Back to CrossFit!

I did it! I finally went back to CrossFit! I never ran or made it to the regular gym earlier in the day. I really did want to run, but I felt like I was lacking energy and was irritated that there were so many people everywhere once I made it out. Apparently nobody was working. At all. You should have seen the Whole Foods parking lot! It’s never like that during the week! Once I made it back from the grocery store, I started cooking in my little tiny area of counter space! I have no idea how people live with tiny kitchens! I guess the house Jon originally lived with me in only had about 2-3 feet total of counter space, but I wasn’t a big cooker then. Drove me crazy.

Anyway, I had asked Jon to go to CrossFit with me. I saw that they were doing 5×5 back squats and that was all it said. I love back squats so I figured it’d be a good day to go! Jon decided not to go with me, so I almost backed out. I don’t know where all this nervousness about going to a new gym came from. Although I’ve definitely grown in being fairly confident in my CrossFit abilities, I think I’ve also grown used to surrounding myself with small groups of people. So going into a new gym was really intimidating for me for some reason. I got there really early and sat in the parking lot and almost went home! I felt really anxious for a few minutes and then decided I just needed to go in. I can’t let being uncomfortable with new groups of people keep me from doing something I love.

It was awkward at first. I showed up during a huge 5:30 class  in the middle of their WOD and as Jon said, the gym has their competitors that can do what they want at the gym, so it seemed kind of chaotic. I just stood around until the class actually started. Thankfully, there were only three of us! Another girl that I think is about my age was there and she was really nice! It was less intimidating being with such a small group of people.

Since my squatting form isn’t great because of my lack of mobility, I worked on that with another coach instead of doing the back squats, which was totally fine with me. Then we did 21-15-9 of a calorie row (21 calorie row, etc) and front squats. I only did 55# on my front squats and felt tired! I was really glad it wasn’t anything long and that I didn’t go any heavier. It took me 7:15 to finish. I was glad to get some lower body work in today though and definitely want to go back to work out more.

It is definitely weird to feel intimidated by CrossFit after so long. And truly, it is not by CrossFit at all. It’s just weird having that anxiety over having to work out in front of people. I have always felt that at LA Fitness, but it’s been a long time since I’ve felt that at a CrossFit gym. I’m hoping to push myself out of my comfort zone at least once a week (cause that’s my goal right now with CrossFit) to get a workout in. If my school and work schedule is ever slow enough, I’d be happy to get back into it more, but I also want to keep running. And I really do need to work on my mobility so I may have to try to throw in some yoga classes.

So, while I have no set resolution for the new year, I do need to be dedicated again to working out. I don’t even want it say CrossFit. I know I can do various things and am seeming to be more into the variety than just sticking to one thing. Once I get into the swing of working out again, it’s not a problem. I’ve just been out of being in a gym on  daily basis for 7 months now, so the initial jump back into it is difficult for me. I really hope to get Jon back into the swing of things and get him to be more active than he has been lately.

Anyway, I’m off to bed. It’s 10:30 and I took some Benadryl awhile ago to help me get to sleep after my lazy day and late workout. Working 7a-7p tomorrow 😦

12 Things I’d Tell Girls

I spend a fair amount of time scrolling  through facebook and instagram during the day. It makes me feel old and judgmental. Which is cool. I guess. I also go to a community college with girls who are 18. I judge them too, which isn’t fair since I’ve had 9 years of life on them and I was probably just as dumb as them. But I still judge them. But I feel like it’s important to teach girls things. Let me make a list of things that I think are important here.

1. Don’t leave the house wearing something that barely covers your vagina and leaves your belly hanging out. There is nothing cute about having to pull your dress down every step so an ass cheek doesn’t fall out and leave your belly alone till you’re at the beach or having some private time. Also, men will want you for sex. Only sex. Because that’s what you look like.

2. Don’t waste time on drama. You only have as much drama in your life as you allow. Your friends are “talking shit” about you? They aren’t your friends. Find new ones. Real friends don’t cause problems in your life.

3. Love isn’t enough. I know you “love him” even though he treats you like you don’t matter and you don’t trust him, but you don’t need that. Love people who add something to your life and make you happy.

4. Don’t have sex with everybody. Sex actually is something special. It’s not just something fun to be tried with everybody. But if you just can’t keep your body parts to yourself, at least be safe about it. Get tested. Use condoms. Take the pill.

5. Don’t get pregnant to keep a man. I feel like this should be obvious, but apparently it’s not. It doesn’t make the man stay. All that happens is now you have a baby, which you will probably be taking care of alone.

6. Don’t take 100 selfies a day. There is more to life than your 100 faces a day. Also, enjoy the gym without taking pictures of yourself. Enjoy life and stop being so superficial. Nobody wants to see your morning face and your gym face and your date face. By the way, you look absolutely ridiculous taking all those photos of yourself too.

7. Don’t portray your life as something that it’s not. If you’re sad being single, then don’t talk about how much you don’t need a man and how much you love being single. There’s a difference between faking it till you make it and acting like a totally different person.

8. Care what people think. It shouldn’t run your life, but there’s nothing cool about saying, “I do what I want and I don’t care what other people think.” Those other people might have to hire you one day, or you may end up dating their son. Those other people might even be your friends. (Or the older college student who thinks your vagina/belly showing outfit is inappropriate.)

9. Be active. America has gotten really fat, and not only is it not healthy, but you really do feel better when you’re moving around. You don’t have to be some hardcore gym goer, but walk around. Lift things up. Move more often than you sit.

10. You don’t need to drink all the time. Getting drunk and throwing up on yourself and then talking about how much you don’t remember the next day isn’t cute.

11. Know your self worth. If you know what your worth, nobody else can bring you below that.

12. Work hard. Don’t be lazy. Nobody is too good to clean a toilet. Nobody is too good to serve McDonald’s. You get out of life what you put into it (unless we’re talking about taxes).

12 is a random number, but I think I’ve hit some of the main things I think about regularly. Anybody else care to add to this?