Anniversaries, Nesting, and Other Life Happenings

What a week. For some reason, I thought I would be able to get all kinds of schoolwork done this week. That hasn’t happened.

After my family left on Sunday, Jon and I decided to go out for our 2 year anniversary! (After he told me he was going to go watch football with Billy and I was like, “Um, it’s our TWO YEAR ANNIVERSARY! You should WANT to spend this evening with your WIFE!”) Since we were still at my parent’s house, he decided to head home to bring all our gifts and I figured it’d be easier to just shower there. When I finally went to leave, my car wouldn’t start! So Jon had to drive all the way back there to jump my car and then he had to go buy a new battery for it so he could replace that before we could even go anywhere! I’m definitely thankful to be married so I have a husband to do those things for me, but what a pain.

We finally made it home, where I decided to try and look somewhat decent. Except I still wore leggings and one of my only maternity shirts that I own, but I put on real boots instead of my “slipper” boots, so at least I tried. And I wore my hair down. Then our two year anniversary looked like this:

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We went to the Sundial Cafe at the top of the Westin. I love going there and we were planning on appetizers and “drinks.” Except none of the appetizers looked good. Now, normally we go to the Melting Pot for our anniversaries since it’s a fun experience and the food is good, but this year, we just didn’t want to spend over $100 for a meal. I decided that since we weren’t going to eat at the Sundial, we should go somewhere new! So we literally spent 25 minutes looking at Yelp/Scoutmob, trying to figure out where to eat, and all I wanted was Willy’s (like, the cheap burrito place similar to Moe’s). I have no idea why I wanted Willy’s since I haven’t been in years and have no idea what they even have to eat, but that was what I wanted. Except it was closed. So we ended up just going to Sushi Nami which is one of our regular date spots (although not lately, since we haven’t been going on dates much these days) and spending like, $70 on dinner anyway, plus our tab from the Sundial, so we should have just had the Melting Pot.

Monday was an errand running day. But I did get to wear another one of my new workout shirts that actually covers my whole belly!

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I also LOVE these shirts! I got it at Marshall’s for $10 and they’re originally $45-$55! It’s 90 Degrees by Reflex. They had a ton there! I wanted to buy some XS so I could still wear them after the baby, but I have enough workout clothes in my regular size, so I refrained. Also, I was wearing a new medium sports bra and I need to buy another one! These girls just don’t want to fit in a small anymore (I usually wear XS but I already sized up once) and the medium felt so nice! My cleavage wasn’t up to my neck and my boobs weren’t squished into my armpits! So I might have to invest in just one more bra that actually fits!

My workout Monday was kind of rough. I did a few minutes on the elliptical and then did some walking lunges with 10# in each hand and some squats while holding the weights. But my back just started really killing me. I was in so much pain walking over to foam roll my back out cause my lower back was spasming! Awful. And it is so frustrating to feel good other than that (my workouts feel much better than a few weeks ago!) but not be able to do anything because of the back pain!

Anyway, the rest of Monday was spent running errands and working on school stuff.

Tuesday I had an OB appointment. I’m so glad that when I told my OB that she was all booked up through the rest of my pregnancy that she told me to fit an appointment in whenever I could! So I get to see her next time and again at my 40 week appointment, which I am super happy about. I definitely want to see her for that last one in case we need to talk about induction, since I’ve been seeing her for years now. Jackson was the same and we still did nothing at the appointment.

I also went to have lunch with Crista on Tuesday. Her grandpa is really sick and probably nearing the end of his life, so we’ve been talking about that a lot lately. I’m glad to have some medical knowledge (especially about heart failure) to share and I’m also glad that we’ve had some more time together lately (she’s on grand jury duty so on her jury duty days, she’s out by 1:30).

For some reason, I decided on Tuesday that Jon and I had to start organizing for the baby. Maybe because our nursery looked like this:

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Just to be clear, the room doesn’t normally look like that. We moved the bed to my parent’s house last week and then brought all the baby stuff home so it ended up looking like a tornado hit. We went to Babies R’ Us and exchanged some gifts and bought a ton of other stuff that hadn’t been purchased for us yet! We dropped all that off and then went to Lowe’s to get some shelving for the closet. I couldn’t even organize any of the stuff in the bedroom because we literally had nowhere to put it! By the time we got the shelf put together, it was 10pm and I just had to get stuff organized!

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I got the closet done at least! I couldn’t decide what to do about clothes since our hand-me-downs have almost filled up our dresser, so I decided to leave the new clothes hanging and hand-me-downs can stay in the dresser.

I was obviously exhausted Wednesday at work since I stayed up working so hard on Jackson’s closet! So no gym Wednesday! Jon and I lazed around a bit and then finally, I decided we needed to try and clean up the rest of the house. We got the crib put together and attempted to clean, but the whole house is just such a disaster right now that it’s overwhelming! We just keep bringing more stuff home or taking more clothes out of the dryer and I just don’t want to clean!

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So, at least we got some of the stuff in the baby’s room cleaned up. We have to take a bookshelf apart in there and get rid of the books and take some nightstands to my mom and dad’s, but overall, it’s not too bad! The rest of our house resembles the first picture of Jackson’s room though. Seriously. It’s that bad. Except for our kitchen, which I have managed to keep clean for the most part. But the rest will take a long time to clean up.

Last night I was in bed by 9. #oldpregnantlady

Today I worked from 7-11 in the ER, but at 11 when I was about to leave, a 3 year old crashed and all the other nurses went to work on that kid while I covered 11 other patients. I didn’t leave till noon and Jon asked me to get his dry cleaning for him to go out of town. I did that, watched him pack for about 20 minutes, and then he left. I was super excited about napping on the couch for some reason, so I curled up as soon as he left and got to snoozing. I got 20 minutes of sleep before Jon called and asked me to see if his backpack and suitcase were in the parking lot of our condo. And they were. I offered to take them down to the airport since I knew he’d miss his flight if he came all the way back home and that would look pretty bad since he’s accompanying a doctor to an educational conference on his product… So instead of sleeping or the gym, I spent an hour in the car dropping off his luggage and dying to pee, but I’m in pajamas and my shirt literally only covers 1/2 my belly so I couldn’t even stop anywhere to go. I mean, who even leaves their suitcases in the parking lot anyway?!?! Only him. But I’m just grateful that he works so hard to make enough money that I can just work my 8 days a month (although I do work more usually) and will be able to stay home (unpaid) with our baby for a little while. So I was glad to drive it all the way to the airport.

Also, while driving there, I watched probably 20-30 planes take off in just that few minutes. It’s just ridiculous how many planes leave Atlanta.

So now I’m home from that fun adventure. I just finished my lunch since I was seriously starving while I was headed to the airport and now I can either work on school stuff, clean the house, or work out. And I will probably choose cleaning and just go to the gym tomorrow. Honestly, my workouts in general just suck so much now that I feel like there isn’t much benefit in going, other than to keep me in the habit of going for as long as possible so it’s easier to get into when Jackson is born. So I might as well get my other stuff done since cleaning up this house isn’t going to be easy and I can only do so much at once before my back starts killing me and I have to take a really long break. This back pain is insane and it is making me really excited to deliver Jackson so it can just stop hurting!

Time to go be productive. Sorry this was so long and boring. Apparently I had a lot to say today.

(Almost) Two Year Wedding Anniversary

Mine and Jon’s 2 year anniversary is coming up! It’s this Sunday, the 24th. If you care to read about our one year anniversary or our entire (very long) love story, I’ll post a link below.

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Christmas in Iraq, 2008. Also, that cot behind Jon is where we had our first kiss *fireworks* Haha.

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The last post of our love story (the other links are in this one)

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Savannah trip with my parents in late 2009.

I was laying in bed this morning with Tom, excited for Jon to come home tonight! And then I remembered he won’t be home tonight and I probably won’t see him tomorrow night either since I’ll be at my parent’s house. And then I just so totally in love with him randomly and remembered that our two year anniversary is coming up this weekend!

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Fall 2010.

There are definitely days where Jon drives me crazy. Just last weekend I was convinced that I married the wrong person and that there is no way our marriage is ever going to last because we can’t communicate! And really, I think that periodically anyway, especially since being pregnant. I’m a real treat to be married to ūüôā But you know what? No marriage is perfect. I knew when we got married that there would be times where one of us is just completely over our marriage and wants to be done with it. We have an entire life together. It’s naive to think that we’re both going to be happy for the entire marriage.

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Valentine’s Weekend, 2011.

But really, I love him. I’ve known he was “the one” since we first started dating in Iraq in 2008. Even through our break ups, with the longest being over a year, I still never stopped feeling that about him even when I didn’t have any kind of “romantic feelings” for him at all. I just always had a feeling that part of my life was missing, and that part of my life was him.

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Back together again! Braves game in 2013.

Jon really is a man who knows how to love unconditionally. Even when I’m telling him that our marriage will never work, he always reassures me that he didn’t marry me to leave me. He always still shows me the same love. He has always been honest with me and I’ve never had to question him. He takes care of me and loves providing and being the “man of the house.” (Even though I run the house.) He is always supportive of me and my decisions, even when they involve taking a gigantic pay cut just so I could try and get other experience in nursing, in a job that I’m not even planning on staying at.

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The night we got engaged, December 23, 2013.

I’m so grateful to have met him, and especially grateful that we were in Iraq when we met, cause I don’t think our personalities would have ever meshed had we met outside of our deployment! I was far too crazy and too much of a mess before our deployment! When we’re walking along the road and he moves me away from the road or he rubs my back and feet when they hurt, it just reminds me why I love him so much.

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Cabin trip around our wedding, May 2014. (We got courthouse married in January 2014, which is what we actually celebrate as our anniversary.)

Jon really is my rock. I feel like together, we can accomplish anything (well, except for me becoming a world traveling nurse, cause he likes his wife to be at home with him- what’s that all about?!). He really is my other half and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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One of my favorite wedding photos that my brother took of us. That’s my mom in the left side of the photo! I also absolutely loved the photos my brother got of our wedding, even though he wasn’t our photographer. May 24, 2014.

I hope we manage to love each other for the rest of our lives and grow old and saggy together. Although I’m nervous about the changes coming up in our marriage with the addition of a new baby, I also can’t wait for one of Jon’s biggest dreams in life to come true this year: being a father.

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Christmas 2015.

 

 

So much for a money making weekend! Saturday I went into work and it was pretty slow. I think I had 3-4 patients so I kept joking with my supervisor that she should just let me go home. And then she said I could go! I left around 1pm and called Jon to give him a heads up that I was leaving work and that we could spend the day together! Woohoo! Except, I think I was grumpy and Jon was grumpy and we both got home and argued with each other over nothing. And then I was so irritated that we argued when I actually got to leave work early on a weekend that I was just frustrated with that and stayed angry! So it was a disastrous afternoon off, which ended with me running errands and then both of us went to Babies R’ Us and to let Andrew’s dog out. I was seriously exhausted last night, so we were in bed by 10.

Today I went back to work and was scheduled to float for 12 hours. That rarely ever happens! I don’t work with adults much anymore, so they typically don’t schedule me to float. At 7am, my supervisor was asking me if I wanted to go home! I told her I’d stay and somebody else could go, and then she was all, “Just go drink some tea and come find me later.” So I wandered around and chatted everybody up and then at 8:15, I walked past her again and she was like, “Just go home!” Woohoo again! I know I need the money (like, for reals), but how can I not go home on a weekend when Jon and I have so few left together before the baby is born?!

I went home, showered, and then Jon and I went to have breakfast with my mom and dad at J. Christopher’s. It was a lot of fun seeing them this morning actually. I always enjoy spending time with them and really am super grateful to have healthy parents who are going to get to spend so much time with their grandson! Jon and I headed back to their house so Jon could help my dad load up a TV to take to Goodwill and I crashed on the couch. 5am wake-ups are just way too much for me. I do okay if I’m at work, but I totally just crash as soon as I walk out.

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I had Jon get in a picture with me today since we have so few of us together while I’m pregnant! I think this might be our second one total where you can actually see my belly! I should also try and make my hair not look like such a mess right before we take photos.

After that, Jon and I decided to check out Buy Buy Baby cause we’ve never been. I was in cloth diaper heaven, even though they still have a limited selection. Once we left there, we cancelled Jon’s golf membership and came home. I’m not even kidding when I say that as soon as we got home, I took off my shoes and crashed. I think that was the best sleep I’ve had in weeks! I set my alarm so I could sleep for 45 minutes and I seriously felt like I had been asleep forever.

I still wanted to take advantage of some sunlight, so Jon and I decided to finally check out PDK, or DeKalb Peachtree Airport (I have no idea why it’s PDK but isn’t actually named in that order). We live so close to it and see planes land and take off all the time but somehow get distracted whenever we plan on going. Unfortunately, it was super cold when we got there and I think less planes are coming and going on Sunday evenings. Still awesome to check out and one plane did leave and two came in! Definitely need to go back and it’s fun cause they actually have a little playground area! I told Jon I was going to take Jackson and he made fun of me! I just think airplanes are cool! Even if I do hate flying in them!

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We had to go let Andrew’s dog out again (he lives a good 25 minutes away so it’s not like a next-door type of thing) and now we’re home! Jon’s finishing up a game on TV so I assume we’ll do some relaxing together. I picked up a 4 hour shift in the ER tomorrow morning since I decided to miss out on 17 hours of work this weekend and then I’m going to be working on some baby shower stuff with Gina, Kassie, and Laura tomorrow afternoon!

I also figured out my AppleID password and used an app to make a comparison photo of my pregnancy so far!

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9 weeks and 33 weeks. 

Sex in a Marriage

I have all kinds of serious posts lately! Well, not that my sugar problems are serious. They’re not really that serious. (Except I did eat three servings of chocolate and peanut butter popcorn yesterday but hey, now the bag is almost empty!)

I stumbled across this article this morning about not wanting to have sex  by Scary Mommy.

As I discussed in one of my last posts, pregnancy has changed a lot about sex. It’s just not enjoyable right now. Jon has been absolutely fantastic about it. He hasn’t pushed me to have sex at all since I’ve been pregnant and he hasn’t ever made me feel guilty for not wanting to. I know plenty of pregnant women who have the opposite experience with their spouses, but then again, I also know pregnant women who still enjoy having sex while they’re pregnant.

I still love my husband, obviously, but this is a tough part about marriage. We don’t connect as well when we’re not having sex. It just doesn’t happen. Jon connects with me much better when we have sex regularly. He tends to be able to overlook my annoying habits (and those habits are worse while I’m pregnant) much better when he’s getting his jollies off regularly. And I totally get that. Sex has always been a really important part of marriage to him, whereas with me, not so much. Our expectations of how frequently we should have sex are totally different, but it’s something we had worked through before I ever got pregnant.

But being pregnant has been totally different. I just pretty much never want to have sex. The desire isn’t there. Sometimes we try and sometimes I get in the mood and sometimes, it just doesn’t work for me¬†at all. Obviously, I feel like one of my “wifely duties” is to have sex with my husband and to enjoy it. I don’t think I need to have sex with him every day or even every other day, but I do think it’s important to have that connection with your husband.

While I totally get that I’m pregnant and my hormones have changed and my body has changed (and I don’t mean that I feel unattractive- I don’t- Jon still makes me feel sexy while pregnant and I know he is attracted to me, but my boobs have changed and my vagina has changed and there is an entire baby sitting inside of me that just gets in the way), it still makes me feel guilty to not want to have sex. Obviously, Jon will take care of things on his own, but I always feel terrible when he does. I know that I shouldn’t because this is just part of marriage. Our sex life is going to go through good times and bad times, as is everything else about our marriage. But I already feel bad about not being interested in fulfilling that aspect of our marriage, so when he has to resort to taking care of business alone, then I feel like a failure as a wife.

I’ll just reiterate again that Jon does absolutely nothing at all to make me feel that way. I think it’s just the hormones and the realization that our entire life is changing because of this baby, including something as simple as our sex life (but I also know that sex lives in marriages are not always simple, either). I just want to feel like I am still able to meet my husband’s needs, but the fact of the matter is that I just¬†don’t¬†have interest in that right now. That is something that has been really difficult for me to deal with and has made me really emotional at times, because I so badly want to make Jon feel as important as I feel like he is, and that’s one of the ways I can convey that to him. Men aren’t as good at women as understanding that I can still love and value him as much as I could possibly imagine, but still not want to have sex with him. Jon especially equates his value as my husband and how attracted I am to him with how interested I am in sex, and I don’t feel like that in the slightest. To me, sex doesn’t have anything to do with his value or my attraction to him.

I read plenty of comments on that blog about how common this is and how supportive husbands are of the lack of interest in sex by their wives. And I read another about how you can’t expect your husband to stay faithful if you don’t fulfill his needs. I’ve told Jon since we got married that I will be surprised if we make it a lifetime and neither of us cheats. Not that we have any intentions at all, but realistically, there are tons of spouses out there who cheat. Now, I think there is a huge difference between a one time mistake and a long term affair (and between seeking it out and having it just happen), but I don’t necessarily think that a one time cheating episode is divorce worthy. I feel as though Jon is the type of man who would never cheat no matter what because that’s how he was raised and those are the type of men he is surrounded by, but you never know that for sure. Anything can happen. And I know that by not being interested in something so important to Jon, of course that raises those chances. I don’t worry about Jon cheating and that is not why I feel guilty about not wanting to have sex, I just like to acknowledge that I do understand that when a person feels unfulfilled in any way in a marriage, that straying can and does happen.

Anyway, so that’s really about it. Although I feel a bit strange discussing our sex life in depth so publicly, I also try to be completely honest on here and this is just part of marriage, or of any long term relationship, really. We can’t always be on the same page. Unfortunately, when that desire is not there at a all, sometimes it’s hard to manage to get on the same page for even 15 minutes. So far, we haven’t found anything that works for us and I think we’ve just kind of grown accustomed to this, but that’s not what I want. While he seems to have accepted our differences for now, it’s not something that I’ve accepted. I still feel guilty and still want to find something that works. Before we got pregnant, if he tried to get me in the mood, it would almost always work. Now, that isn’t even a success a lot of the times. And when that isn’t a success, I end up feeling worse in the end.

Weekend Ramblings, Baby Ramblings, Workout Ramblings

Happy Monday! It doesn’t even feel like Monday! I guess cause I only worked Sunday this weekend, so my body is confused.¬†Friday night, Jon and I decided to finally start out baby registry! We headed over to Babies R’ Us and started scanning away! It was kind of fun but also kind of stressful. We realized we needed to look up safety ratings for car seats and wanted to research the bigger items and also the body wash type stuff to make sure we’re using something chemical free. After coming home and reading ewg.org, I think I feel like our baby is destined to just get cancer in the future because of all the chemicals in products in the US.

I had planned on working out Saturday morning, but when I woke up, I decided I wanted to finally get breakfast with Jon at Sun in my Belly instead! We showered and headed downtown to go eat, but ended up standing in line for 45 minutes. Oh well. It was worth it! We each ordered a full meal and split a full meal, so I was stuffed by the time we left!

Jon and I ran some errands and tried to find him sweaters at Nordstrom Rack, but I ended up finding a few t-shirts that are more maternity friendly. They’re just longer t-shirts, but at least they’ll cover my belly! We decided to head home afterwards and I crashed on the couch for 2 hours while Jon finished up his errands.

I finally drug myself off the couch at 4pm to go have dinner with my mom and dad for my mom’s birthday! My brother ended up coming too and I haven’t seen him in months. We went out for Mexican, which I enjoyed despite still being sort of full for breakfast. We were also celebrating Jon’s recent birthday (October 19) and my dad getting a new job! I was secretly (not secretly at all, actually) hoping my dad would retire (he is over retirement age) so he could watch Jackson when he’s born, but my dad loves to work too much. So, despite my free babysitter being gone, I’m still really glad my dad found a job since he’s happiest when he’s working! (I have no idea why that gene skipped me, but I would love it if I loved to work as much as my dad does.)

I laid down when we got home to read, and I’m assuming I just didn’t digest any food once I laid down. Around 10pm, right when I was going to go to sleep, I ended up getting really sick feeling. I only threw up once, but it was basically my entire dinner. I was worried that it was some sort of food poisoning at first because certain types of food poisoning can cross the placenta, so it always gets me so worried if I randomly get sick after eating! It really just reminds me how much I want a healthy baby and I’d be devastated if anything happened to Jackson at this point. (Thankfully, I’m getting close to 24 weeks, which is when the NICU can really work some miracles and that makes me feel a bit more reassured.) After I threw up though, I felt much better than I had and fell right to sleep.

I’ve still not been feeling great. I wonder if I just got to the point in pregnancy where my digestion has slowed down too much and I was still eating huge meals. I also tend to drink a ton with meals, and drinking with meals actually hinders digestion (other countries don’t really do drinks with meals like we do). So now I’m trying to eat smaller meals and not drink anything at all while I eat, in hopes of it helping. My appetite still took a huge turn from where it was just a few days ago though. I get hungry, but nothing sounds good and nothing seems to sit well right now. The joys of pregnancy.

Yesterday I worked all day. I had to work with the adults for the first four hours of my shift, and I had a really, really, really difficult drug seeking patient that really irritated me for the entire four hours. I got rid of him right before heading over to the children’s side, and let me tell you, I was so insanely happy to get back to my kids! Unfortunately, the children’s ER ended up being slammed all day long, while hardly any adults came in at all! I rocked an IV on a 7 year old (it was easy- he had a good vein), but I didn’t even get nervous before going in there. It’s little things like that that remind me of my progress as a peds nurse. I used to get so nervous about starting IVs in kids, and now it’s not as traumatizing (for me).

Last night I had to go let Andrew’s (Jon’s friend) dog out since he lives right by my work. Except I forgot. And drove all the way home before I remembered. So I spent almost 90 minutes in the car after working. I’ve never met Andrew’s dog and considering that I’ve been bit by three dogs (two of them were my friends and I knew the dogs, and one ran up to me while I was running and bit my leg), I get nervous around dogs that I don’t know. I went into his house and his dog was hiding from me, and then his dog started growling and barking. No way was I messing with that dog! Jon said she’s super sweet and she probably wouldn’t have done anything, but I wasn’t about to test that theory out.

My pregnancy hormones made me emotional about not being able to let his dog out, so I got a little teary on my way home and I was just feeling inadequate. And really, I am not sensitive at all about my fear of random dogs. I was never scared of them till I got older and was bit by the three dogs. Even after the second one, I wasn’t too fearful, but the third just made me have no interest in random dogs. Goes to show what pregnancy hormones will do to you though. (I should totally make a blog post of all the things I cry about now that I’m pregnant.)

This morning I went to work out and it was decent. I had worked out at CrossFit on Friday, but we had to run and with my first run, I got a ton of cramping in my belly again and had to walk. That night, Jon and I tried to go on a walk, but I started cramping up as soon as we started moving faster. (I had been at the table writing a paper all afternoon so hadn’t noticed earlier.) This morning, we were doing glute bridges and I got sharp pains in my belly. I’m assuming it’s just ligament or muscular pain since everything is stretched out and it’s superficial pain, but still, I just don’t do whatever makes it hurt. So my workouts have felt lame lately. Although, I did a good one this morning regardless. My workout tops are all getting too tight and I had to take my shirt off this morning because it was so annoying stuck to my belly once I started sweating. I really don’t want to invest in maternity workout clothes, so maybe I’ll just start going topless again. Let this baby hang out.

Mmmkay, I just finished breakfast and my cup of tea, so time to get started on my paper. Ugh. I’m so over grad school. Five more semesters to go after this one. (That was depressing.) I’m heading over to my parent’s house tonight most likely to spend the night, but I’m not positive yet. I have to work tomorrow and am dreading it for some reason. I just dread going into my PCU/tele job now. I think cause the mornings are such a hassle with getting report and giving the morning meds, but then the afternoons are usually decent. The mornings just make me dread it though.

Birthday Dinner at Capital Grille

Good morning from my couch, at 7:30am on my day off. I wake up every single day at 5:30 to pee, but some mornings it’s hard to fall back to sleep. I have a lot more discomfort when I’m sleeping than I used to and quite frankly, laying down in bed just isn’t what it used to be. So, might as well get up early and be productive.

I’m kidding about the productive part. I ate two oatmeal cookies, drank tea, and watched an episode of Guy’s Grocery Games while trying to get one of the cats to cuddle with me. For the record, the cats are not interested in me this morning.

Yesterday was a total productivity fail. My house? Still a mess. However, my microwave and fridge?! Spotless! After cleaning the kitchen (so I did at least get the kitchen done), I randomly got the urge to clean out my fridge. I probably take everything out twice a year and clean out the drawers and get rid of expired condiments, so it was time. And my fridge just looks so good. And my microwave too. So, even though the rest of the house that actually matters is a disaster, the fridge is clean. I’ll get to the rest of the house today though. I hope. I have a lot of plans at the beginning of my days lately and usually end up sitting on the couch instead, but whatever.

Jon and I went to our very expensive¬†fancy birthday date night dinner last night! I decided to actually get all fancied up for him, which is really rare. For some reason, I’ll get fancy(ish) to go hang out with friends occasionally, but then I throw on jeans and a t-shirt to go anywhere with Jon. #marriedlife I successfully curled my hair with my wand last night. I’m definitely getting better, even if it’s taking a long time. Then again, I curl my hair like, once every 4-6 months. Ain’t nobody got time for that. And I really suck at using curling irons, which I think are way faster than wands. But I just can’t get the hang of them.

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I’m clearly rambling unnecessarily here. I should not type blog posts when I’m tired at 7:30am.

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I don’t know why Jon didn’t tell me to fix my hairs sticking up all over the place before taking this. This was also right after curling my hair, so the curls hadn’t relaxed yet. Also, this dress was definitely not a maternity dress and got way shorter when I was walking around. Totally bunched up all around this baby.

So, anyway, we went to Capital Grille¬†in Buckhead. Jon went there with a client before and loved his steak and I told him to pick where he wanted to eat. Definitely the nicest place I’ve ever dined before. But it was kind of awesome. I mean, every time I stood up (which was just twice- once to pee and once to leave), a guy magically appeared to pull out my chair! And my biggest pet peeve of not getting refills? After every sip I took, the same guy appeared to refill my water! Like, how does he know that I¬†just¬†drank some water?! If only we were rich, we would experience this more often. (Jon did point out that if we don’t go to Paris in December, we could eat at Capital Grille every week until the end of the year. Thanks. Not happening.)

Anyway, we ate our bread and then I had a butternut squash bisque that was delicious. I think any squash soup is fantastic. I decided to go with salmon for dinner since I tend to be really picky with steaks and I also like them pretty pink on the inside, which is not recommended in pregnancy. So, I’m just staying away from steak until I can have a nice, pink center safely. The salmon was good, but I think I’m just not feeling salmon lately. Last time I ate it (which was months ago), I got sick and threw up all night long. And the last time we bought cod, we didn’t cook it for 3 days and it was insanely fishy and I no longer ever want anything but canned tuna (coming from a girl who¬†loved fish before- maybe it’s the baby/bad recent experiences combo). So, the fish was good, but it was a larger portion and I was kind of over it. Also, apparently the meat is really the main dish at those places, cause nothing came out at all with Jon’s steak and mine had a few green beans. I get tired of eating the same thing after a few bites and like to switch it up, so I would have loved some sides. Maybe sides aren’t a fine dining thing though. For dessert, we both got creme br√Ľl√©e and it was heavenly! I love a good creme br√Ľl√©e! I also asked for a birthday candle in Jon’s since it’s his birthday, and because of that, they gave us dessert to take home for free (they apparently do dessert on the house for birthdays, but we didn’t know that).

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So, after getting home, I dug into the cheesecake that they provided. OMG.¬†OMG.¬†Guys. I love cheesecake. Like,¬†love cheesecake. If I had to pick a favorite dessert, it’d be cheesecake. But I like good cheesecake. And I only like plain cheesecake because why would you ever ruin something so delicious by adding to it?! This cheesecake was like the best thing I have ever tasted. First of all, it was so soft and creamy. Second of all (secondly? second?), it had a br√Ľl√©e topping. It was mind blowing. I think I’m going to go to Capital Grille and order like, 10 cheesecakes at a time. (I’m totally kidding- that would be $100 worth of cheesecake and that thing was way too small. It was not actually an entire pan size of cheesecake, as it could appear in that picture. Dissappointing.)

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This picture is not my picture. It’s from the Capital Grille website. But just check out that perfection.

We hung out for a bit at once we got home, and then Jon asked me when I was going to bed. Apparently he wanted to hang out without me for awhile. He always sleeps on the couch cause he hates our bed, so I guess he just wanted to stretch out. So much for loving his wife. (I kid. He loves me.) I passed out and slept great till 5:30 this morning!

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Fun fact: This picture and the 20 week picture of me are taken in front of walls that are the exact same color. We have really great lighting in our house.

Okay, well, I suppose I should go watch one more episode of Guy’s Grocery Games and then hopefully, I’ll be able to motivate myself to a) drag my ass to the gym or b) drag my ass to anywhere in my house to start cleaning. What will really happen is probably more along the lines of napping on the couch and not getting up till close to noon. I really need to work on grad school stuff today too, plus tonight is a clinic night so I have to head out around 4:30ish for that. I kind of hate having my Tuesday nights off taken up by sitting in traffic and then volunteering, but at the same time, I love the volunteering part and love the clinic, so I deal with it.

Last side note: Jackson has been moving like crazy lately. And his movements are all the way up to my belly button now! He’s such a big boy! I still wish I could keep him in my belly forever. I have no desire to meet him at all yet. I love him moving around in my belly, but I just don’t want him to come out and be a real baby anytime soon. Like, for at least a few years. At the rate we’re going now, we’re going to be like the Jewish people and have to buy all our baby stuff after he’s born. We haven’t bought one thing yet for him. Oh well.

Making Your Health a Priority

Yesterday, Jon and I had plans to go to my mom and dad’s house for dinner. I had to work till 3 so Jon decided to head to their house in the later afternoon. I had already told him that I’d be stopping by the gym on my way there and invited him to go, but he said we already had plans and he wasn’t going to the gym instead. (I did try to tell him that there is no set time to go to my parent’s house, which he knows too, but he wasn’t having it.)

When I called Jon at 3:45 saying I just arrived at the gym, he sounded grumpy. I asked if he was mad that I came to the gym and he said no, that he was just disappointed.

I had actually been thinking lately about the sacrifices you make in order to work out regularly. Back when I was doing CrossFit¬†all the time, I’d tell people we’d have to make plans at a certain time so that I could shower before we met up on a Friday night.

Or does anybody have this conversation with themselves? I have two hours before I need to leave for class. I can either shower and nap, or I can go to the gym and eat and just go to class really dirty again? or If my haircut is at 2, I can either shower and be clean for my haircut, or I can just go to the gym and show up dirty. Is that gross to make them wash my hair after sweating that much? or If I go to the gym right now, I will have to meet up with Laura in my gym clothes. Should I just go home and change or show up again in gym clothes?

Part of being dedicated to staying active is making sacrifices. Instead of being lazy on the couch like you¬†really want to do¬†on a rainy day, you get up and move. Instead of having time to shower, you go to the gym. (By the way, the gym almost always wins, no matter what the dilemma is.) Sometimes I have to postpone my plans with Jon so that I have time to get a workout in and take a shower. I also always meal prep the night before work because I don’t eat prepackaged lunch foods, so I always have to allow time to cook when I’m planning my off days. I really do plan a lot of my life around having time to maintain my health.

It can be difficult staying active when you’re married to somebody who isn’t nearly as active. I’m really glad that I’ve finally recommitted to the gym and go very regularly, but when Jon and I are traveling, he won’t stop at a gym so we can work out. He still gets disappointed if I show up to my parent’s house an hour late so that I can have 35 minutes at the gym for a day! And I get it. I’d be frustrated if he wanted to go shooting on all of our trips or go fishing. But, he can tell me I’m being selfish for stopping by the gym before making it to my mom and dad’s. In my mind, it’s not. I mean, I wouldn’t show up to a wedding late for the gym and I wouldn’t make my family wait on me for dinner- I was getting there well before dinner! I don’t think taking care of yourself is selfish- it is what will preserve your health for when your have grandkids or even just 15 years from now if I have to be a caregiver for my mom and dad in their old age! (Note: I was not upset with Jon for his opinion and he wasn’t really upset with me for going to the gym, but I’m trying to show the two sides of this in a marriage as well.)

But we have fully capable bodies and the way to keep them capable as we age is to be active and to use it! I work with too many elderly patients who are overweight, have osteoporosis, COPD (can’t breathe), can barely walk, and I never want to that to be me. I’m really trying hard in our pre-baby phase to make sure working out is one of my top priorities so that it will remain important throughout our life, so that when we are two saggy geriatrics sitting next to each other, we can still live our lives to the fullest. Besides, when I go out on a hike or to enjoy nature with friends or family, I don’t want to be struggling to keep up or to breathe. Doesn’t it take away from the beauty of what you’re doing if you’re more focused on how you feel like you’re dying? I don’t want to that to be me.

Monday Updates: ClassPass, Shooting, Super Bowl

Happy Monday! I was actually supposed to work form 11-3 today for somebody, but they JUST called me off work for the four hours! I can’t say that I’m the least bit disappointed since I was really not feeling work today! Aside from a Svelte class (from ClassPass) this evening, my day is now wide open to get cleaning and taxes worked on! How fun.

This past week was a fairly busy one! I worked pretty much every other day, and the days I was off, Jon was off as well. I never really talked about it in my blog, but Jon quit school this past semester so that he could hopefully get a job as a clinical rep. It was a fairly long process and he found out at the end of January that he didn’t get the job, which came as a bit of a surprise. He is still only working Monday, Wednesday, and Fridays for right now (that’s what he was working while he was in school) and we’re hoping to get his work situation sorted out soon so that he can go back to full time. I want to make sure we have stable health insurance coverage if we’re going to be having babies. That’s also why I was waiting on an MRI, but clearly, that won’t be happening now. (I’m not too worried about the MRI since I’m definitely improving now. Slowly but surely!)

Anyway, when Jon and I have days off together during the week, we typically spend some time hanging out with each other so I don’t really get on the computer much! This past week we ran a bunch of errands and enjoyed a coffee shop together!

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We were hoping to hike, but it never ended up happening! We did go to the range one night for some shooting fun! I don’t think it’ll be a regular outing as it cost us close to $150 (WHO KNEW?!), but it was good to shoot my gun again and I got some hands on time with Jon’s. I like to make sure I remember how to use them every so often since they’re in the house and when Jon is out of town, I have to protect myself against any intruders! The cats won’t be much help. Also, that $150 was totally worth it because at the end, this guy came in with some really awesome guns and he let Jon shoot them and I haven’t seen him that excited in a long time! He was like a kid in a candy store. (That gun in the picture is mine. I prefer revolvers.)

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Last Wednesday night, Laura and I tried a Pure Barre class in Druid Hills and it was absolutely terrible. We were totally lost and the woman kept telling us to tuck and extend. Who knows what we were tucking. I thought our tailbone, but then in most of the positions, there was no way to tuck it? We were lost. We hated it. Fail. We won’t be going back. I did my first BodyPump class at Adrenaline GX¬†on Saturday morning. It was super crowded but it was also a pretty good workout! I sweat a little bit, even if only from the warm air in the room. I was also excited to do squats, even if they were only with about 30#! No pain in my hip! I would like to give it a shot at LA Fitness when I can really focus on the movement, but I’m hopeful! Lunges are still out, but if I could do squats, I’d be a happy girl! Overall, I’m enjoying checking out these studios and getting a different type of workout! I do miss going to either CrossFit or LA Fitness because I’m not getting in much cardio or strength at these gyms, and I definitely miss it. This week I’m trying a TRX class (I am SO excited about this one!), a kettle bell class, and then Laura and I are going back to our Cardio Muscle Mix class that we did the other week.¬†I may try to make it in to LA Fitness on my work nights this week and try to go for a run on my days off since I have a 5k coming up.

Also, I’ve had a lot of recent search terms about ClassPass and their cancellation policy! My guess is because it is nearly impossible to find anything on the website about it and there is no contact number to call them! But when I missed my very first class because I couldn’t find it, I had emailed ClassPass and they responded saying they know that sometimes people get sick or something happens and to just email them about it so they can cancel that $20 fee. The website tracks your classes, so I assume if cancellations happened frequently, the response may be different… But I was happy with the customer service regarding that class!

Last night Jon and I went over to Crista and Billy’s for the Super Bowl. I was totally not interested at all and was looking forward to going home after work, but it was good to see Crista! Thankfully we had a¬†really¬†slow afternoon at work (funny how people stay out of the ER when it’s convenient for them) so I wasn’t totally beat, but by the time we got home, I got ready for bed, read for 20 minutes, and crashed hard. I didn’t wake up till Tom sat on my face this morning for his morning cuddles!

Alrighty, time to go attempt to be productive in this dreary weather! It’s bumming me out!

One Year Anniversary Weekend, ClassPass: Svelte, Land of a Thousand Hills

I had a great weekend, despite being sick! Saturday night was mine and Jon’s one year anniversary date night at The Melting Pot! We used to go there on Christmas Eve, but this year we weren’t feeling like spending $100 on dinner right after a cross country road trip and Christmas shopping! So we pushed it back and made it our one year anniversary night.

Although most of you don’t know this, Jon and I actually got married on January 24th, 2014. We decided to go ahead and do a courthouse wedding because I wanted to start getting licensed in other states under my new name and didn’t want the hassle of changing it all around right before starting to do travel nursing. So we went to the courthouse on a Friday afternoon when I was hangry and had a 12 second ceremony in the hallway of the courthouse, with all the other couples waiting to get married as our guests. I was too hungry to even make it for the 10 minute ceremony and we knew we had a real wedding coming up. So, here we are in the courthouse.

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Stunning wedding photo. Afterwards, we went to Leon’s Full Service Garage to eat since we had heard great things about it and we were both slightly disappointed. Then we went home and Jon took a nap. So ladies and gents, that was our real wedding day.

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We’ve decided to celebrate this as our real anniversary since we felt like we were married after that. I had to change my name at work, so quite a few people found out about it (although, we kept it from most people attending our wedding).

I will say, this past year has been better than I could have imagined. I’ll ignore the parts prior to our actual wedding when I think we may have hated each other (wedding planning is a bitch, what can I say?), but after that, things have been great! I truly love him more now than I thought I could after one year of marriage. We’ve grown together and are really becoming a team. I love planning our lives together in the future and knowing he’s mine for the rest of my life!

Anyway, so back to date night… We had some delicious fondue at The Melting Pot! I was hoping Jon would let me ask our server to take our picture, but he refused. So we took an “ussie.”

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Afterwards, we come home and Jon surprised me by having my Gina, Kassie, and Laura over with their boyfriends! He was hoping to get all of my bridesmaids, but Annie (my sister) couldn’t make it down from Wisconsin and Crista was sick.

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¬†(I have no idea why all our blankets ended up on our fireplace that night, and Tom has to always be near us. I should have put my heels¬†back on so I’d be taller!)

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(Kassie, Gina, me, Laura.)

We all hung out for awhile and then when they went home, Jon and I read our one year anniversary letters and reread our vows and danced to our song. I have a sweet man!

Sunday morning, Laura and I woke up for a barre class at Svelte. This class was nice since it was actually close to our houses! I’m not sure that this was the exact same as a pure barre class or not since I’ve never taken one, but it was definitely tiring! I still prefer workouts where I actually work up a sweat, but my legs were shaking during this workout so I still definitely enjoyed it! I’m hoping to go back, but I work almost every Sunday in February so I don’t know that I’ll make it to that particular one! I’m really having fun trying some different types of workouts though!

After our class, Jon and I decided to go to get coffee at my new favorite place but the parking lot was full so we weren’t allowed in! Instead we found Land of a Thousand Hills, which I have actually been wanting to try! I thought it was cute and the coffee was so good! I’d definitely go back there!

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We somehow decided to go look at open houses, so we spent the next two hours looking at open houses! We loved the first house we saw, but of course, we aren’t ready to buy quite yet! We’ll put our condo on the market whenever I get pregnant (not yet). I think we’ll make open houses a regular thing when I’m off on Sundays though. It was a ton of fun to just go look around!

After our housing explorations, we stopped by my mom and dad’s and Jon and I went on a walk with my dad since it was such a nice day out! After eating some dinner with them, we headed out to see American Sniper. Definitely a good movie. Oddly enough, the trial is coming up for the guy who actually killed Chris Kyle. I’m curious how the jury will end up ruling since it sounds like the guy had some serious PTSD when he killed Chris Kyle.

Anyway, I’m up and moving around this morning! I’m heading out to another ClassPass class at noon. This one looks just like CrossFit without the name attached, so we’ll see how it goes! I haven’t been doing CrossFit for months and have stayed away from the lifts because of my hip, but I’m excited to do a fast paced workout! I need to get some grocery shopping done after the gym and really start on my taxes now that my grad school application is 100% finished!

Life These Days: Gym, Sushi, Hangouts, Work, Volunteering, & Cooking

I’ve definitely been enjoying my time away from the computer lately! It’s been so busy being at home and when I’m not busy, I’m enjoying my own bed and my cats. As much as I love traveling, I’m really just loving being at home. It’s hard to imagine leaving here for months on end again. So here’s what I’ve been up to! I ended up working a bunch last week, which I suppose I should be really excited about since I’m getting paid better than I was expecting, but still- a break would be more welcome!

I also volunteered at the clinic that I mentioned in my last post on Tuesday night! Surprisingly, I enjoyed it. My role was super easy- I flowed patients from the different areas and then gave them their meds before they left the clinic. The clinic is a “free” ($20 donations suggested by patients, but apparently is rare) clinic for residents of certain areas in the county and they only take care of certain things (hypertension, diabetes treatment with oral meds, hypothyroidism…), but it was good! People were so grateful for the care and most of the people there have been working the clinic for awhile and the time really did go by fast! I plan on volunteering every Tuesday until I leave, and hopefully even when I get home from my final travels!

Last week, I finally broke out my Toasted Marshmallow coffee that I’ve been saving up! I think that light roasts just aren’t my favorite anymore! The flavor was good, but it’s just not bold enough for me. I prefer a little more oomph to my coffee. I’ll still be finishing the bag, but I’m looking forward to a darker roast next time. (Note my Death Valley cup!)

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Although I got to cook while I was traveling, I missed my own kitchen! I missed my food processor and my own pots and pans and all my spices. I would buy things I knew I’d use in a shorter amount of time, but at home, I can buy whatever I want! So I had a day of cooking for work and making my main man some dinner in¬†my kitchen!

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The outcome of all that hard work:

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I had what felt like a really long day at work on Friday! I loved my assignment, but we had a ton of back to back traumas with a bunch of ambulances coming in as well, so we got slammed. And the person who was flowing our department is not my favorite and always makes for a long day! So… By the time I left work, I was starving and in need of a break! Sushi it was! I haven’t had sushi since I stopped at a Hy-Vee on my way to Colorado the first week in October! Love me some sushi!

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On Saturday, Jon and I went to the gym together. My hip has me even more limited these days and it was crowded as all get out with all these New Years Resolutioners, so we kept it to a fairly quick trip. We headed over to look at some shoes for work and then ended up meeting up with Crista and Billy for the evening! We had planned on ice skating but none of us were really feeling it, and since I have a cold, we decided against it! Instead we all just chilled inside and took down Christmas decorations!

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Today I stayed in bed till 11:30 watching my cats sleep and then ran a ton of errands! I had a good hour at the gym, although my leg workouts have been pretty much non weight bearing and that’s a bummer! But I’m back to walking inclines on the treadmill and I maintain my heart rate around 180 during the inclines, so I’m happy with it. It’s definitely more tiring than just running is for me right now since I still can’t run that fast comfortably with my hip. Tonight, I think I managed to finish up my resume, so I’ll be sending that out to grad school since all my application stuff is due by Feb 1st! I meant to work on taxes today, but oops, I forgot. Instead, I enjoyed this face and am now about to head to bed!

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