Eating Unhealthy

Lately, I’ve been totally failing on the eating front. Well, that may be a bit dramatic. I still eat quite a bit of healthy foods, but now I just tend to eat a lot of unhealthy foods too. But I have always been healthy and have always had quite a bit of self control when it comes to eating. Aside from my nightly handful of Enjoy Life chocolate chunks (which I had just recently started eating), I didn’t buy sweets at all. I didn’t bring bread into my house. I stopped eating yogurt because it just is really not friendly to my digestive tract. You know, things like that… Just being in tune with how my body reacted to foods and keeping those things out of the house.

Lately? Well, it’s been quite the eating shit show over here. I used to be able to easily pass up the peppermint bark pretzels and chocolate and peanut butter drizzled popcorn, but now? Those sneaky treats just keep on making their way into my shopping cart, and then I eat them all. Sometimes in one sitting, sometimes in multiple. (Just a side note here: Those peppermint bark pretzels are seriously amazing. I mean, they may be up there as my number one favorite store bought dessert. I can’t even put into words how freaking delicious they are.) I also used to be able to look at the box of Dunkin’ Donuts on the break room table at work and pass them by, but those days are long gone. A donut and three donut holes? Sure. Why not?!

The sad thing about this is that my body is getting accustomed to this type of eating again. I will never forget visiting my sister in Wisconsin a few years back. I had been eating strict Paleo for a solid five months, and I’d say that I ate Paleo 99.9% of the time. I was even eating Paleo at Mexican restaurants, and all I ever want is chips, cheese dip, and a bean burrito. But I stuck to my diet. And I was totally fine with it. I mean, I ate Paleo baked goods occasionally, but I had no problems with eating that way. It became easy. But when I went to visit my sister, we made some muffins and they were so freaking good. I ate three of them. (I could easily kill three muffins now like it’s no big deal.)

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I actually just came across this picture of those exact muffins! They were pumpkin cream cheese muffins. No wonder they were so good!

After my muffin gorge, I went to bed. I woke up  in the middle of the night and was miserable. I was sweating, my heart was racing, I was nauseous, and I felt insanely uncomfortable. It was like there was a rock sitting in my stomach and I had literally never felt that before.

(Another random site note: I was a vegetarian for 13 years and expected to feel that way when I started eating meat again because I thought my body wouldn’t be used to it. Oddly enough, I have never had that reaction to any meat product. The fact that it was so severe to bread after just five months of not eating it was crazy to me.)

I’ll really never forget that experience. Clearly, my body doesn’t tolerate bread. I just never knew it because I had never gone without it before I started eating Paleo. If you read about a lot of food intolerances, you won’t even realize you have them because your body is in a constant state of inflammation. Until you cut the foods out, you won’t notice your body react to them. And I had a major unexpected reaction.

Lately, I notice when I binge eat sugary stuff at home and then sit down and relax, my heart is definitely beating faster than usual. It’s that same response that I had to bread, but it’s not nearly as severe because my body is already constantly inflamed from eating these foods on a daily basis. It just gets worse when I eat a bunch at once.

I have no idea why it suddenly became so hard for me to go back to Paleo. It wasn’t a hard transition the first time around. Then again, I was living on my own, not pregnant, living at a CrossFit gym pretty much, and my best friend who I spent all of my time with was eating Paleo too. I know how much better I feel when I cut out certain foods, but it has been so hard to get back on track. And I know it isn’t time. I was working close to 60 hours a week back then and I was working on my bachelor’s degree online, plus going out all the time. Yet I still managed to shred my own sweet potatoes to make hash every week and cook literally every single thing that I ate.

Anyway, so I have no idea what the point of this was. Maybe that I need to somehow find a way to motivate myself to eat healthier. You would think growing a baby would be enough motivation to make sure he’s growing healthy in there (especially since the effects of glyphosates on babies in utero seem like to they could cause some serious health issues- although I think further research needs to be done and I’m sure Monsanto would have a field day trying to hide those studies). Perhaps I’ll just blog about this more frequently until eating healthy becomes more of a habit again as a way to kind of hold myself responsible. We’ll see.

Fun fact: I also maintained my heaviest weight while eating Paleo. I was 105lbs, but also lifting heavy. I easily grew and maintained muscle though and never used protein powders. So I know I was properly fueling my body for muscle gain.

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I just scrolled through my mobile uploads and found a picture from that time! So much muscle! Man, I miss those days! Also, I forgot how much fun I had back during that single year (2012- when Jon and I were broken up. I also had some harder times, but overall, it was quite the fun year!) And now I’m having a baby and life will NEVER BE THE SAME! Waaahhhh!

Anyway, time to go relax for a few more minutes before heading off to LA Fitness for a quick and easy workout (I’m doing CrossFit for the next 3 days, so nothing crazy today).

 

 

Review: First Blue Apron Order

Jon and I placed our first Blue Apron order the other week. I was pretty excited because we got two meals free, which come to find out, meant one meal for two servings (aka: “two” meals). So we spent $40 instead of the usual $60 for three meals for two people.

When my box arrived, I brought it inside right away. Upon opening it, I realized my refrigerator pack wasn’t completely sealed at the top and that most of the food on the top of the pack wasn’t actually cold anymore. All the meats were still cold though so I figured it was fine. I also noticed that despite their “recyclable” packaging, it creates a ton of waste! The ice packs aren’t actually recyclable unless you reuse them, and while I recycled the box, most of the packaging was not easy to recycle. I don’t really like producing a lot of waste, so that was a downfall for me.

We received the following three meals:

Thai Chicken Burgers with Hoisin Mayo and Roasted Potato Wedges 

Seared Steak with Romesco Sauce and Fingerling Potatoes 

Fresh Lemon Linguine with Summer Vegetable Sauce and Seasoned Ricotta

We started with the Thai Chicken burgers. They were easy to make but definitely took over the 10 minutes of prep time that Blue Apron claims they take. It took a normal amount of time for a meal prep, but they should be more realistic and increase that time to 30 minutes. I even had Jon helping me and it was nowhere close to 10 minutes even with a team! I loved the Thai Chicken Burgers though! The hoisin mayo and cilantro won me over! Jon wasn’t a fan of them, so I actually ate one that night and one the next day. Delicious. I was excited for my other meals!

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Night two was seared steak. I wasn’t too hopeful for this one because Jon and I buy really nice steaks when we do eat steak, so we have no connective tissue at all in our steaks. Cheap steaks usually kind of gross both of us out. Also, potatoes again? You would think they could have thrown some broccoli in there or something instead of having potatoes 2/3 nights, especially at $20 per meal (also after viewing the upcoming meals on their website, this seems to be typical for them- LOTS of potatoes)! After preparing this meal (again, longer than 10 minutes with two people), we sat down to eat. Jon couldn’t even eat any of his steak because there was so much connective tissue in it, and I got a few bites into mine before getting connective tissue. The sauce was only okay, so I ate the potatoes and that was it.

Although I never eat pasta dishes anymore and I’ve notice that 1/3 meals per week on Blue Apron seem to be a pasta meal (another downfall for me), I was looking forward to this one since I was starving by the time I got home from work! Keep in mind, this was Sunday night and I got my box on Friday. I took my squash out of the fridge and it had already gone bad! I was disappointed because again, $20 per meal? I buy a lot of squash and they never go bad that quickly. Had it been time sensitive to eat that one first, that should be somewhere in the directions. I decided to make it without the squash. In the directions for this meal, it said to make the sauce mixing the garlic paste and ricotta. Well, no garlic paste was included on the ingredient list, nor was it in our package. So we just used the cheese. This meal was a huge disappointment. Andrew was also over for dinner and none of us enjoyed this meal at all. It was extremely plain and had hardly any flavor at all.

Overall, we were not impressed. For $60, we could easily buy ingredients for much more enjoyable meals. While the prep for all the meals was easy to do and it was nice to try something new, we had a pretty poor first experience. I was going to try another set of meals in a few weeks, but the week I wanted to try had steaks again, and neither of us are willing to redo that steak experience. Jon recommended canceling Blue Apron entirely because he was far less than impressed than I was. Not sure what exactly we’ll do. I just know I’m not exactly hopeful for any future meals with them and it seems like a waste of money.

Counting calories. Counting protein. The pointless “diet.”

I just read a blog about a girl who is trying to lose weight and get toned. She’s majoring in all these molecular sciences and says that she knows the science behind how to lose weight. Fantastic! Awesome! BUT, the only thing she tracks on a daily basis on her blog are calories and protein.

In general, I totally disagree with tracking your food intake by using calories, fat, carbs, anything. Unless you are an elite athlete of sorts or use your body to to an extreme, I think it’s pointless and that it’s unhealthy. It puts an emphasis on your intake and when you emphasize something for long enough, it becomes an obsession. I don’t think obsessions are ever good for you, especially with food.

I’m not against tracking for a week or so to see where you stand. Actually, it’s probably good to know your general intake at times. In the past, I’ve tracked everything and gotten a general idea of where I stand. I think the emphasis on intake should be how you feel and on eating real food.

I’ve been building muscle over the last five years, and when I quit working out or eating my normal amount, I lose weight. When I start working out and increase my food intake (because I’m hungry from working out), I build muscle. I am still building muscle now. How do I know? I can see it. I make gains in my weight lifting. Do I have any idea how much protein I eat on a daily basis? Not a clue. I don’t know how many carbs I eat. I don’t know how much fiber I eat. I don’t even know how many calories I eat. I pay attention to what I put on my plate and make sure I’m eating nutrient rich foods. I’m not some crazy athlete. I’ve gone through periods where I lifted heavy and worked out about 10 hours a week, and still made strength gains. I now have weeks where I spend 0 hours at the gym and weeks where I spent 7-8 hours at the gym. On gym days, I make an effort to increase my intake because I know I burned off more energy and need to refuel. On days where I don’t work out, my intake is still healthy (typically), but less.

Now, say, if I was going to the gym and doing the same lifts and never increasing my weight or never seeing any physical gains, would I look at my diet? If I was constantly tired and drained, would I look at my diet? Absolutely. Then I would think something in my diet is lacking because clearly, I’m dragging. Gains aren’t happening even though the physical work is there. And then there will be more than just looking at protein. Am I lacking because I don’t have any carbohydrates so I don’t have the energy to lift heavier? Do I need more protein? Are my chicken sausages just not enough?!?!?!

I just don’t get the point of picking ONE thing to track. You want to track protein? Well, what about cholesterol? What about fats?! (Fats are SO important!!!!) In the blog I just read, I saw hardly any fats at all. The omelets were egg whites (who doesn’t eat the yolk anymore?! It is so good for you!). There were plant of veggies and some tofu, but not much else.

I’m glad that nutrition is becoming more recognized these days. I haven’t decided if it’s because I surround myself with healthy people so of course I see health related articles and statuses all over Facebook or if it really is becoming a big deal all over the US! Staying fit and eating real food is really the only way to turn the healthcare industry around and to lead long, healthy lives. For the average person, this means doing anything active and making sure your plate consists of plenty of different colors that didn’t come from a box. In time, you learn how to pay attention to your body and to how you feel. You know what to eat and what not to eat and don’t have to count to figure it out…

(Again, people with exceptional fitness goals here are exempt from this belief… Fueling a body for 26.2 miles of running or becoming the next Ironman may take a little more nutritional planning.)

 

Best foods, travel nursing, Braves, and no workouts.

Since I missed my exercise recap last week, let me get that out of the way:

SMTWTFS: Nothing

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Whew! Glad we got that out of the way. I did go on a few walks with Jon and enjoyed all of them (as shown above with his fancy new iPhone 5s- taking clearer selfies than the iPhone 5c POS). I didn’t step foot in the gym once or in my running shoes and I just don’t care one bit. But I am pretty excited to get back to it tomorrow. I have a dentist appointment at 10 but am really hoping to make it to CrossFit at 12, either at my old gym or at the one I go to now. I do miss being a regular at CrossFit, but there just isn’t a way for that to happen right now!

I created this masterpiece in the kitchen:

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That little bowl may not look like a beauty, but I sauteed some organic hashbrowns, threw in some chopped up Applegate Farms chicken & maple sausage, an egg, and some cheddar cheese, and that was like, the best breakfast ever. The only thing that would have made it better was topping it with syrup, but let’s be real, I eat enough syrup already.

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My favorite foodstuffs numero dos is my kale salad with kale (duh), strawberries, garlic powder, lemon infused olive oil (Galantino is my favorite, but let’s be real again guys, not everybody can be as awesome as me and have legit Italian olive oil- J/K, I’m almost out of it too), and the very best partgolden raisins. I’ve had golden raisins in salads before and loved them but I’ve never seen them in the store. Lucky for me, Trader Joe’s had them! I have had more salads since finding these babies than I have ever had in my life. Oh, and yes, I do eat my salads out of tupperware. Ain’t nobody got bowls big enough for that. (By the way, yes I talked about this in my last post- but I’m doing it again with a picture! That’s how you know I mean business.)

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And then there’s this fella. I haven’t spoken much about my love for Golden Star Coconut Milk, but it’s a real thing. It was 80% coconut cream and only 20% water, and those were the only two ingredients, nothing else. And it sold for like, $1.75 a can at Wal-Mart. But then the dreaded day came that Wal-Mart stopped carrying it and I have never seen it anywhere else. I’ve tried so many other coconut milks in hopes of finding a match to Golden Star and it’s always a crying shame. It never compares. But then! I found this can of goodness! I actually had overlooked it a time or twenty because it has like, two other ingredients in it and I’m a coconut milk snob, but I went for it in a moment of coconutmilk-mixed-with-strawberry desperation and I’m so glad I did. I ate this on strawberries today and it was like the coconut heavens rained down on me. I would like to say that I’m exaggerating, but I’m not. And the whole can is thick and creamy! Not even just 80% of it! I forgive the xantham gum in it! In fact, I love you, xantham gum, for making such a delicious treat!

This was totally not meant to be about food.

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As part of my #100happydays on instagram, I shared this today. I have finished my application for my Massachusetts nursing license! $275 later, of course. I also applied for graduation! The registrar confirmed receiving my form, and now all I have to do is become $130 poorer tomorrow and I will be holding that stupid $15,000 BSN degree in my hand in May! And possibly applying for the GRE, but I’m still undecided. Ask me after my final on May 2nd. Until then, I’ll just dream about Boston and all the other awesome sights and cities I’m going to see over my travel nursing career!

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To end on a totally random note (in case this whole thing wasn’t random enough), we’ve managed to make it to two Braves games in the last week (hence my lack of working out). Tuesday was the home opener and it was a snooze. Friday night was exciting and went into an extra inning and then the Braves ended up winning! I wish baseball was always exciting, but sometimes all the players do is strike out nonstop. Even Uggla’s plump rear can’t make up for that many strike outs in a row.

Alrighty, I’m actually supposed to be writing my essays for my biology test tomorrow, so I should probably go ahead and finish that.

Back at CrossFit

I made it to CrossFit yesterday for the first time in over a month! I was feeling really unmotivated but typically leave any workout feeling much better. Not yesterday. We did an 10 minute EMOM of 4 thrusters (I only did 45#) and 6 bar over burpees (where you jump over the barbell after your burpee). It was AWFUL! The thrusters felt like a million pounds and it’s been so long since I’ve done burpees that I was dying. I wasn’t the only one, thankfully. Everybody struggled with that big time and it looked so easy. Then we did an 800m run and 50 pull ups, which was way easy and I was done in 8:12. My upper body is sore today and it feels so good! I love being sore.

I came home feeling like I was going to puke and lacking any energy at all. I normally eat when I get home but couldn’t. I made a bunch of phone calls and aside from my Massachusetts nursing license, got everything else taken care of. I’ll be doing that tomorrow. Then I had class, which I was also exhausted for.

I had a little bridesmaids drama last night. Not even because of the wedding. I’m totally not like that. But just some issues with one of the girls in the wedding that we’ve been having (so really just friend drama). So we kind of got into a bit last night and it totally bummed me out. So my evening became really unproductive. Oops.

I slept till 12:30 today since I’m working 7p-3a. I woke up SO many times wanting to get up but forced myself to stay in bed. I just ate a tiny breakfast and am going to head to the gym for a run and leg day. I have a feeling I’ll be rushed to get out of here tonight before traffic gets bad but am hoping to get my biology done tonight before work starts, and I have a bunch of stuff to fax in to the tax commissioner and the board of nursing (you know, if that number actually works, since I never got the number listed for the BON to ring).

Since I haven’t done any WIAWhatever-day-of-the-week, I’ll do yesterday. It’ll be more like two random pictures of food I ate yesterday though. I actually had a biscuit with cream cheese for breakfast around 11am since I woke up at 10:30 and was going to the gym at noon.

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Probably ate my “breakfast” around 3. That’s a protein drink with chocolate almond milk too. Around 6:45 I ate my Noosa.

 

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Chili with ground beef and some other stuff at 9 after I got home from class.

That was it. Sure doesn’t look like much when I put it down, but I wasn’t hungry for anything I ate except for my chili. I typically eat less on days that I’m off cause I sleep in later, don’t eat much before the gym, and then have time for two real meals of the day cause I end up sleeping in. I’m not waking up in time to eat a full meal before the gym either. My sleep is important.

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Since I was talking about using new hair products, that was my hair last night with just my regular leave in conditioner (I use a TIGI one and an Aveeno one) with the Loreal anti frizz cream. It wasn’t humid at all yesterday so I didn’t use the mousse and curl cream. And that picture was taken while I was reading for class before it started, so excuse me not trying to take an appropriate selfie (just kidding, we all know I hate selfless).

Time to get dressed for the gym! Everybody have a good day!

Tuesday

Yesterday I had a surprisingly good visit at the gym! I had to get a money order for my wedding photographer (guess who lost their checkbook?) and somehow totally missed the bank on the way to the gym. I ended up knocking out 5 miles in 48:37, which is pretty good considering how little I’ve been running lately! I did all speed work, as usual on the treadmill. Anywhere from 5.5-8mph. Typically I don’t go any lower than 6, but I was spending a lot of time between 7-8mph, so I needed more of a break. Then I did 5×5 back squats at 105# and 5×5 deadlifts at 115#. I knocked out a few pull ups, push ups, and abs and then it was 4pm, so I stretched and headed over the bank, which was CLOSED at 4pm! When did Bank of America start closing so early? Guess I’ll be paying my photographer a little later on. But I was a little bummed that I hurried out of the gym to make it to a closed bank.

After my workout, I ate 6 pieces of bacon (I really wanted chicken sausage but didn’t have any). Jon bought Oscar Meyer nitrate/nitrite free bacon, but Oscar Meyer is just SO salty! I prefer my 365 brand from Whole Foods all the way. And really, I wanted some chicken sausage but it smelled a little off, so I decided to forego that option and just have some bacon. I had a pretty big serving of my squash casserole and a smoothie with kefir, PB2, berries, a banana, and greens. I was surprised I ate so much. Then I followed it with 6 Thin Mints. Oops. I need to get these Girl Scout Cookies out of the house.

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My squash looks like throw up.

I definitely was feeling much more “on” after a workout and being able to eat my own food and I had slept in my own bed too. I get thrown off way too easy by being out of town. I don’t eat out that often (Jon and I were just commenting on how we’re eating out so much lately- which is Mexican once a week compared to maybe 1-2 times a month before) and eating out for all my meals just don’t work with me. And for just 2-3 days, I don’t want to go buy all new food to eat for where I’m staying. I also am feeling much more motivated to work out after getting just one good day in. I’m too easily derailed from the gym lately and really need to work on that.

I got home, cleaned, and studied for my test. Jon was gone most of the evening and went to bed when he got home, so it was a quiet night before a day of work and an evening of tests!

Tonight, after working all day, studying for a test, and taking a test, I was excited to get to the gym to walk out all my soreness and do some abs and a little upper body! I got to the gym (still in my scrubs from work) and realized I forgot my sports bra! Bummer! I was actually really in the mood to be at the gym too! I was about to work on in scrubs though, and I also wasn’t about to work on in a tight white t-shirt with a black bra with red lace on it. No thanks.

Off to upload some engagement photos and eat a 10pm dinner!

Speed work, homework, work, and broccoli and eggs

Jon started complaining yesterday that he was starting to feel like he was getting what I had all of last week (and still have, but I can live with this). I warned him about how much it sucked. When we got into bed last night, Jon warned me that I better not wake him up if he started to snore because he had to sleep on his back and obviously, being sick, he’s going to snore. I felt sympathy for him cause I’ve had to sleep on my back every night since being sick and hate it. Last night as we were trying to fall asleep, all I could hear was sniffle sniffle sniffle, swallow, open mouth, close mouth. I thought I was going to lose my mind! I’ve barely slept in over a week because of being sick and it was the first night I wasn’t miserable. So I just brought him some Nyquil and then moved into the guest bedroom!

I probably got to sleep around 1 and then slept until 10. It was wonderful! Both cats kept me company and we cuddled under out blankets in the dreary weather! I pulled up the WOD at CrossFit since I wanted to go at noon, but it involved 50 Pull-ups, 115 pound Squat clean, 50 reps, 50 Box jumps, 24/20. Uh, no. I typically would love that, but after doing 50 thrusters last night and having my legs cry the whole time, I figured it probably wouldn’t be happening. Then I stood up and felt my legs and knew there was no way that I was about to go do another 50 squats plus 50 box jumps. Cherry picking at its finest.

Instead I went to LA Fitness for a run since the weather still seemed okay. I did 4 miles of speed work, which I wasn’t expecting. I went from 6-8 at an incline of 1.5 (getting crazy, right? haha). 6 was my base and for the most part, I alternated every .2 miles from 6 to 6.5, 6 to 6.8, 6 to 7, 6 to 7.5, and 6 to 8 (and then just went up or down or whatever I felt like doing). I actually kind of enjoyed my run on the treadmill, but as I was getting into the higher speeds, my feet started burning from the friction of the treadmill since my shoes only have 4mm soles. I had planned on doing 3 miles but kept going, and I really felt like I could have kept going without any problems but I’m trying to be conscious of how quickly I start building miles again because of my knee, and my nose also kept running and I was starting to blow snot bubbles. Not cute. I did some pullups and dips and then decided to try shoulders. My shoulders felt like they were near muscle failure after just starting out, so I tried triceps. Same thing. So I kept it to just a few sets of each and then called it a day. If my arms were shaking like that from the start, it’s not going to be that productive of a workout anyway. Might as well save it for a better day.

I came home, showered, and made some breakfast.

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I shredded broccoli in my food processor (everybody needs one of these) and then cooked about a cup of it with two eggs, garlic, and cheddar cheese. So good. It’s a nice spin on some eggs cause I get really tired of eating regular old eggs all the time. I really couldn’t even taste the eggs much. And bacon. Of course. If I take the time to make a real breakfast on my days off, I almost always make bacon. But it’s nitrate and nitrite free, so that counts for something. And saturated fat isn’t even bad for you, so I’m still winning.

I’m about to start on my plethora of biology that I’ve been putting off, but I decided to hold off until I was eating because it entails putting pictures like this into a lab write up:

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Yep, so biology had to wait till breakfast was done. I really need to start some cooking for the next two days because I have a feeling I won’t be coming home from work tomorrow night. It’s supposed to get bad after midnight, so when Jon gets home from work, we have to discuss if he’s comfortable taking me to work tomorrow. Unfortunately, I need my car when I get off work on Thursday at 3, so I’m not sure how to work out the car situation if he drops me off (maybe drop mine off tonight before we go to bed). This prospect of snow and ice is really a pain! If I didn’t have class on Thursday night, it wouldn’t be a real issue, but I have to have my car to make it there Thursday after work. Also, if I wasn’t a nurse this wouldn’t be a big deal. And even more, if I wasn’t PRN and got paid for being off work, I wouldn’t be as stressed. But if I miss out on 20 hours of work (between tomorrow and Thursday), I lose out on a lot of pay, and we can’t be having that! Health insurance and car insurance were both due within a two week period this month, so responsibility calls- gotta make that money honey.

Okay, breakfast is all done, so time to go be productive for the rest of the day! Can’t believe it’s already 2:30pm! All I did was go the gym, shower, and eat! The day is almost over!

(By the way, Kitty always sleeps behind me when I’m on the computer and she snores so loud. Does anybody else have a snoring cat? I think it’s the cutest thing ever but she is seriously so loud. I recorded it on my phone the other day and it’s the best. I’ll include a picture of how cute my cats are… Kitty’s the fluffy one in the back that I just woke up, and Tom is the orange one. Excuse the bed with pillows with no pillow cases. The guest bedroom isn’t anywhere near finished yet.)

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Workout plans no more :( Sick week!

I’m actually a little bummed to report that my Fitness February didn’t start yesterday. While I was working on biology in the morning, I noticed that I was starting to feel increasingly worse. I ended up napping from 11:10-12:15 and finally dragging myself off the bed to go grocery shopping. After that, I was going to run and head to the gym. Nope. With every hour that passed, I continued to feel worse.

The good news is that I had time to cook yesterday since I was feeling too sick to work out! I also decided to get a picture of what $127 worth of groceries buys me:

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Enough wild caught cod for two people and two pounds of chicken included.

I still hate cooking but was actually excited to be making our food again! I hate getting into the habit of eating out because when you always eat out, it’s just so hard to want to eat at home. I used my new kitchen stand (/super old but recently brought home from the storage unit) as my recipe/Pandora stand:

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I’m excited to stain this darker!

 I made these amazing breakfast muffins:

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Bacon, egg, cheese, hash brown! SO GOOD!

I also cooked up some shredded chicken in the crockpot, some sweet potatoes for breakfast, cooked chicken for stir fry, and cut all the stir fry veggies up.

By the time I finished, I had about 45 minutes until I had to go to class. I did a quick workout with 10# weights at home first since I had skipped the gym. Then I managed to get to campus early enough to study two chapters. I got home and was feeling exhausted and lazy so all I did was watch TV and go to bed.

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Tom has been so cuddly lately! He just laid in my arms while I watched TV.

I didn’t get much sleep cause of congestion and my sore throat, unfortunately.

I just got home from work today. As a quick lesson I’ve learned in my years of nursing, it’s that IV drugs are really never a good idea. Nothing like dragging an unresponsive, totally blue young kid out of a car, presumably due to overdose. But there’s nothing quite like the excitement of somebody running in the front door and saying they need help and having it actually be a legitimate need, either.

My original plan was to go to CrossFit tonight but I’m really not feeling it at all. As much as I want to get back into the gym, I spent most of my day nauseous and now I’m blowing my nose every ten minutes and coughing and sneezing a ton. So instead, I think I’m about to shower and nap and then start on my biology.

Hopefully by this weekend I’ll be able to get back to working out and running. Maybe I won’t set any fitness goals anymore because clearly once I do, my body feels the need to intervene.

Typical week! Too much work and school!

Let’s not talk about how many times I’ve eaten out this week. Seriously. Except let’s. I don’t typically eat out for meals because it’s expensive and I just prefer my own food. However, I noticed a Fresh 2 Order right near the Whole Foods I go to and I love their Asian chicken and sweet potatoes. If you have an F2O, do yourself a favor and order this.

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 That was on Tuesday. But I did find my wedding dress on Tuesday and was able to finally have some time hanging out with Crista, so I was glad!

Wednesday Jon and I found our wedding venue! Lake Allatoona Inn. I don’t think I can even begin to put into words how happy we are to have found a venue! And even better, they had Memorial Day weekend available, so our wedding is set for May 24th! There are three bedrooms at the B&B, so Jon and I will have a room, his best man and his wife, and my maid of honor and her boyfriend. It’ll be so nice to have them there with us the whole weekend! We are beyond excited and I think both of us are breathing easier! Jon and I celebrated with a meal at Iberian Pig because we were in the area. I should have gotten pictures of my bacon wrapped dates and pork cheek tacos, but I didn’t. Delicious, however. I had been craving that! We topped our meal off with Cheesecake Factory cheesecake and I was a happy camper!

Thursday was work and class. As usual, my day consisted of nothing else other than a quick nap.

Today I was off again! I did homework this morning and made it to my first workout of the week! We did 30 pull ups, 30 ring dips, 21 clean and jerks, and a 2000m row. I finished in 21:07. Nate (the owner) tried to jump my 55# C&Js to 75# during the WOD, which after not lifting in so long, I could barely do. Which is sad because I used to do all my C&Js in WODS at 85#. But I’m just not feeling it. I love CrossFit. I love lifting heavy. But my heart isn’t where it used to be. We did muscle up progressions and I have done 3 muscle ups in my life. On my attempt to get the fourth, I felt like I almost ripped my shoulder off. After not working for three months because of a stupid injury (my thumb, not my shoulder), I refuse to put myself in a position where I feel like my body could be compromised. I can’t afford to be out of work for so long because I hurt myself working out. I want to push myself to my limits- not where other people think I should be. I felt exhausted after the WOD, which is rare for me. I was exhausted before it though, too.

Jon came home and we had some things to take care of. Then we went to Leon’s Full Service Garage for dinner. I had been wanting to try it.

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We decided to get somewhat fancy today. You can’t tell by my sweater, but I did have a dress on. It was just really cold.

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I had some zucchini fritter thing and a sandwich with a portobello mushroom, cashew and basil pesto, cheese, and tomatoes. It was really good! Then Jon and I came home and took naps.

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Way to take off your clothes and get in bed before our squishface.

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Anyway, my head had been hurting since after dinner and I woke up with a headache, so I took my Goody’s powder and did some homework tonight. Jon and I cleaned up the house a little bit and now I’m heading to bed! I have to work from 7-3 tomorrow and Sunday morning we’re running a 5k. I haven’t been running at all because life has gotten in the way lately (work, school, wedding planning!) so I’m sure I’ll want to die. I’m a little disappointed that my running ability has decreased, but at the same time, I just don’t have the time right now to do CrossFit and run and with my schedule this month, something had to take the backseat and I choose running. My schedule seems better next month, so maybe I’ll be able to get back to running more.

Off to bed!