get all the guys together too since I typically like to just enjoy the girls when I have a chance!

Here are some pictures with my new camera! They’re all on the automatic setting since I have no clue how to use it yet!


I included this mostly to try and get my hair. Jon was just messing around with the camera.



Again, attempting to get the hair. Not really working. Or maybe that is really what it looks like to other people and I just can’t tell in a mirror.


My handsome man! Love him!


Kassie, Gina, me, and Laura! I’ve been friends with them since I was 14!


Laura took this one! I love it! And we did not mean to match! I didn’t even notice till we were in the car! Also, he looks so big in that picture! Sometimes I feel like it’s not so obvious that he’s 14 inches taller than me and 110lbs more than me, but it is here!

Anyway, so that sums up our night! Also, on my 28th birthday, I got my Massachusetts nursing license (WOOHOO!!) and found out the girl I am going to travel nurse with is coming to my wedding. Today I take my last final for my BSN and then I walk down the aisle to that studly man above in 22 days (holy moly- I have a LOT OF PLANNING TO DO!). I also have a GRE study book now so may be hopping on the grad school train in the fall if I get everything done in time and get accepted!

Okay, I really stretched out this cup of coffee, but it’s done. Time to go memorize B cells, T cells, and helper T cells…


I’m just going to avoid talking about exercise in this post because that’s what I’m doing with it in my life.

I worked 7p-3a last night. I made the mistake of drinking coffee at 4pm and 6pm after my two hour long nap in preparation for working till 3am. I fell asleep around 8 this morning. Holy balls. Talk about a struggle to get out of bed. It felt like my eyes were made of sandpaper. So much for being productive, going to the gym, and getting my paper written today. #lifefail #fwork (Yup, I just hashtagged.)

I’m participating in #100happydays on Instragram. If you sign up at 100happydays.com, they will send you a book if you complete the challenge of posting one picture every day, hashtagged 100happydays. So I’m giving it a go. And realizing how boring and mundane my life really is right now. What happened to the days of having fun and hanging out 5 days a week with friends?! Why did I ever think being an adult would be fun?!

Just kidding. It is kind of fun sometimes. I get to hang out with my two cats and I have a fiance that really is pretty cool that I get to live with. But I do miss having an abundance of time to spend with my other favorite people.

I apologize (but not really) for this blog having absolutely no direction. I really set it up to be mostly about working out and schtuffs, but I just don’t work out as much as I’d like these days. But I still like blogging for myself- not really for other people. So I just write whatever I want. Speaking of why I like to blog, I googled my old AOL screen name, totally forgetting that I ever had a live journal with the same name. And the live journal chronicles my life from about 2004-2007. I read a few pages of posts and got to relive what an absolute, depressed, whiny little disaster I was at that age. So even if my blog about #100happydays and the other boring stuff in my life is no fun for you, it’s still fun for me to look back at how far I’ve grown in life.


I made these beauties the other day. Banana/plantain pancakes. Sadly, I only had two plantains and too many bananas. I prefer my pancakes with no bananas and all plantains. Ingredients include: canned coconut milk, plantains, bananas, coconut flour, almond butter, cinnamon, eggs, vanilla. I’m going to try these with sweet potatoes next. I bet I could melt goat cheese on them for breakfast if they were made from sweet potatoes and that would be even more heavenly. And these take so many eggs to make that I’m getting all that protein too. Side note: If you eat anything other than pure maple syrup, you are missing out.


Shopping with Crista. I didn’t buy much. I can’t afford much. (Who has 72 hours of work in March?! This girl. My WHOLE month of pay will be what I normally make in one check. Womp womb x100.) Also, during this trip, I became aggravated again at my size. I accept that I’m the size of a child. I do not accept the fact that people don’t make clothes for me. With the reception dinner coming up and knowing I should probably have a dress for our engagement photos, it just bums me out to realize that in order to find an adult dress that looks good on me, it will cost close to the $100 range. For a dress. And while I can occasionally find a good dress for cheaper in the juniors section, I don’t feel like the dresses I find are really appropriate for the things that you do in your late 20s. My favorite store ever is Banana Republic (I go to the outlet) because their PXXS fits me for perfectly. But Banana Republic is failing me on dresses right now, so Crista and I browsed through some at Nordstrom and found some really cute ones for really not cheap. I want something I feel good in though, so that’s next up on my list. And I know other people have issues finding clothes to fit their body type, but it is frustrating feeling like, as an adult, I can only find clothes that make me look like a child. (I don’t buy those clothes- I do dress like an adult- but don’t get me started on shorts.) Side note: This picture makes my roots really obvious. I don’t even know the last time I dyed my hair.


My handsome man at Mexican. I worked all weekend and Saturday night was set to be my study night, but Jon proposed Mexican. He only offered me Mexican because he knows I don’t ever say no to Mexican food. I am falling more and more in love every day with him, as cheesy as that sounds. I can’t even put into words how happy I am to be with him and how awesome it is to know that he will be with me as I grow old and my boobs start approaching my waistline.


End the post with those faces. Who can get enough of those two?! Not me. The good thing about having pets as opposed to babies is that pets stay just as cute for their whole lives. Granted, they’re cuter when they’re kittens (or puppies), but they’re also so obnoxious at that stage that I’d gladly take my adult cats over little kittens. Also, because you all are dying to know, Tom (the orange one) turns one this month.

Time to go at least pretend to work on my paper. I told my lab partner I’d bring the finished paper to class tonight but I have to shower in an hour to go to class, so that won’t be happening. I’m glad I graduate this semester cause my motivation is at 0%.

Life: The Right Path

I’m feeling really grateful today. When Jon and I first talked again in December of 2012 and I knew there was the hint of unhappiness and a possible breakup on the horizon, I wondered what would happen with us. I had a lot of conversations with myself (does anybody else talk to themselves in their car?) that if we had the chance, I just wanted closure and that no matter what happened between Jon and me, the outcome would be the right thing. I wasn’t sure if I wanted to get back together with him or not. I had no idea what would happen. But I told myself as our friendship progressed that the right thing would happen with us. I’m not religious, so I didn’t believe that god would take us down the right path or that I should pray about it. I told myself that I would know when the time was right to cut Jon out of my life again if I had to or that we would know if it was right to take the next steps together.

When I joined the Army, I had no idea why I joined. I still don’t know why I joined! I know the my friend was trying to join the Air Force and it sounded fun and I had always thought about doing it, so I tried. When both of us had problems joining the Air Force, we both joined the Army. We didn’t do it together and we actually only saw each other two or three times while our training overlapped, but that’s the only thing that I can even think of that pushed me to join. One deployment later and tons of money and financial benefits with school, I still have no idea why I joined the Army.

I have days where I love being a nurse. I have days where I leave angry and tired and frustrated and knowing that this isn’t what I want to be doing for the rest of my life. I never hate it. I also never wanted to be a nurse growing up and always dreamed of being a teacher. Then I decided not to be a teacher because I didn’t want to student teach and I don’t even really like kids. But through joining the Army, I decided upon nursing. I also met Jon in the Army. I worked all weekend and left work today feeling very grateful for what I’m doing with my career. While ER nursing is probably not going to be my lifelong career and I am still unsure of whether I want to get a masters in management or public health, I have a feeling I’ll just know.

I really feel like life falls together in a series of events that happen at the right time. I don’t necessarily believe that fate is the reason and clearly, if I didn’t make these decisions in life, I would have made other decisions. And maybe I would have been happy on another path. Maybe I’d be a teacher and already married with kids. But right now, I feel like my life is exactly where it should be. I feel like I’m doing the right things for myself and that this will set me up for a future of more of the right things. And while it may feel at times like nothing in life is going right at all and it’s all a big disaster, I come out on top every time, feeling like life ended up a little more in line with the path that I should be on.

Now, Jon made me dinner and rented us some movies, so time to relax before starting on a plethora of biology tomorrow.

Random Updates on Nothing

Any love I had for exercising is just gone this week. I’ve been doing great the last few weeks (like two) at staying motivated and wanting to go to the gym. Being sick totally ruined this. Whenever I get sick enough to actually throw up, it messes up my stomach for at least a week after (or more). I also didn’t feel well enough to eat anything other than crackers and soup for three days, and eating any bread (and larger amounts of dairy) makes it hard for me to get things moving to go to the bathroom, if you know what I mean. So I’m left feeling rather disgusting.

I think today I may try and at least do a short run near my house to get things moving, but CrossFit looks miserable today because of how plump I feel, and I normally love long WODs. I also have a test tonight that I’ve been studying for and really need to dedicate time to it and don’t think that a long noon WOD would be ideal today. So there goes another week paid for that I’m not going, but I’m not going to worry about it. I’ve got enough on my plate without worrying about a wasted $20 for the week!

I spent the first hour of my day cleaning and am really dying to clean my house! I cleaned up and swept, but I still haven’t gotten all the glue off the floors from when we installed them in December! I noticed rings appearing in my toilet yesterday (unacceptable!) and I feel like the spare bedroom is being overrun with stuff! I also really want to stain my wooden stand in the kitchen and PAINT THE WALLS! And I want to start my photo collage for the wall behind my couch! But this is a really rough month, so all of that will probably get pushed off until April/May/June.

Last night, I asked Jon to pour our cat food from our big storage container into the little one that we pour from. The container is huge and I always spill it.

He said: “You should do it yourself and learn how to be independent.”

Me: “I already was independent and now I’m getting married for a reason. Now can you please do it?”

I mean, really. I lived alone for various years throughout my adult life. Clearly I’m capable of being independent. But isn’t one of the perks of getting married that now you have somebody to do the man chores?! (Man chores include: pouring the litter into the bin- 35lbs of an awkward shape doesn’t work well for me, taking out the trash, changing light bulbs that I can’t reach, pouring cat food from big container to little container, and taking out recycling. Jon also checks the mail in this family.) I think he was feeling overwhelmed because the recycling bins had to come in, we have a light bulb out, and the cat food ran out all at the same time. He’s not used to having three things on his list all in the same day! Wouldn’t it be nice if all men were able to see the time women actually put into keeping the house clean? Clean toilets, clean laundry, clean dishes, and clean floors seem to magically appear in the mind of a man. (Clearly not all men and women function this way. I know there are men out there who are clean and women out there who are messy.)

I’m totally talking to myself now. I’m just going to stop here and go start typing up my cheat sheet for my biology test (how awesome is that- all this extra credit and cheat sheets in my lab is making me feel like I got screwed by my lab professor last semester- but we’ll see how hard this test is tonight).

The Love Story Part 5: Back together!

The Love Story: Part 1

The Love Story: Part 2

The Love Story: Part 3

The Love Story: Part 4

After Jon and I had began spending a decent amount of time together, I brought up going to Italy together. I had already planned a trip to go see Adam and Jessie (Adam has been Jon’s best friend since childhood, but Jessie and I remained friends after Jon and I broke up) since they were living out there. At first it was just a random suggestion about how cool it would be to surprise Adam for his 30th birthday by bringing Jon with me! But then I Skyped Jessie about it and we wanted it to happen.

Throughout the Italy “planning,” Jon and I were having a bit of a rough spot. I was starting to have feelings for him again and we were having so much fun and it felt like we were best friends. He said he had feelings for me but still didn’t want  a girlfriend, which I understood. But it was becoming a situation with a lot of gray area and I didn’t like it. We were starting to have some longer “discussions” about where our friendship was going.

At this point, Italy was starting to become a reality. We were already going together and we were getting close to leaving. I had a feeling that Italy may be the end of our friendship. I was getting too drained and had told myself ahead of time that if I was becoming unhappy in our friendship, that I still gave it a fair shot and things just weren’t meant to work out.

Very shortly before I left for Croatia (I went to Croatia first and met Jon in Italy), Jon and I had a big conversation where he said he actually was open to dating me. At this point (like today- February 2014), I can’t remember all the details of that conversation, but it was the first time he said he just wanted to get back in school and then he thought he’d feel ready. Also just before leaving for Croatia, I bought my condo and moved into it, which is very close to Jon’s work and much closer to downtown than where I was previously living.

I was already kind of over everything at this point. So off to Croatia I went. Fortunately, Jon was staying in my house to watch the cats until he came to Italy.

When I arrived and met Jon in Italy, things were very different. He was acting like my boyfriend! I was a little thrown off and also feeling a little distanced because of how things had been over the last few months (remember- we first hung out at the end of February, and we went to Italy at the end of June). But over the trip, things started to feel a little more real. He was definitely acting very okay with beginning another relationship.


That is not a boxing glove that I’m wearing. That’s my thumb splint that I wore for 3 months from my overuse injury.

We came home from Italy and he never went home. He often talked about how he wanted to go home, and I totally supported him spending more time at his own place. But things were still going really well with us, we just didn’t want to rush into anything. He also didn’t see a point in labeling the relationship, but I was somewhat frustrated with that because he spent every night at my house so it didn’t even make sense not to. The actual change in our relationship status was done on Facebook. I thought the whole thing was stupid so just changed that. And after about a week, it just kind of seemed normal again to have a boyfriend.


While Jon was still talking about spending more time at home, he went down to Florida for a weekend. He had a talk with his parents that basically encouraged him to take our relationship to the next level if I was as supportive as he said. And this is where it all changed.

Jon came back and we started talking about marriage. And he was totally fine with it. He decided to get rid of the room he was still paying for at his house (that he hadn’t stayed in for months) and move in with me officially. Things continued going well and then we got engaged!


And that’s the end of our love story! Well, or it’s to be continued since we’re planning our wedding now, but I finally (months later) caught you guys up on the rest of our love story, for those who are interested.