January 18, 2016

So much for a money making weekend! Saturday I went into work and it was pretty slow. I think I had 3-4 patients so I kept joking with my supervisor that she should just let me go home. And then she said I could go! I left around 1pm and called Jon to give him a heads up that I was leaving work and that we could spend the day together! Woohoo! Except, I think I was grumpy and Jon was grumpy and we both got home and argued with each other over nothing. And then I was so irritated that we argued when I actually got to leave work early on a weekend that I was just frustrated with that and stayed angry! So it was a disastrous afternoon off, which ended with me running errands and then both of us went to Babies R’ Us and to let Andrew’s dog out. I was seriously exhausted last night, so we were in bed by 10.

Today I went back to work and was scheduled to float for 12 hours. That rarely ever happens! I don’t work with adults much anymore, so they typically don’t schedule me to float. At 7am, my supervisor was asking me if I wanted to go home! I told her I’d stay and somebody else could go, and then she was all, “Just go drink some tea and come find me later.” So I wandered around and chatted everybody up and then at 8:15, I walked past her again and she was like, “Just go home!” Woohoo again! I know I need the money (like, for reals), but how can I not go home on a weekend when Jon and I have so few left together before the baby is born?!

I went home, showered, and then Jon and I went to have breakfast with my mom and dad at J. Christopher’s. It was a lot of fun seeing them this morning actually. I always enjoy spending time with them and really am super grateful to have healthy parents who are going to get to spend so much time with their grandson! Jon and I headed back to their house so Jon could help my dad load up a TV to take to Goodwill and I crashed on the couch. 5am wake-ups are just way too much for me. I do okay if I’m at work, but I totally just crash as soon as I walk out.

I had Jon get in a picture with me today since we have so few of us together while I’m pregnant! I think this might be our second one total where you can actually see my belly! I should also try and make my hair not look like such a mess right before we take photos.

After that, Jon and I decided to check out Buy Buy Baby cause we’ve never been. I was in cloth diaper heaven, even though they still have a limited selection. Once we left there, we cancelled Jon’s golf membership and came home. I’m not even kidding when I say that as soon as we got home, I took off my shoes and crashed. I think that was the best sleep I’ve had in weeks! I set my alarm so I could sleep for 45 minutes and I seriously felt like I had been asleep forever.

I still wanted to take advantage of some sunlight, so Jon and I decided to finally check out PDK, or DeKalb Peachtree Airport (I have no idea why it’s PDK but isn’t actually named in that order). We live so close to it and see planes land and take off all the time but somehow get distracted whenever we plan on going. Unfortunately, it was super cold when we got there and I think less planes are coming and going on Sunday evenings. Still awesome to check out and one plane did leave and two came in! Definitely need to go back and it’s fun cause they actually have a little playground area! I told Jon I was going to take Jackson and he made fun of me! I just think airplanes are cool! Even if I do hate flying in them!

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We had to go let Andrew’s dog out again (he lives a good 25 minutes away so it’s not like a next-door type of thing) and now we’re home! Jon’s finishing up a game on TV so I assume we’ll do some relaxing together. I picked up a 4 hour shift in the ER tomorrow morning since I decided to miss out on 17 hours of work this weekend and then I’m going to be working on some baby shower stuff with Gina, Kassie, and Laura tomorrow afternoon!

I also figured out my AppleID password and used an app to make a comparison photo of my pregnancy so far!

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9 weeks and 33 weeks.

December 3, 2015

Cats, Coffee, Crepes, & CrossFit

OMG so much to say, guys! I’m kidding. Except it has been a really busy week. Oddly enough, I took this week off to finish up my assignments for the semester and I have literally done no work at all related to school so far. But today I have to finish my paper because tomorrow, I have far too much to get done before we head out for vacation!

Anyway, so I can’t recap all my days in detail because that’d be too long and really, nobody cares, I’m sure. This post is brought to you by Tom and me.

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Sometimes you just want to eat a piece of cheese without your cat trying to be all up in your business, but I’m just so happy that this big orange blob is healthy again that I just let him run my entire house and sit anywhere he wants.

In other news, yesterday Jon got had a light day of work so I asked him if we could finally go to Julianna’s Crepes. I have been wanting to go there for so ridiculously long but just never end up going. It’s not really in a convenient part of town for us. But I saw it on a link I had saved and it reminded me how much I wanted to go, so we made it.

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It was so freaking delicious! They have a handful of sweet crepes and a handful of savory crepes. Their Nutella and strawberry crepe was better than a lot of the ones I had in Europe. Their savory one was also really awesome too, so I am seriously excited about going back and trying more of their crepes. They brew Batdorf & Bronson coffee so it really put me in the mood for a latte, but they don’t make lattes there.

Afterwards, I got Jon to stop at Dancing Goats for a Batdorf & Bronson vanilla latte.

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I’m definitely loving Batdorf & Bronson coffee lately. Unfortunately, there aren’t too many places that brew it around here (and make actual coffee drinks- some places make regular pots of coffee with their beans). The coffee is just so smooth though. It reminds me so much of Dutch Bros because Dutch Bros is some of the smoothest coffee I’ve ever had. Even Dutch Bros 911 (which is 6 shots of espresso) is super smooth and not bitter at all.

Speaking of Dutch Bros, there’s one in Carson City, Nevada! And it’s like, a mile off the main road we’re taking to Lake Tahoe! I am SO FREAKING EXCITED! I am definitely going to get some Dutch Bros! I seriously crave it all the time and can never get it, obviously, since it’s a Western US thing. I told Jon I want to open some franchises in Atlanta because Atlantans love their coffee too, but he told me no. #dreamcrusher

Monday night, Jon and I also had a date night together. We went to an older movie theater and saw Spotlight. We were one of three couples in the whole theater! And it was such an old theater and I just loved it. I want to make it our new date spot because it’s close and it was so cute! The movie was pretty good but the end was kind of disappointing. Gina said she saw the movie too and wasn’t a huge fan of it, but it has good reviews.

Tuesday night, Laura and I went and got Buford Hwy foot massages. Buford Hwy is the big international road the runs through the northern end of Atlanta, so anything “Buford Hwy…” usually indicates some sort of foreign experiences. The massages were not really anything special. The people did literally the exact same thing to our feet and I feel like if you’re going to give a massage, you need to make it specific to each person. What my feet need may not be what Laura’s feet need. There was also hardly any pressure and I left wanting Jon to give me a foot massage! But the atmosphere was nice and I decided I need to play spa music at my house more often to help de-stress. I haven’t done it yet though.

Thankfully, Jon did massage my feet when I got home from my foot massage that I actually paid for because he’s the best and he loves me. And then the next day Kassie told me that pregnant women need to be careful with foot massages because it can induce labor. So I googled it and there is so much stuff on google about inducing labor with foot massages! WTF! And the exact spots they showed were the exact spots where I have been sore and that Jon has really been focusing on. (My feet have reached a whole new level of being sore recently.) Good thing he hasn’t put me into labor yet!

Last night, we had our book club meeting at my house. Apparently there is a lot of drama in book club since I joined, since myself and one of the other girls don’t work normal hours. Before they would plan around her, but now there are two people to plan around. It has been so petty. And then at the last minute, one other girl cancelled. So it was Gina, Kassie, Rachel, and me. And we ate pizza and talked and I showed them all the baby clothes that Jon’s parents bought for us. It was just nice to hang to with friends, as always. I do love friend time!

I also made these Paleo pumpkin muffins that are delicious. If you leave out all the spices she mentions and just add cinnamon, pumpkin pie spice, and nutmeg, that’s what I did. Except I added a ton of cinnamon. And cooked them for way longer than that says, but they are super good. (I ate all the golden pieces off the tops while they were halfway through cooking. So that’s why every muffin is missing part of the top.)

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Other than that, I managed to stay active this week. Clearly my sugar intake hasn’t decreased, but whatever. I did a 30-40 minute workout at LA Fitness on Tuesday. It was after I made my first French press coffee ever and definitely brewed it far too strong, but it was delicious and I drank all of it. So I killed the elliptical cause my energy was insane and then I felt totally out of it and weird from the caffeine. So the rest of my workout wasn’t that awesome. I went to CrossFit yesterday at my usual ClassPass gym and had to modify the entire thing since I’m trying to be careful not to further separate my abs. And then today I went to a CrossFit gym that I had gone to awhile ago on ClassPass (they didn’t have classes posted for a long time, so I haven’t been in a few months) and the owner was there, who I hadn’t met. But he was fun to talk to and I really liked the atmosphere and energy there today. I’m going back tomorrow, too. I plan on Saturday being an off day, and then our hotel has a gym in Tahoe so I’m taking gym clothes to hopefully work out every day that I’m there.

I also happened to work 4 hours this morning (I was called in) and I’ve already been called in from 7-11a tomorrow. So this afternoon will be my homework day and tomorrow will be my get-shit-done day before our trip.

December 1, 2015

Eating Unhealthy

Lately, I’ve been totally failing on the eating front. Well, that may be a bit dramatic. I still eat quite a bit of healthy foods, but now I just tend to eat a lot of unhealthy foods too. But I have always been healthy and have always had quite a bit of self control when it comes to eating. Aside from my nightly handful of Enjoy Life chocolate chunks (which I had just recently started eating), I didn’t buy sweets at all. I didn’t bring bread into my house. I stopped eating yogurt because it just is really not friendly to my digestive tract. You know, things like that… Just being in tune with how my body reacted to foods and keeping those things out of the house.

Lately? Well, it’s been quite the eating shit show over here. I used to be able to easily pass up the peppermint bark pretzels and chocolate and peanut butter drizzled popcorn, but now? Those sneaky treats just keep on making their way into my shopping cart, and then I eat them all. Sometimes in one sitting, sometimes in multiple. (Just a side note here: Those peppermint bark pretzels are seriously amazing. I mean, they may be up there as my number one favorite store bought dessert. I can’t even put into words how freaking delicious they are.) I also used to be able to look at the box of Dunkin’ Donuts on the break room table at work and pass them by, but those days are long gone. A donut and three donut holes? Sure. Why not?!

The sad thing about this is that my body is getting accustomed to this type of eating again. I will never forget visiting my sister in Wisconsin a few years back. I had been eating strict Paleo for a solid five months, and I’d say that I ate Paleo 99.9% of the time. I was even eating Paleo at Mexican restaurants, and all I ever want is chips, cheese dip, and a bean burrito. But I stuck to my diet. And I was totally fine with it. I mean, I ate Paleo baked goods occasionally, but I had no problems with eating that way. It became easy. But when I went to visit my sister, we made some muffins and they were so freaking good. I ate three of them. (I could easily kill three muffins now like it’s no big deal.)

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I actually just came across this picture of those exact muffins! They were pumpkin cream cheese muffins. No wonder they were so good!

After my muffin gorge, I went to bed. I woke up in the middle of the night and was miserable. I was sweating, my heart was racing, I was nauseous, and I felt insanely uncomfortable. It was like there was a rock sitting in my stomach and I had literally never felt that before.

(Another random site note: I was a vegetarian for 13 years and expected to feel that way when I started eating meat again because I thought my body wouldn’t be used to it. Oddly enough, I have never had that reaction to any meat product. The fact that it was so severe to bread after just five months of not eating it was crazy to me.)

I’ll really never forget that experience. Clearly, my body doesn’t tolerate bread. I just never knew it because I had never gone without it before I started eating Paleo. If you read about a lot of food intolerances, you won’t even realize you have them because your body is in a constant state of inflammation. Until you cut the foods out, you won’t notice your body react to them. And I had a major unexpected reaction.

Lately, I notice when I binge eat sugary stuff at home and then sit down and relax, my heart is definitely beating faster than usual. It’s that same response that I had to bread, but it’s not nearly as severe because my body is already constantly inflamed from eating these foods on a daily basis. It just gets worse when I eat a bunch at once.

I have no idea why it suddenly became so hard for me to go back to Paleo. It wasn’t a hard transition the first time around. Then again, I was living on my own, not pregnant, living at a CrossFit gym pretty much, and my best friend who I spent all of my time with was eating Paleo too. I know how much better I feel when I cut out certain foods, but it has been so hard to get back on track. And I know it isn’t time. I was working close to 60 hours a week back then and I was working on my bachelor’s degree online, plus going out all the time. Yet I still managed to shred my own sweet potatoes to make hash every week and cook literally every single thing that I ate.

Anyway, so I have no idea what the point of this was. Maybe that I need to somehow find a way to motivate myself to eat healthier. You would think growing a baby would be enough motivation to make sure he’s growing healthy in there (especially since the effects of glyphosates on babies in utero seem like to they could cause some serious health issues- although I think further research needs to be done and I’m sure Monsanto would have a field day trying to hide those studies). Perhaps I’ll just blog about this more frequently until eating healthy becomes more of a habit again as a way to kind of hold myself responsible. We’ll see.

Fun fact: I also maintained my heaviest weight while eating Paleo. I was 105lbs, but also lifting heavy. I easily grew and maintained muscle though and never used protein powders. So I know I was properly fueling my body for muscle gain.

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I just scrolled through my mobile uploads and found a picture from that time! So much muscle! Man, I miss those days! Also, I forgot how much fun I had back during that single year (2012- when Jon and I were broken up. I also had some harder times, but overall, it was quite the fun year!) And now I’m having a baby and life will NEVER BE THE SAME! Waaahhhh!

Anyway, time to go relax for a few more minutes before heading off to LA Fitness for a quick and easy workout (I’m doing CrossFit for the next 3 days, so nothing crazy today).

November 30, 2015

Healthy(er) Cats and 26 Week Prenatal Appointment

Happy MONDAY! And Happy Late Thanksgiving! I had planned on making a blog post last week about all the things I’m thankful for, but really, it was just a crazy week with all the vet happenings last week.

After being super emotional on Wednesday night and Thursday morning on my drive to work over Tom still being lethargic, I got home from work on Thursday night to a cuddly Tom! I really think it was like, the happiest moment of my life. Even better than my wedding day. Is that sad? I think it just really makes me officially a crazy cat lady, but I don’t even care.

I don’t know if you can see the complete and utter happiness in that top left photo, but I cried lots of tears of joy over him acting like himself! I had just been so worried that because his labs were so incredibly high and he didn’t seem to be getting better, that it would cost us tons of money to get him better. I think I was just making a mountain out of a molehill and was worried we’d have to put him to sleep if he cost much more, especially with having baby costs too! His cuddles haven’t stopped since Thursday night. I think he’s happy to be feeling better too!

Friday morning I went to my Elevate Interval Cardio class (my usual Saturday morning class) and felt like dying. An hour is just too long to work out now. I can do CrossFit since the hour isn’t consistent and we warm up, do some lifting, and then only work out consistently for 15-20 minutes, which I can do. A whole hour is killer these days.

Tom and I ran up to the vet right after to get him an antibiotic injection and then I napped real quick and headed to my mom and dad’s for our Thanksgiving celebration.

Unfortunately, Jon was in Florida all weekend for the holidays since I had to work, so it was just my mom, dad, brother, and me. It was still nice to hang out over there and eat my favorite meal of the year, but I missed having Jon with me!

Saturday and Sunday were work days! Jessica, my old travel buddy, stopped by Saturday night to sleep over here on her way back home. It was so good to see her but I wish she had been able to come when it wasn’t my work weekend! Hopefully I’ll see her again sometime soon, but who knows when! Babies make this type of stuff sort of unpredictable!

Jon got home last night and he was a good husband and rubbed my tired feet! They were killing me from work. And work was stressful yesterday because I really had my first taste of needing a central line put in a patient and not having an ER doctor to just pop one in. Almost four hours and 32,098 phone calls later, I finally got a central line. But really… The ER is so quick about things like that and it was just eye opening. Anyway, I also watched Jon put together our new stroller (and infant car seat) that Jon’s parents bought us while he was in Florida. They bought us 7 or 8 newborn outfits too! So nice of them! Of course, Tom has to be right in the middle of the action… Then I went to bed at 9:30 last night. It’s not easy to work two 13 hour shifts in a row while pregnant, especially when I spent both days almost entirely on my feet.

This morning was my OB/GYN appointment. I haven’t talked much about pregnancy lately. An odd thought which may be too much information, but want to know what nobody tells you about being pregnant? There is no room in your vagina to have sex anymore. I always heard that you have to get creative with positions because your belly gets in the way, but really, the belly is the least of my problems. I’m assuming because your huge uterus ends up so low in your pelvis, there is just literally no place to put anything else. And not only does your vagina end up being 2″ deep, but with all the extra fluid, it just feels swollen inside of there. I asked my OB if this was normal today and she said it is completely normal. I’ve had people tell me that sex is still great in the second trimester but I have no idea where they’re putting things to make it so great. But a fun part of this stage in pregnancy is watching Jackson move! I can see my belly moving all the time, even through my clothes. And when I look at my bare belly now, I can see what is probably a foot or elbow pushing out on my belly instead of just seeing the big rolling movements. It’s so fun to watch!

Anyway, my appointment went well. I’m 26 weeks and 2 days and have gained 19lbs. My OB warned me today to “watch what I eat” over the holidays because I started at a normal weight, so I should only gain 20-25lbs for the whole pregnancy. Personally, I’m giving myself 30lbs because I started at the extreme low end of a normal weight (5′ and 98lbs) and I’ve also started doing CrossFit a little more, so I feel like I may have gained 2-3lbs in muscle because I typically do. But I have been eating a ton of sugary stuff lately that I never, ever ate before getting pregnant, so I guess I really do need to try and cut that stuff out again! Not just for my weight gain, but because that food is just bad for me. I also had my glucose test and had glucose in my urine after it, so she said I may have failed it, but we’ll know in 2-3 days. I feel like having glucose in my urine isn’t all that abnormal for me, regardless of pregnancy. Sometimes I do, sometimes I don’t. The sugar drink made me have so much reflux though and it hasn’t really gone away. Which, by the way, is another fantastic part of pregnancy. There is nowhere for your food to go, so it constantly feels like you have undigested food just sitting there, waiting to come up every time you bend over and move around too much… Back to the appointment though! At the end, I had to schedule my next few appointments and my doctor was saying, “Okay, in 3 weeks, you’ll come back so you’ll be 29 weeks, and then you’ll come back in another 3 weeks at 32 weeks, and then you’ll start coming every 2 weeks so 34 and 36 weeks.” And then it was really like, oh shit, I’M ALMOST 30 WEEKS! I mean, I have another month, but time is just flying by. I can’t believe that my appointments will go to every two weeks after my December 23rd appointment. I flipped through my calendar to write down the dates and it almost puts me into a panic just thinking about how close we are to having a real live baby at home, taking up all of my time!!!

I had planned on coming home and going to the gym, but instead I had terrible reflux so I ended up laying on the couch, propped up on pillows, and crashing. I have to seriously recover after two workdays anymore. I mean, I slept from 10-8am, solid. Like, didn’t wake up once. And I was still exhausted when I got home from the OB!

Tom and I had to run to a specialty vet today for his ultrasound, which was insanely expensive and I didn’t feel like he really needed it since he’s been acting normal and has been eating a little bit on his own now. But on Friday, the vet tech told me to keep the appointment so I did. And of course, they said he has pancreatitis. Which I already knew.

I’m home now… Just relaxing! I was going to go to the gym after the vet, but I still am having horrible reflux and don’t want to. I have all week off to get my last grad school paper of the semester done, so I’ll have plenty of opportunity for gym time! Apparently I just need to stick with morning workouts cause once I eat, it just goes downhill from there!

Jon and I are planning on doing something together tonight! Maybe going to a movie or something. We’re not sure… But it’ll be nice to spend some time together!

Mmmkay, hope you all have a good day!

October 30, 2015

21 Weeks Pregnant and Not Loving It

Happy Friday! It’s in the 50s and sunny today and is such a beautiful day! Unfortunately, I think tomorrow is supposed to be cloudy, but I’m going to try and get some outside time in today.

I had to work yesterday at my ER job and was kind of irritated all day long. Nobody told me they switched the board, so at 3pm, I went from our children’s ER to the adult ER. I hadn’t planned on that, and since I was feeling sick all day yesterday, I had postponed my lunch and was going to take it around 3pm (easy to do on the children’s side). At 2:55, one of the other nurses informed me that I wasn’t on the board in the children’s side anymore at 3pm. Come to find out, they moved me and I didn’t know, so I never took a real lunch yesterday. Then they gave me a c-diff patient (it’s a bacteria that’s in the gut and causes diarrhea) that had come to the ER after positively testing for it. For some reason, they acted like she had to be brought back immediately, even though the girl surely had been out in the general public for awhile with the infection while she was waiting for three stool cultures to come back positive by her regular doctor. While the bacteria isn’t potentially harmful to the baby, I worry more about the antibiotics it takes to treat it (they’re all Class C) and you know, why risk it if I don’t have to?! She could wait another few minutes for another room. Luckily, the nurse next to me was willing to switch, although I did call to speak to our flow coordinator about it. My very next patient was a woman who came directly from chemo! I mean, come on! Oncology nurses still care for chemo patients while they’re pregnant, but in general, nurses in other departments tend not to care for them if we don’t have to. Chemo kills off healthy, multiplying cells, which is exactly what a baby is. Again, why risk it if I don’t have to? The woman easily could have waited for the next room. I ended up being tied up with a critical patient for over two hours though, so I never even stepped foot into the woman’s room. I’m not somebody who is ever concerned about contracting any sort of illnesses at work. During that whole Ebola thing, I never thought twice about it. I take care of people in the ER who are undiagnosed for communicable infections all the time (HIV, tuberculosis, whatever) and am fine with it. But with being pregnant, I just feel like there is no reason to risk an unborn baby for patients when our department has (literally) 17-18 other available nurses to care for them. I’m really against having to take medications while pregnant unless absolutely necessary, but if you can do things to avoid taking Class C medications, why not take those precautions?

Also, I took out one of my new teas to drink it yesterday and noticed that the package said to speak with your doctor before drinking it if you’re pregnant. I had never even considered that, but when I looked it up, I found that there are a few herbs you shouldn’t consume via teas while pregnant because they’re more concentrated. Who knew?! Then I was paranoid about the tea I’ve been drinking, but I looked them up at work yesterday and the ingredients listed are nothing to be concerned about. However, some sites still said to avoid tea while pregnant in general. Ugh. Who even thinks about all of this?! No deli meat. Limit your fish intake. Don’t even drink tea. WTF. (I’m still going to drink my other teas- they’re non-herbal- I’ll just stay away from the herbal teas.)

Since this whole post is all about pregnancy, I’ll just stick with the theme. I’m still nauseous pretty much all the time now. Still in a different way than morning sickness where I felt super nauseous all the time and had major food aversions. But now, I just feel like I’m going to actually throw up a lot. I had to stop working out this morning after about 18 minutes (luckily the workout was 20 minutes long) because I thought I was going to throw up. Every time I eat a meal, it makes me feel awful. I’ve been having to eat small things more frequently to avoid feeling completely awful, but even then it doesn’t help much. Yesterday I went to eat a snack cause I was hungry, but as soon as I got my lunch box out of the fridge, my mouth started watering like I was going to throw up. I don’t want to drink as much because I feel like it just sits in my stomach. I only peed four times at work yesterday and I’ve been going at least 10 times a day easily at work, and if I drink more, probably over 20 times (I go multiple times an hour a lot of days). So I know my hydration is lacking which isn’t good in pregnancy either. I don’t have heartburn thankfully (common in pregnancy), but I just feel disgusting 24/7 and like I want to throw up multiple times a day. I’m having to sleep with my head elevated again because of it (and that hurts my back and my shoulders hurt if I sleep on my sides but I’m not supposed to sleep on my back but I do anyway, and I wake up every morning with lower abdominal discomfort and I’m just getting tired of mornings in general because I always feel miserable).

Also, I think I have internal hemorrhoids now. Also common in pregnancy and since I just try to keep it real with all of you, I’m just throwing that out there. Today was the first day I noticed a lot of discomfort and a fair amount of blood when I went to the bathroom. I’m just hoping it doesn’t get worse.

Despite all of these pregnancy annoyances, I’m still really liking being pregnant overall. Even though I feel disgusting all the time, I am so glad I don’t have that terrible 24/7 nausea like morning sickness was. Even though I’m mildly uncomfortable in the mornings, I still sleep fine for most of the night. Even if my workouts suck, I can still modify them. And even if I have hemorrhoids, at least I’m not constipated anymore like I was at the beginning of pregnancy. It’s still fun feeling Jackson in there kicking me all day long and I like watching my belly get bigger and bigger. It’s even starting (but just barely) to get more exciting to think about actually having a real baby in 18 more weeks and not just a belly baby.

To end this long, boring (sorry to those who have never been pregnant, these are not fun things to read about, I’m sure) post, I’ll post a picture of my belly now (well, on Wednesday).

21.5 weeks pregnant. I’ll be 22 weeks tomorrow.

October 26, 2015

Weekend Ramblings, Baby Ramblings, Workout Ramblings

Happy Monday! It doesn’t even feel like Monday! I guess cause I only worked Sunday this weekend, so my body is confused. Friday night, Jon and I decided to finally start out baby registry! We headed over to Babies R’ Us and started scanning away! It was kind of fun but also kind of stressful. We realized we needed to look up safety ratings for car seats and wanted to research the bigger items and also the body wash type stuff to make sure we’re using something chemical free. After coming home and reading ewg.org, I think I feel like our baby is destined to just get cancer in the future because of all the chemicals in products in the US.

I had planned on working out Saturday morning, but when I woke up, I decided I wanted to finally get breakfast with Jon at Sun in my Belly instead! We showered and headed downtown to go eat, but ended up standing in line for 45 minutes. Oh well. It was worth it! We each ordered a full meal and split a full meal, so I was stuffed by the time we left!

Jon and I ran some errands and tried to find him sweaters at Nordstrom Rack, but I ended up finding a few t-shirts that are more maternity friendly. They’re just longer t-shirts, but at least they’ll cover my belly! We decided to head home afterwards and I crashed on the couch for 2 hours while Jon finished up his errands.

I finally drug myself off the couch at 4pm to go have dinner with my mom and dad for my mom’s birthday! My brother ended up coming too and I haven’t seen him in months. We went out for Mexican, which I enjoyed despite still being sort of full for breakfast. We were also celebrating Jon’s recent birthday (October 19) and my dad getting a new job! I was secretly (not secretly at all, actually) hoping my dad would retire (he is over retirement age) so he could watch Jackson when he’s born, but my dad loves to work too much. So, despite my free babysitter being gone, I’m still really glad my dad found a job since he’s happiest when he’s working! (I have no idea why that gene skipped me, but I would love it if I loved to work as much as my dad does.)

I laid down when we got home to read, and I’m assuming I just didn’t digest any food once I laid down. Around 10pm, right when I was going to go to sleep, I ended up getting really sick feeling. I only threw up once, but it was basically my entire dinner. I was worried that it was some sort of food poisoning at first because certain types of food poisoning can cross the placenta, so it always gets me so worried if I randomly get sick after eating! It really just reminds me how much I want a healthy baby and I’d be devastated if anything happened to Jackson at this point. (Thankfully, I’m getting close to 24 weeks, which is when the NICU can really work some miracles and that makes me feel a bit more reassured.) After I threw up though, I felt much better than I had and fell right to sleep.

I’ve still not been feeling great. I wonder if I just got to the point in pregnancy where my digestion has slowed down too much and I was still eating huge meals. I also tend to drink a ton with meals, and drinking with meals actually hinders digestion (other countries don’t really do drinks with meals like we do). So now I’m trying to eat smaller meals and not drink anything at all while I eat, in hopes of it helping. My appetite still took a huge turn from where it was just a few days ago though. I get hungry, but nothing sounds good and nothing seems to sit well right now. The joys of pregnancy.

Yesterday I worked all day. I had to work with the adults for the first four hours of my shift, and I had a really, really, really difficult drug seeking patient that really irritated me for the entire four hours. I got rid of him right before heading over to the children’s side, and let me tell you, I was so insanely happy to get back to my kids! Unfortunately, the children’s ER ended up being slammed all day long, while hardly any adults came in at all! I rocked an IV on a 7 year old (it was easy- he had a good vein), but I didn’t even get nervous before going in there. It’s little things like that that remind me of my progress as a peds nurse. I used to get so nervous about starting IVs in kids, and now it’s not as traumatizing (for me).

Last night I had to go let Andrew’s (Jon’s friend) dog out since he lives right by my work. Except I forgot. And drove all the way home before I remembered. So I spent almost 90 minutes in the car after working. I’ve never met Andrew’s dog and considering that I’ve been bit by three dogs (two of them were my friends and I knew the dogs, and one ran up to me while I was running and bit my leg), I get nervous around dogs that I don’t know. I went into his house and his dog was hiding from me, and then his dog started growling and barking. No way was I messing with that dog! Jon said she’s super sweet and she probably wouldn’t have done anything, but I wasn’t about to test that theory out.

My pregnancy hormones made me emotional about not being able to let his dog out, so I got a little teary on my way home and I was just feeling inadequate. And really, I am not sensitive at all about my fear of random dogs. I was never scared of them till I got older and was bit by the three dogs. Even after the second one, I wasn’t too fearful, but the third just made me have no interest in random dogs. Goes to show what pregnancy hormones will do to you though. (I should totally make a blog post of all the things I cry about now that I’m pregnant.)

This morning I went to work out and it was decent. I had worked out at CrossFit on Friday, but we had to run and with my first run, I got a ton of cramping in my belly again and had to walk. That night, Jon and I tried to go on a walk, but I started cramping up as soon as we started moving faster. (I had been at the table writing a paper all afternoon so hadn’t noticed earlier.) This morning, we were doing glute bridges and I got sharp pains in my belly. I’m assuming it’s just ligament or muscular pain since everything is stretched out and it’s superficial pain, but still, I just don’t do whatever makes it hurt. So my workouts have felt lame lately. Although, I did a good one this morning regardless. My workout tops are all getting too tight and I had to take my shirt off this morning because it was so annoying stuck to my belly once I started sweating. I really don’t want to invest in maternity workout clothes, so maybe I’ll just start going topless again. Let this baby hang out.

Mmmkay, I just finished breakfast and my cup of tea, so time to get started on my paper. Ugh. I’m so over grad school. Five more semesters to go after this one. (That was depressing.) I’m heading over to my parent’s house tonight most likely to spend the night, but I’m not positive yet. I have to work tomorrow and am dreading it for some reason. I just dread going into my PCU/tele job now. I think cause the mornings are such a hassle with getting report and giving the morning meds, but then the afternoons are usually decent. The mornings just make me dread it though.

October 20, 2015

Birthday Dinner at Capital Grille

Good morning from my couch, at 7:30am on my day off. I wake up every single day at 5:30 to pee, but some mornings it’s hard to fall back to sleep. I have a lot more discomfort when I’m sleeping than I used to and quite frankly, laying down in bed just isn’t what it used to be. So, might as well get up early and be productive.

I’m kidding about the productive part. I ate two oatmeal cookies, drank tea, and watched an episode of Guy’s Grocery Games while trying to get one of the cats to cuddle with me. For the record, the cats are not interested in me this morning.

Yesterday was a total productivity fail. My house? Still a mess. However, my microwave and fridge?! Spotless! After cleaning the kitchen (so I did at least get the kitchen done), I randomly got the urge to clean out my fridge. I probably take everything out twice a year and clean out the drawers and get rid of expired condiments, so it was time. And my fridge just looks so good. And my microwave too. So, even though the rest of the house that actually matters is a disaster, the fridge is clean. I’ll get to the rest of the house today though. I hope. I have a lot of plans at the beginning of my days lately and usually end up sitting on the couch instead, but whatever.

Jon and I went to our very ~~expensive~~ fancy birthday date night dinner last night! I decided to actually get all fancied up for him, which is really rare. For some reason, I’ll get fancy(ish) to go hang out with friends occasionally, but then I throw on jeans and a t-shirt to go anywhere with Jon. #marriedlife I successfully curled my hair with my wand last night. I’m definitely getting better, even if it’s taking a long time. Then again, I curl my hair like, once every 4-6 months. Ain’t nobody got time for that. And I really suck at using curling irons, which I think are way faster than wands. But I just can’t get the hang of them.

I’m clearly rambling unnecessarily here. I should not type blog posts when I’m tired at 7:30am.

I don’t know why Jon didn’t tell me to fix my hairs sticking up all over the place before taking this. This was also right after curling my hair, so the curls hadn’t relaxed yet. Also, this dress was definitely not a maternity dress and got way shorter when I was walking around. Totally bunched up all around this baby.

So, anyway, we went to Capital Grille in Buckhead. Jon went there with a client before and loved his steak and I told him to pick where he wanted to eat. Definitely the nicest place I’ve ever dined before. But it was kind of awesome. I mean, every time I stood up (which was just twice- once to pee and once to leave), a guy magically appeared to pull out my chair! And my biggest pet peeve of not getting refills? After every sip I took, the same guy appeared to refill my water! Like, how does he know that I just drank some water?! If only we were rich, we would experience this more often. (Jon did point out that if we don’t go to Paris in December, we could eat at Capital Grille every week until the end of the year. Thanks. Not happening.)

Anyway, we ate our bread and then I had a butternut squash bisque that was delicious. I think any squash soup is fantastic. I decided to go with salmon for dinner since I tend to be really picky with steaks and I also like them pretty pink on the inside, which is not recommended in pregnancy. So, I’m just staying away from steak until I can have a nice, pink center safely. The salmon was good, but I think I’m just not feeling salmon lately. Last time I ate it (which was months ago), I got sick and threw up all night long. And the last time we bought cod, we didn’t cook it for 3 days and it was insanely fishy and I no longer ever want anything but canned tuna (coming from a girl who loved fish before- maybe it’s the baby/bad recent experiences combo). So, the fish was good, but it was a larger portion and I was kind of over it. Also, apparently the meat is really the main dish at those places, cause nothing came out at all with Jon’s steak and mine had a few green beans. I get tired of eating the same thing after a few bites and like to switch it up, so I would have loved some sides. Maybe sides aren’t a fine dining thing though. For dessert, we both got creme brûlée and it was heavenly! I love a good creme brûlée! I also asked for a birthday candle in Jon’s since it’s his birthday, and because of that, they gave us dessert to take home for free (they apparently do dessert on the house for birthdays, but we didn’t know that).

So, after getting home, I dug into the cheesecake that they provided. OMG. OMG. Guys. I love cheesecake. Like, love cheesecake. If I had to pick a favorite dessert, it’d be cheesecake. But I like good cheesecake. And I only like plain cheesecake because why would you ever ruin something so delicious by adding to it?! This cheesecake was like the best thing I have ever tasted. First of all, it was so soft and creamy. Second of all (secondly? second?), it had a brûlée topping. It was mind blowing. I think I’m going to go to Capital Grille and order like, 10 cheesecakes at a time. (I’m totally kidding- that would be $100 worth of cheesecake and that thing was way too small. It was not actually an entire pan size of cheesecake, as it could appear in that picture. Dissappointing.)

This picture is not my picture. It’s from the Capital Grille website. But just check out that perfection.

We hung out for a bit at once we got home, and then Jon asked me when I was going to bed. Apparently he wanted to hang out without me for awhile. He always sleeps on the couch cause he hates our bed, so I guess he just wanted to stretch out. So much for loving his wife. (I kid. He loves me.) I passed out and slept great till 5:30 this morning!

Fun fact: This picture and the 20 week picture of me are taken in front of walls that are the exact same color. We have really great lighting in our house.

Okay, well, I suppose I should go watch one more episode of Guy’s Grocery Games and then hopefully, I’ll be able to motivate myself to a) drag my ass to the gym or b) drag my ass to anywhere in my house to start cleaning. What will really happen is probably more along the lines of napping on the couch and not getting up till close to noon. I really need to work on grad school stuff today too, plus tonight is a clinic night so I have to head out around 4:30ish for that. I kind of hate having my Tuesday nights off taken up by sitting in traffic and then volunteering, but at the same time, I love the volunteering part and love the clinic, so I deal with it.

Last side note: Jackson has been moving like crazy lately. And his movements are all the way up to my belly button now! He’s such a big boy! I still wish I could keep him in my belly forever. I have no desire to meet him at all yet. I love him moving around in my belly, but I just don’t want him to come out and be a real baby anytime soon. Like, for at least a few years. At the rate we’re going now, we’re going to be like the Jewish people and have to buy all our baby stuff after he’s born. We haven’t bought one thing yet for him. Oh well.

October 1, 2015

Gender Reveal Party and CrossFit

Happy Thursday! I’m off today (obviously) and tomorrow, but it’s back to work this weekend! Sad face.

Monday was another missed workout day. I had my very first case of vertigo that put me out of the gym at 10am due to lack of sleep and fear of the vertigo coming back with changing positions too much. So I spent the majority of my day lazing around and watching trash TV.

Monday evening was my Gender Reveal “Party.” I went in the afternoon to CamiCakes to pick up a random assortment of cupcakes to stuff with colored icing myself.

I had to buy myself a mini one to eat right away and it was SO GOOD. I’ve never had CamiCakes before but I’m sold. I’m not a huge cake person in general, but something about this baby is making me crave sweets nonstop and I’ve been really wanting cupcakes lately. It was like a little piece of heaven. Far better than any other cupcake I’ve ever had.

I spent the afternoon cooking and stuffing the cupcakes with green food coloring (it went fairly well, except one ended up with no green icing inside and Gina was the poor recipient of that one, so she didn’t get the surprise, haha).

Kassie, Gina, and Laura were all here by 6pm! We cut the cake for the reveal and they were all excited about a baby boy! They all thought I was having a girl cause they thought I would have been more depressed if it was a boy, haha. I’m still disappointed about having a boy, but I’m excited too. It’s still going to be my baby. We all ate some chili (yay chili! it’s fall!) and took ridiculous photos. Then we dug into our cupcakes and let me just tell you, if you can get to a CamiCakes, order a cinnamon swirl and a sweet potato cupcake. Those two were out of this world. I told myself ~~like a month ago~~ today that I’d start eating better, but it’s taking all of my willpower not to go get more cupcakes.

Tuesday and Wednesday were work days for me. Unfortunately, my amazing pregnancy took a bit of a turn and I’m now having some horrible lower back pain. I couldn’t figure out what exactly was going on but it was making work absolutely miserable. Last night, Jon massaged my lower back and everything was extremely painful. I woke up with back pain last night (and Jackson going crazy in my belly).

We did make it out to trivia last night, which was a lot of fun but also kind of miserable to sit in a booth for two hours. I’m feeling more comfortable with the trivia group (there are only usually 6 or 7 of us) so it’s more enjoyable to go to now. I’m hoping we start back up with going since it’s nice to have some social time.

This morning I was supposed to go to an 8am CrossFit class via ClassPass, but instead I set my alarm for 8am. Awesome. They seemed laid back last time I went (most CrossFit gyms are), so I went to the 10am class instead. I was still uncomfortable before going (but my back pain wasn’t as bad- it’s usually not until after being on my feet for a few hours during the day and then it just gets miserable) but I will say that this has been one of my harder workouts for sure. Running makes me have to pee with every. single. step. so I rowed for my 2nd and 3rd rounds (800m each) and that was miserable too. I have to row at a pace of 2:35-2:55/500m in order to breathe enough where I feel like Jackson gets some Os too, and then I can’t lean forward cause it feels like I have a watermelon in my pelvis and I can’t lean back cause it strains my abs. And my back pain started up during the workout and yeah, rough. But I’m not quitting the gym if I can avoid it. I’ll just suffer and waddle through workouts if I have to.

I did read today that this is the time where my ligaments loosen up and your center of gravity really starts shifting, so lower back pain is a common complaint now. I was relieved to read that cause I really felt like it was way too early to be having back pain (I’ve only gained 10lbs) and everybody at work seemed so surprised when I told them how I was feeling. The stuff I read didn’t mention if it gets better though. I have an OB appointment tomorrow, so I’m going to discuss it with my doctor.

Today will be spent doing schoolwork and heading over to my parent’s house. I’m spending the night there since I haven’t seen them in awhile and they’ll be going out of town soon. My doctor is closer to their house anyway. I need to finish up a book too cause Monday is our next book club meeting and I’m only 14 pages into our book. Oops.

I’ll leave you all with a picture of me today (excuse everything but my belly- I just got home from the gym). I’m finally at the point of feeling like I actually look like I’m pregnant instead of just looking like I drink too many beers. I also felt like my belly was stuck at the same size for weeks on end and these last two days I’ve felt bigger. (I’ll be 18 weeks on Saturday.)

September 27, 2015

Mary Mac’s, Gender Reveal, Taste of Atlanta, Trainwreck, and Cat Cuddles

What a crazy weekend already and it’s not even over yet (thankfully!). Yesterday was another no gym day. I haven’t gone since Tuesday, but I guess after starting back at CrossFit regularly, maybe my body just needed a break. I haven’t really felt like working out so I figure I should take a few days off. Instead, I managed to finally clean our entire house- bathrooms and floors included! About dang time. I also may have had the Whole Foods hot bar for breakfast, consisting of French toast and quiche. And bacon. I also may have spooned with FatCat while catching up on trashy TV.

Jon got home from work around 5 and we finished a few things around the house. We had been planning on a fancy date night last night for quite some time, but we lost the gift card we were going to use. We decided we might as well go out somewhere else in hopes of finding the gift card later on, but then I decided I didn’t feel like getting super fancy. Instead, I showered and threw on a dress and we headed out the door.

16 weeks 6 days pregnant.

I was really in the mood for Mary Mac’s, which is a famous southern restaurant in Atlanta. We definitely didn’t even need to be in dresses to go there, but it was still fun to get somewhat dressed up (since I usually live in Target v-necks). Jon has never been there and I’ve only gone twice, but it was better than I remembered! I stuffed my face and felt so incredibly full afterwards (I used to never eat to the point of being full before getting pregnant- I need to stop because it is such an awful feeling).

Sweet potato soufflé on the left there was AMAZING. Also, chicken pot pie, fried green tomatoes, and mac & cheese. All so freaking delicious.

We talked about going out and doing something after since our date literally lasted a whole 45 minutes, but one of us (not me) had a bathroom emergency so we went home. Totally fine with me though. We’ve already talked about how much I love sleeping lately.

Turns out, I did a lot of tossing and turning last night in anticipation of our gender reveal ultrasound this morning! I was up at 7am and wanting to sleep! I thought about going to the gym, but instead cuddled with Tom and Jon and I tried to eat breakfast. Unfortunately, I was feeling pretty sick from eating so unhealthy yesterday. Jon and I decided to go get coffee before our appointment, so we got ready and left.

I decided there was no way I could drink any coffee with how disgusting I was feeling, but then I ended up getting a quiche at a new French place we decided to try, Douceur de France. The quiche was delicious and I’d definitely go back, but I left feeling even worse (surprise).

We got to our appointment for our gender reveal a few minutes early. We read some horrible reviews about the place on Yelp, but it was totally great! We were in and out within 20 minutes. Once we got back to the room, I took my seat on the table. They have the ultrasound screen projected up onto the wall so it’s huge. Of course, I was pretty much just dying to hear that this baby is a girl! The ultrasound tech (who was fantastic) started out by finding the head and showing us the spine. The baby was laying on its side. She played the heartbeat for us and it made me cry! I cried hearing the heartbeat at the last ultrasound too, and even just listening to it at the doctor’s office for 15 seconds got me all choked up. I don’t know what it is about hearing the heartbeat! Anyway, she had to poke and prod the baby around to get it to spread its legs. I had no idea what was on the screen, but Jon said, “I think I see what I need to see!” I was totally hoping he was wrong about that cause he wanted a boy! After another minute or so, the ultrasound tech said, “Well, that’s a boy! There’s one leg and there’s the other, and there’s the tip of the penis!” AH NO! Not even going to lie, I was totally disappointed! I was so sure it was a girl! I’m still mourning the loss of my future mother/daughter relationship too! We didn’t get any pictures (you had to pay another $20 so we decided to wait until we get them for free at the doctor’s office) and we weren’t allowed to take any, so it was completely an undocumented experience. Fine by me. I don’t think I’ll forget it. We left and made some calls and sent some texts and went on with our day, with our new baby boy in my belly! His name is Jackson, but we have yet to pick out a middle name. But we may just go with the first name only. We’re considering skipping the middle name. Also, I have determined that I definitely can feel Jackson moving. I’ve felt what feels like a rolling down in my lower abdomen when I lay flat at times, but it usually happens once and not again for a few days. Tonight, I felt it like crazy. I could even feel little blubs on the outside which is surprising, but I’m so thin that I’m guessing it’s not as hard to feel big movements on the outside.

After we left, we swung by the house to grab ponchos and headed to Atlanta for Taste of Atlanta. You basically pay the entrance fee and then can load points onto an armband to get food samples from restaurants in Atlanta. I was feeling somewhat decent at that point (still not great) so at least I got to enjoy some food. I didn’t try everything that I wanted, but I had an amazing pumpkin soup there from a cafe just near our house, Egg Harbor Cafe. I will definitely be going there for that soup again. So good! Unfortunately, it rained on us the entire time we were there, but we didn’t let it ruin our moods! Also, as soon as we walked up to the entrance, my flip flop broke! What a bummer, but thankfully I had thrown boots in the Jeep just in case my feet got cold!

We finally decided to go see Trainwreck since I’ve been wanting to see it for so long and we always think of it way too late at night to go! Since we waited so long, we had to drive kind of far to go see it, but it was worth it! I really enjoyed the movie!

We got home around 8pm and we were planning on going downtown to a barbecue place to watch bluegrass, but I bailed. I had Jon invite his friend, Andrew, to go so I could finish up my paper that’s due tomorrow and relax on the couch with Tom.

He’s taking his cuddles very seriously.

I’m still feeling super sick, so I think tomorrow will be spent eating all fruit and veggies to get me back on track. My body isn’t anywhere used to eating how I’ve been eating the last two days and I’m paying for it big time. Yuck. Have a good night and I’m sure I’ll check back in later!

September 25, 2015

Adjusting to Pregnancy

Happy Friday! And it really is a happy Friday because I have a 4 day weekend! I’m scheduling myself a lot more 3 and 4 day weekends these days, but it makes sense since I only get 1-2 weekends off per month. Might as well make them count.

I’m feeling pretty lazy regarding the gym today! I skipped the gym on Wednesday too and went on a 2 mile walk with Jon that evening. I figured it wouldn’t matter cause I had other days off this week to work out, but now I’m just feeling like a lazy blob. I probably would have gone at noon, but I ended up having to go to Whole Foods this morning (we seriously had no food no left home for breakfast or for any other meal, really) and ate a huge plate of their breakfast bar at 11am. So, a noon workout doesn’t look promising… Especially since that’s 24 minutes away.

Want to know one of the things I love about being pregnant? At least right now because I know this won’t last. I sleep like a rock. I mean, I wake up to pee every single morning without fail at 5 or 5:30am (sometimes more), but I fall asleep every night in about two minutes and I just sleep so good. I was falling asleep on the couch at 9:15 last night, so I got in bed by 10 and was out like a light. I slept till 9am today and probably could have stayed in bed even longer. The only downfall is that I still feel exhausted on work days if I go to bed at 11pm (I wake up at 5:15am). I think I may have to move my bedtime an hour or two earlier if I have to get up the next day! Growing a baby is apparently really tiring, which totally makes sense… I mean, it’s a whole human that your body has to produce.

I just deleted part of this post to make it shorter… I promise my next blog will not be about having babies (lies- I find out if it’s a boy or girl tomorrow, so the next post will have something about babies).

So, I don’t really know how to adjust to having a baby. I mean, I can take care of a kid. I probably will want to stab my eyes out in the middle of the night if my baby is crying and I’ll probably miss how simple life is without kids, but I know what to do if a baby is sick. I take care of sick babies at work. I know how to feed a baby and entertain them. I change so many adult diapers that baby diapers are easy peasy. I’m sure I’ll have plenty to learn, but I have enough of the basics covered that I feel confident in the skills of caring for a baby. I feel really unprepared to not have the life that I have now though. Sleep till 9? Gym at 10? Long lunch while I read blogs? Take three hours to clean the house? Sit down and do homework uninterrupted? Go hang out with friends? I can do all of those things! And life won’t be like that anymore. I love my life. I have a fantastic life. I also love traveling and being able to decide six weeks out that Jon and I are going to Europe for 17 days. I feel like a lot of women I talk to about having babies were the type of women who always wanted kids. They’re so excited about their baby getting here that they never talk about these things. And here I am, like, SLOW DOWN TIME! I’m not ready for this baby to come out because I’m not ready not to be selfish anymore!

It baffles me that this is what some women dream of. Having babies. I dream of traveling the world. I dream of working for nonprofit companies or getting involved in public health. I dream of brunch dates with friends when we’re 40. I dream of retirement when Jon and I can sell our house and go live all over the US. Babies? No. Never. I remember when I worked at Arby’s when I was 17 and somebody asked me if I wanted kids. I said no. They said, “Just wait. One day, you’ll wake up and you’ll realize how much you want kids.”

Well, I’m 29 and 17 weeks pregnant (tomorrow) and I still haven’t woken up with that feeling. And I also think that person was ignorant for thinking that all women are magically going to want to have kids. Not all women want kids. Hello. We have other awesome things in our lives to want. Am I excited about having this baby? Yes. I am. I never thought I would be amazed that I am growing a baby, but I am. I cried at our first ultrasound. I can’t wait to see our baby tomorrow on the ultrasound (GENDER REVEAL!!!!). I am always touching my belly. I love it when people at work want to see my tiny bump! I am excited. But I still don’t ever have that feeling of “OMG I AM SO EXCITED TO HAVE A BABY.” It’s more like, “Oh hey, I’m having a baby. This is cool for now. I hope it stays cool once this baby comes.”

I don’t know guys. Being pregnant is weird. Having babies is weird. I feel like everybody just talks about how excited they are while they’re pregnant and I’m just abnormal for not being that excited. Not that I mind. I don’t. I know I’ll be a good mom, but I don’t have expectations of how excited I should be about this baby or how quickly I’ll feel attached to it when it’s born. I’ve lived 29 years without a baby. I don’t need to adjust to having one in 40 weeks.

Okay, time to go clean our disgusting house, hopefully work on a paper, maybe nap, and then I have to get ready cause Jon and I are having a fancy date night tonight! (By the way, I think all those things will come after a trashy TV show and a nap. Rainy days make me tired.)

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