(Almost) Two Year Wedding Anniversary

Mine and Jon’s 2 year anniversary is coming up! It’s this Sunday, the 24th. If you care to read about our one year anniversary or our entire (very long) love story, I’ll post a link below.

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Christmas in Iraq, 2008. Also, that cot behind Jon is where we had our first kiss *fireworks* Haha.

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The last post of our love story (the other links are in this one)

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Savannah trip with my parents in late 2009.

I was laying in bed this morning with Tom, excited for Jon to come home tonight! And then I remembered he won’t be home tonight and I probably won’t see him tomorrow night either since I’ll be at my parent’s house. And then I just so totally in love with him randomly and remembered that our two year anniversary is coming up this weekend!

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Fall 2010.

There are definitely days where Jon drives me crazy. Just last weekend I was convinced that I married the wrong person and that there is no way our marriage is ever going to last because we can’t communicate! And really, I think that periodically anyway, especially since being pregnant. I’m a real treat to be married to ūüôā But you know what? No marriage is perfect. I knew when we got married that there would be times where one of us is just completely over our marriage and wants to be done with it. We have an entire life together. It’s naive to think that we’re both going to be happy for the entire marriage.

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Valentine’s Weekend, 2011.

But really, I love him. I’ve known he was “the one” since we first started dating in Iraq in 2008. Even through our break ups, with the longest being over a year, I still never stopped feeling that about him even when I didn’t have any kind of “romantic feelings” for him at all. I just always had a feeling that part of my life was missing, and that part of my life was him.

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Back together again! Braves game in 2013.

Jon really is a man who knows how to love unconditionally. Even when I’m telling him that our marriage will never work, he always reassures me that he didn’t marry me to leave me. He always still shows me the same love. He has always been honest with me and I’ve never had to question him. He takes care of me and loves providing and being the “man of the house.” (Even though I run the house.) He is always supportive of me and my decisions, even when they involve taking a gigantic pay cut just so I could try and get other experience in nursing, in a job that I’m not even planning on staying at.

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The night we got engaged, December 23, 2013.

I’m so grateful to have met him, and especially grateful that we were in Iraq when we met, cause I don’t think our personalities would have ever meshed had we met outside of our deployment! I was far too crazy and too much of a mess before our deployment! When we’re walking along the road and he moves me away from the road or he rubs my back and feet when they hurt, it just reminds me why I love him so much.

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Cabin trip around our wedding, May 2014. (We got courthouse married in January 2014, which is what we actually celebrate as our anniversary.)

Jon really is my rock. I feel like together, we can accomplish anything (well, except for me becoming a world traveling nurse, cause he likes his wife to be at home with him- what’s that all about?!). He really is my other half and I wouldn’t have it any other way.

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One of my favorite wedding photos that my brother took of us. That’s my mom in the left side of the photo! I also absolutely loved the photos my brother got of our wedding, even though he wasn’t our photographer. May 24, 2014.

I hope we manage to love each other for the rest of our lives and grow old and saggy together. Although I’m nervous about the changes coming up in our marriage with the addition of a new baby, I also can’t wait for one of Jon’s biggest dreams in life to come true this year: being a father.

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Christmas 2015.

 

 

So much for a money making weekend! Saturday I went into work and it was pretty slow. I think I had 3-4 patients so I kept joking with my supervisor that she should just let me go home. And then she said I could go! I left around 1pm and called Jon to give him a heads up that I was leaving work and that we could spend the day together! Woohoo! Except, I think I was grumpy and Jon was grumpy and we both got home and argued with each other over nothing. And then I was so irritated that we argued when I actually got to leave work early on a weekend that I was just frustrated with that and stayed angry! So it was a disastrous afternoon off, which ended with me running errands and then both of us went to Babies R’ Us and to let Andrew’s dog out. I was seriously exhausted last night, so we were in bed by 10.

Today I went back to work and was scheduled to float for 12 hours. That rarely ever happens! I don’t work with adults much anymore, so they typically don’t schedule me to float. At 7am, my supervisor was asking me if I wanted to go home! I told her I’d stay and somebody else could go, and then she was all, “Just go drink some tea and come find me later.” So I wandered around and chatted everybody up and then at 8:15, I walked past her again and she was like, “Just go home!” Woohoo again! I know I need the money (like, for reals), but how can I not go home on a weekend when Jon and I have so few left together before the baby is born?!

I went home, showered, and then Jon and I went to have breakfast with my mom and dad at J. Christopher’s. It was a lot of fun seeing them this morning actually. I always enjoy spending time with them and really am super grateful to have healthy parents who are going to get to spend so much time with their grandson! Jon and I headed back to their house so Jon could help my dad load up a TV to take to Goodwill and I crashed on the couch. 5am wake-ups are just way too much for me. I do okay if I’m at work, but I totally just crash as soon as I walk out.

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I had Jon get in a picture with me today since we have so few of us together while I’m pregnant! I think this might be our second one total where you can actually see my belly! I should also try and make my hair not look like such a mess right before we take photos.

After that, Jon and I decided to check out Buy Buy Baby cause we’ve never been. I was in cloth diaper heaven, even though they still have a limited selection. Once we left there, we cancelled Jon’s golf membership and came home. I’m not even kidding when I say that as soon as we got home, I took off my shoes and crashed. I think that was the best sleep I’ve had in weeks! I set my alarm so I could sleep for 45 minutes and I seriously felt like I had been asleep forever.

I still wanted to take advantage of some sunlight, so Jon and I decided to finally check out PDK, or DeKalb Peachtree Airport (I have no idea why it’s PDK but isn’t actually named in that order). We live so close to it and see planes land and take off all the time but somehow get distracted whenever we plan on going. Unfortunately, it was super cold when we got there and I think less planes are coming and going on Sunday evenings. Still awesome to check out and one plane did leave and two came in! Definitely need to go back and it’s fun cause they actually have a little playground area! I told Jon I was going to take Jackson and he made fun of me! I just think airplanes are cool! Even if I do hate flying in them!

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We had to go let Andrew’s dog out again (he lives a good 25 minutes away so it’s not like a next-door type of thing) and now we’re home! Jon’s finishing up a game on TV so I assume we’ll do some relaxing together. I picked up a 4 hour shift in the ER tomorrow morning since I decided to miss out on 17 hours of work this weekend and then I’m going to be working on some baby shower stuff with Gina, Kassie, and Laura tomorrow afternoon!

I also figured out my AppleID password and used an app to make a comparison photo of my pregnancy so far!

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9 weeks and 33 weeks. 

21 Weeks Pregnant and Not Loving It

Happy Friday! It’s in the 50s and sunny today and is such a beautiful day! Unfortunately, I think tomorrow is supposed to be cloudy, but I’m going to try and get some outside time in today.

I had to work yesterday at my ER job and was kind of irritated all day long. Nobody told me they switched the board, so at 3pm, I went from our children’s ER to the adult ER. I hadn’t planned on that, and since I was feeling sick all day yesterday, I had postponed my lunch and was going to take it around 3pm (easy to do on the children’s side). At 2:55, one of the other nurses informed me that I wasn’t on the board in the children’s side anymore at 3pm. Come to find out, they moved me and I didn’t know, so I never took a real lunch yesterday. Then they gave me a c-diff patient (it’s a bacteria that’s in the gut and causes diarrhea) that had come to the ER after positively testing for it. For some reason, they acted like she had to be brought back immediately, even though the girl surely had been out in the general public for awhile with the infection while she was waiting for three stool cultures to come back positive by her regular doctor. While the bacteria isn’t potentially harmful to the baby, I worry more about the antibiotics it takes to treat it (they’re all Class C) and you know, why risk it if I don’t have to?! She could wait another few minutes for another room. Luckily, the nurse next to me was willing to switch, although I did call to speak to our flow coordinator about it. My very next patient was a woman who came directly from chemo! I mean, come on! Oncology nurses still care for chemo patients while they’re pregnant, but in general, nurses in other departments tend not to care for them if we don’t have to. Chemo kills off healthy, multiplying cells, which is exactly what a baby is. Again, why risk it if I don’t have to? The woman easily could have waited for the next room. I ended up being tied up with a critical patient for over two hours though, so I never even stepped foot into the woman’s room. I’m not somebody who is ever concerned about contracting any sort of illnesses at work. During that whole Ebola thing, I never thought twice about it. I take care of people in the ER who are undiagnosed for communicable infections all the time (HIV, tuberculosis, whatever) and am fine with it. But with being pregnant, I just feel like there is no reason to risk an unborn baby for patients when our department has (literally) 17-18 other available nurses to care for them. I’m really against having to take medications while pregnant unless absolutely necessary, but if you can do things to avoid taking Class C medications, why not take those precautions?

Also, I took out one of my new teas to drink it yesterday and noticed that the package said to speak with your doctor before drinking it if you’re pregnant. I had never even considered that, but when I looked it up, I found that there are a few herbs you shouldn’t consume via teas while pregnant because they’re more concentrated. Who knew?! Then I was paranoid about the tea I’ve been drinking, but I looked them up at work yesterday and the ingredients listed are nothing to be concerned about. However, some sites still said to avoid tea while pregnant in general. Ugh. Who even thinks about all of this?! No deli meat. Limit your fish intake. Don’t even drink tea. WTF. (I’m still going to drink my other teas- they’re non-herbal- I’ll just stay away from the herbal teas.)

Since this whole post is all about pregnancy, I’ll just stick with the theme. I’m still nauseous pretty much all the time now. Still in a different way than morning sickness where I felt super nauseous all the time and had major food aversions. But now, I just feel like I’m going to actually throw up a lot. I had to stop working out this morning after about 18 minutes (luckily the workout was 20 minutes long) because I thought I was going to throw up. Every time I eat a meal, it makes me feel awful. I’ve been having to eat small things more frequently to avoid feeling completely awful, but even then it doesn’t help much. Yesterday I went to eat a snack cause I was hungry, but as soon as I got my lunch box out of the fridge, my mouth started watering like I was going to throw up. I don’t want to drink as much because I feel like it just sits in my stomach. I only peed four times at work yesterday and I’ve been going at least¬†10 times a day easily at work, and if I drink more, probably over 20 times (I go multiple times an hour a lot of days). So I know my hydration is lacking which isn’t good in pregnancy either. I don’t have heartburn thankfully (common in pregnancy), but I just feel disgusting 24/7 and like I want to throw up multiple times a day. I’m having to sleep with my head elevated again because of it (and that hurts my back and my shoulders hurt if I sleep on my sides but I’m not supposed to sleep on my back but I do anyway, and I wake up every morning with lower abdominal discomfort and I’m just getting tired of mornings in general because I always feel miserable).

Also, I think I have internal hemorrhoids now. Also common in pregnancy and since I just try to keep it real with all of you, I’m just throwing that out there. Today was the first day I noticed a lot of discomfort and a fair amount of blood when I went to the bathroom. I’m just hoping it doesn’t get worse.

Despite all of these pregnancy annoyances, I’m still really liking being pregnant overall. Even though I feel disgusting all the time, I am¬†so glad¬†I don’t have that terrible 24/7 nausea like morning sickness was. Even though I’m mildly uncomfortable in the mornings, I still sleep fine for most of the night. Even if my workouts suck, I can still modify them. And even if I have hemorrhoids, at least I’m not constipated anymore like I was at the beginning of pregnancy. It’s still fun feeling Jackson in there kicking me all day long and I like watching my belly get bigger and bigger. It’s even starting (but just barely) to get more exciting to think about actually having a real baby in 18 more weeks and not just a belly baby.

To end this long, boring (sorry to those who have never been pregnant, these are not fun things to read about, I’m sure) post, I’ll post a picture of my belly now (well, on Wednesday).

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21.5 weeks pregnant. I’ll be 22 weeks tomorrow.

Bachelorette Party Shopping, New Jobs, and Protein!

Another day, another dolla. I’m kidding. I didn’t even work today. I rarely blog on days I work. Ain’t nobody got time for that.

I did my first Body Attack class last night through ClassPass! It was just weird, you guys. It was basically like a cardio class where you just run in place and jump up and down and wave your arms and punch the air and dance your little feet in square shapes. Not at all what I was expecting. Actually, I thought I signed up for Body Pump, so¬†really¬†not what I was expecting. But it was good. I actually got my heart rate up and got my sweat on, and it was nice to have a break from weights because my body is so tired. So I may do it again. I’m not really sure.

After another sleepless night last night, I got up and headed up to the new hospital for my employee health appointment and medication test. (By the way, I totally just realized I forgot to have my Hep B titers drawn today, which I hope doesn’t mess up my start date! How did I even do that?!) The medication test was actually pretty hard but we got to use a book, thankfully! I am a bit worried because ALL of my new employee paperwork has me listed as working PCU (progressive care unit, a step down from the intensive care unit) and I was very clear during my interview that I wanted telemetry to be my main area and that I could float to PCU as needed since I have ER experience and am familiar with everything they’ll do in PCU, aside from pulling sheaths after coronary intervention. So, I’m a bit miffed because I think I may have been mislead, but I’ll speak with the manager at orientation next week and get it straightened out. Jon told me I should email them now, but either way, I need a break from my current job so bad that I’d really work either… But still, I’ll be reviewing this with them.

After I finished up there, I headed to Whole Foods to grab some stuff for work. Still totally not feeling hardly any food, so I’ve been kind of winging it at the grocery store and hoping I’ll be able to tolerate one of the few items I buy. I also stocked up on some Orgain Protein Almond Milk in hopes of adding it to my fruit smoothies since I’m not eating¬†any¬†meat these days at all.

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Gina met me at my house once I got home so that we could do some Bachelorette Party shopping for Kassie’s big weekend! I actually had been planning on going to her house, so when we switched it last minute, it gave me a reason to do a quick clean on my house and now it’s finally cleaned up! I can’t be having people see my house messy.

Gina and I went to Party City for some basic pink Bachelorette goods, but they sadly don’t have any penis decor! I guess I should have expected that since they can’t really throw penises out where little kids are. We also needed to find some lingerie for her lingerie shower (which we’re doing at the Bachelorette Party), so we stopped by TJ Maxx for some sexy underthings! Then we headed to a sex shop thinking they’d have some penis stuff, but they didn’t aside from a penis cake pan (for $19!). Who knew?! And their non-penis shaped stuff was really expensive! So we decided to go in search of a Spencer’s, not even knowing if that store still exists or not. But it does! And they have plenty of penis stuff!

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Kassie said no to that penis nose! WHY?! Haha. I would have totally rocked that! Their penis cake pans were only $8 too! I’m going to frost two penis cakes- one peach and one chocolate. I’m super excited!

After our shopping adventures, Gina left and I¬†read up on some cloth diapering discussion boards (I really think Jon and I are going to go the cloth diaper route because I am way too environmentally conscious to just be throwing away tons of diapers, and cloth diapering is cheaper in the long run). I learned a lot but the whole cloth diapering thing is a bit overwhelming! I think I’m going to register for various types of diapers on my baby registry in hopes of getting different stuff.

I’m thinking I may head out for a quick elliptical session at the gym and maybe some arms. Why not? I’m feeling cabin feverish and hopefully all the post-work gym goers are heading out since it’s 7pm. Maybe I’ll take a walk outside after that too for some nice, fresh humid air! I’m not sure how I’m still so energized today, but I’m loving it! I wish this nausea would go away, but whatever! At least my body hasn’t been drained all day!

Lots of Cooking and Food Aversions!

It’s FRIDAY! Which really means nothing for me since I work all day tomorrow and Sunday. I’m looking forward to Monday! In sad news, first and foremost, I found out that Jon and I will be going quite some time without seeing each other next month. I’ll be out of town for Kassie’s Bachelorette party, and then when we get back, Jon will be headed to Minnesota for a few weeks. The night he’ll fly home is the night that Laura and I will leave for our 1 1/2 week road trip! I know we went months without seeing each other while I was doing travel nursing, but I hate being at home without him. I never sleep well because I’m always paranoid somebody is going to break in. So, I may be spending some nights at my mom and dad’s to at least get some good nights of sleep, but because of the cats, the majority of the time will still be spent at home! I can’t wait till his training is done so we can spend some more time together! And, starting now, we don’t have any more days off together until mid-September! I’ll just be grateful that we’re together more often than not though, because plenty of people go much longer without their spouse (and we have too!).

Laura and I met up Wednesday night for some errand running (this is how friends hang out at almost 30). Laura had to get a baby gift from Babies R’ Us and we had the longest experience of our life there. Also, there is so much stuff at that store! I refuse to buy my kids that much stuff. I feel like kids should learn to be creative with their toys- not just get ten thousand new gadgets to play with all the time. And the amount of other random stuff they had was just ridiculous. I’m going to try and be a more minimalist parent. Anyway, then we went to Old Navy to return some stuff. I hadn’t been there in forever, but I found two necklaces. One I wasn’t sure of but Laura liked it, so I bought it since it was so cheap. There were no mirrors under about 5’7″ at the store, so Laura snapped this picture… I feel like the dangles at the bottom are a little much for my style.

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I worked all day yesterday with the kids again, thankfully. The days with the kids are just so much easier than working with adults. I have a feeling I’ll spend my weekend with the adults since that’s typically how it goes, but at least my time in the ER is going to be coming to a bit of a close since my hours will drop down so much shortly. I’m more than ready!

Last night, I decided to make Jon a peanut butter pie and breakfast casserole for his last day at the hospital! I was exhausted and not in the best mood. I crashed around 10:30 and slept great until 4am!

I was up once 4am hit, but I laid in bed till 6:15. I got up to finish the breakfast casserole for Jon’s work.

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I ended up watching some shows this morning before Jon even left for work and then napped for a little under an hour. I was really wanting to go to a ClassPass class this morning, but I was kind of waiting to see how I felt. I felt like I never digested my dinner from last night and was nauseated, but I signed up for MissFits (the less hardcore CrossFit class for all ladies) since I love that class. I snacked on some Ritz crackers with peanut butter and then headed out the door!

I definitely was feeling rough at the gym, but typically I make it through working out okay. As long as I don’t stop to rest too much, I don’t really feel the nausea. It’s when I stop and rest that it catches up with me. It wasn’t too hard of a workout today thankfully, but I still worked up a sweat and it felt good to do something active since so much time has been spent on my couch lately.

I came home and ate some oatmeal and grapes that did not really hit the spot at all, but I don’t think anything would have. Then I headed to the pool for about 20 minutes before coming back home to shower and take the peanut butter pie to Jon’s work. I was congratulated by and said goodbye to all of his coworkers (I go have lunch with him at work occasionally, so they all know me). Thankfully, they enjoyed my breakfast casserole (I had never made it) and my peanut butter pie! My pie crust was really crumbly which didn’t happen last time, but oh well. Still delicious!

I headed to Whole Foods for a few things and came home to throw together rice, broccoli, and cheese for work.

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These food aversions are crazy. I always imagined it just being that certain foods would make you sick. Like, suddenly chicken would make me want to vomit but everything else would pretty much be okay. Nope. That is not it at all. Instead, everything makes me want to vomit except for maybe one or two random things that I can decide about an hour in advance. Know what I had for lunch at work yesterday?

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And I seriously suffered through the strawberries I brought. I brought chicken salad and carrots too, but I couldn’t even bring myself to look at them. Or I’ll decide that I can eat ice cream and the thought of anything else makes me sick. Or I just don’t want anything and think maybe I’ll be able to tolerate Ritz with peanut butter (like this morning). But it’s not ever the same thing. So I bought mac and cheese because the other day, I could stomach mac and cheese. But now? That sounds horrible. I bought that chicken salad the other day because I thought that sounded good. I ate it once and now, I can’t bring myself to eat the rest. It’s really expensive to waste so much food. Instead, I guess I can handle that disgusting fake cheese that I would seriously¬†never ever¬†eat if somebody paid me to normally and the disgusting french fries from work. The saddest part? I can’t drink coffee. The thought of drinking a cup of coffee makes my stomach churn and I love coffee!

Anyway, so in hopes of being able to eat my lunch this weekend, I figured something plain would work. There is hardly any flavor to my rice and broccoli at all, which is exactly what I need to be able to tolerate food. I thought about leaving the broccoli out for fear of not being able to eat that either, but I just steamed it with no seasoning and chopped it in the food processor. I feel like I still need to get some nutrition in but it’s so hard! Sorry this is all about food, but that’s really all my life is about lately. Food, nausea, and feeling so tired that my arms feel like 10,000lbs while I brush my teeth. Seriously.

I’m going to go lay on the couch now. I’m going to dinner with Crista, Billy, and Jon tonight. I doubt I’ll eat. And then tomorrow is back to work! So, couch siting and TV watching for a few hours before I have to pry myself up again!

Sushi & Baby Talk

Holy Moly, Monday! You couldn’t have come fast enough!

Thursday, there was no gym. I went to the pool instead. My body was so tired and I had no energy, nor any desire, to lift any weight or move my body any faster than I had to. While I’m struggling a bit with this “being too tired to work out” or “wanting to keep going to the gym so I don’t get out of the habit of working out,” I guess I just have to listen to my body.

I spent Thursday evening at my mom and dad’s. It was definitely fun having Annie and Tank in town for almost 3 weeks, but it’s nice not spending all of my days off over there too! I really wish they lived closer than Wisconsin, but I guess I’ll just be glad Jon’s family is only half as far away (in Jacksonville, FL).

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Friday, Saturday, and Sunday were 12 hour work days (and I got out at 7:30 all three days). I didn’t sleep well on Thursday or Friday night, but then managed to get a good night of sleep on Saturday night. Thankfully, none of the days at work were terrible because I don’t think I even have the mental capacity right now to handle a rough day. I feel like my mind is mush and my critical thinking is going downhill. I got my feet wet yesterday when I helped my neighbor with her critical patient for about 20 minutes, but that was more than enough and I was thankful that it wasn’t my patient!

Jon and I decided to go to sushi last night. Actually, I decided. I have tons of cravings lately, but most of them are fleeting. Like, I decided while I was on my way to Whole Foods the other day that I¬†needed carrots! So I bought a huge thing of carrots. By the time I got home, I really didn’t want carrots at all. And still don’t. But now I have three containers full of chopped carrots. My most frequent cravings are bagels and Panera. I have only had one bagel so far (from Panera, actually), but I think it’s safe to say that I’ve increased my carb intake exponentially. I’m just going to buy bagels for myself at the store, which I haven’t done in years (we’re a no bread house). But, with not feeling all that great most of the time, I don’t want to eat ¬†chicken (at all, even though I made 2lbs of chicken and couldn’t bring myself to eat one bite) or tons of veggies. I am trying to keep myself eating a fairly well rounded diet still though. I’ve been fairly successful, even if my lunch at work for three days consisted of a white potato, strawberries, and carrots only.

Okay, that paragraph ended up being all about food. So, Jon and I went to eat sushi last night. It was so good and it was nice to have a little date night with him. I’m pretty bummed because our schedules won’t line up for us to have a weekend off together until the second or third weekend in September, and now that he’ll be working full time again, I don’t have weekdays off with him either. I guess we’ll have to fit in these date nights as much as possible!

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I got in bed shortly after we got home and slept so good! Aside from the loudest thunderstorm I’ve ever heard in my life at 12:30, followed by Kitty throwing up such a big hairball that she then threw up her dinner and three piles of blood, I really had a great night of sleep! I slept so good, in fact, that I stayed in bed till almost noon. I was awake for a lot of it, but just had zero desire to get up. I had really hoped that exhaustion in early pregnancy wouldn’t hit me, but it has! I’m sure working 38 hours in the last 3 days didn’t help, but I have been more tired lately than I have been in as long as I can remember. I’m trying to rest when I can since I’ve had so many sleepless nights and besides, I won’t be able to lay in bed till noon again once this baby comes, so I will lay in bed till noon if I feel like it. I need to enjoy these childless days as much as I can! I hope these next 33 weeks are the slowest 33 weeks of my life!

Another girl at work is pregnant with me. She has a two year old and she’s 9 weeks pregnant now. We were chatting yesterday and she was basically super realistic and saying how really, until your baby is a year old, there’s nothing fun about it. She wasn’t one who enjoyed being pregnant (I think it’s totally weird to have a baby growing in me and I don’t have that “life is so beautiful” feeling at all) and didn’t enjoy the newborn phase at all. She said it wasn’t really till her son was a year that it really made sense to have a kid. I feel like I’ll be the same way and it’s refreshing that moms are open about feeling that way, so that the other people who feel that way don’t feel like awful mothers for going through that natural progression. It wasn’t until the last few years that I realized people don’t¬†actually¬†like the newborn phase and that some moms feel no connections with their babies for a few months. I’m really excited to have older kids, but none of the next year or two seems like any fun to me. Babies are cute, but I don’t particularly enjoy them. At least not 24/7. And you know what? That’s okay. I don’t have to love every stage of having a baby. And it’s okay if it takes a few months or more to even really like my baby. I don’t really see how women are supposed to like the thing that makes them hormonal and fat for 9 months, rips open their vagina, and then takes their normal life from them and exchanges it for sleepless nights and stressful days and worries of daycare and who will watch this child and WHAT DO YOU EVEN DO WITH THIS BABY?!

Guys, this is not beautiful. It’s not even fun. And it’s not cute. Just like my boobs won’t be cute after they start sagging from the extra 10lbs each boob has gained.

Alright, I promise not all blog posts will be about babies. I don’t want to be that person. I’m going to go try to have a productive day running way too many errands, which I hope will include the gym somewhere at some time. Probably via ClassPass, which I need to go ahead and activate since this should be a better week than last.

New Jobs vs. Old Jobs

It has been a rough two days at work! Apparently between the increase in heart rate that you have during pregnancy and probably just having too much on my mind, I haven’t been sleeping well at all! I also feel like I’m in a fog a lot of times (which I actually noticed the day before and the day I found out I was pregnant), so work has been really less than pleasant lately. Not to mention the fact that I’m just¬†burnt out. I’m getting irritated much more easily and am just over it. So yesterday and today really just kicked my butt.

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One of my good work buds texted me this after work (after I let her know that I did not quit my job before 7pm and made it through my shift!). Definitely summed up my day! I don’t even know how I keep it together sometimes.

However, on the job front, I had my interview with the cardiac floor the other day. It went pretty well, aside from me answering a question totally wrong (I was thinking of the wrong letters), and I actually enjoyed the interview. It was weird being back on the floor I worked on years ago! It smelled the same and everything! The only downfall is that the pay is a¬†big¬†pay cut. In order to take this job, I will have to drop my hours at my current job, which will cost me $5 an hour just at that job. And the pay cut from what I make now to this other job? $13 an hour.¬†I honestly don’t even want to think about that, because just that thought stresses me out.

Another big downfall is that even though I only had to work 4 shifts a month, I’m on a rotating every 3rd weekend schedule and I can’t even begin to tell you guys how much I hate that. One of the best parts of my job is that I can pick and choose my weekends, even if I do have to work four weekend days per month.

I had to really think about this the other morning. Will I accept a job that I will be unhappy with my weekend schedule at, and that will end up costing me hundreds of dollars a month in income? But, sometimes I just have to focus on where this job will get me in the future, even though I may not love it now.

It’s a break from my current job. The ER is wearing me down and I honestly considered quitting today. I’m just so incredibly burnt out from that place! So it’ll change up my work schedule and I’ll go to another place to do part of my shifts, while still making somewhat decent pay (even if it does suck in comparison to what I make right now). I gain experience in another area, making me more marketable for future clinical nursing jobs and future management jobs. They sound like they have a lot of management opportunities from within, so it may be a good place to get my feet wet. And lastly, it’s a per diem job. I won’t find a job that will take me into a brand new field of nursing (for me) and only require me to work four days a month on¬†day shift. I caught this floor at a desperate time.

So, sometimes you just have to do things you don’t want to do, in order to come out where you want to be. If I hate it, I quit. If I don’t hate it, well then, I’m really winning then, huh?

Weekly Updates: ClassPass, Dogwood Festival, Trip Planning

It’s been over a week since I did a life update! How did you all live without knowing what was going on in my life?!?! Kidding!

Remember how I ended up with my crown falling out and a UTI? After spending all week feeling nauseous and having a sore throat, I broke out in hives on Friday! I was having a serious wtf is going on with my body moment! I managed to get some steroids from work the next day and that helped immensely and by the end of the day, I was better. But really, I think I had an immune system crash.

Last Friday night, Jon and I went to the Braves Home Opener! I’d like to say I got some fun pictures from the night, but honestly, after breaking out in hives, taking Benadryl before the game, and then having a two hour rain delay (which also dropped the temp and I was freezing), I was not really feeling super ecstatic about being there! We left after the 5th inning since it was late and I was so tired from the Benadryl! I’m actually super excited about it being baseball season though and going to some more games! It’s a little sad going to games, since 1/2 the team has been traded since last season and we no longer have Kimbrel as our closer, but I’m sure it’ll still be a lot of fun! I’m trying to soak in Turner Field while I can since the stadium is moving in 2017!

On Saturday, Jon and I went to the Dogwood Festival (a big art festival) with Crista and Billy! I’ve gone plenty of times in the past, but this year was crazy! It was miserably crowded and it was actually really hot out! Unfortunately, since we met up with friends, we didn’t get to browse through the art tents like I was hoping to do. Instead, we walked around a bunch and then found some chairs to sit in and people watch.

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Piedmont Park, Atlanta. Love my city.

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After we finished with our festivities, we had Mexican food and then Crista and I went and sat by her pool after getting back to her apartment. It was a seriously beautiful night out and I was so happy to just be sitting outside.

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Sunday morning, I went to a MissFits class (a ladies only CrossFit-esque class) via ClassPass. It was a really good workout and I really enjoyed it! That afternoon, Jon and I stopped by my parent’s house and started some planning for our Eurotrip and then headed to our friend Andreina’s baby shower! I had a really good time there and have enjoyed meeting a few of her friends at the last few things she’s had at her house! Very nice girls! After the baby shower, we came home to jump into some more trip planning!

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This past week has been a busy one! I worked Monday, ran errands and cleaned up on Tuesday, did another ClassPass class at Hard Exercise Works (CrossFit type workout), worked Wednesday, spent the night with my parent’s on Wednesday cause Jon has a friend in town, worked Thursday till 4ish and went to CrossFit last night, and now it’s Friday morning!

I went to another MissFits class today and now my upper body is smoked after two days of big upper body CrossFit stuff!

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I had planned on doing my favorite Cardio Muscle Mix tomorrow, but I don’t know if my upper body can take it! I think I may end up canceling and going to have a leg day at LA Fitness! I’m meeting up with Kassie and Gina in the morning for a bridesmaids dress shopping day and hopefully we’ll all spend some more time together in the afternoon! Definitely can’t wait to have some time with my girls!

Anyway, my plans for the day are boring. GTL. I kid. I’m going to run to LA Fitness to cancel Jon’s membership, hit up Costco for some more protein powder, and then head to Trader Joe’s and Whole Foods. Jon’s friend is still in town and they’re going out tonight for some dinner and drinks, so I’m thinking I may just have a low key night at home. I’m deciding if I want to make an effort to go out and do anything this evening, but it’s dreary and a night on the couch with my cats sounds nice!

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I know it’s not healthy to be fat, but this Tom Tom breathes so loud 24/7, probably cause his fat is¬†squishing his trachea, and it just melts my¬†little heart to listen to his kitty grunts all the time. #crazycatlady

Hard Exercise Works, Yummy Salmon, and Lazy Days

Happy Friday! It’s not really feeling like Friday for me since I work all weekend, but I’m having a nice relaxing day off! I go into 16 hours of overtime this week, so I’ll just enjoy my lazy afternoon. I had planned on going to a CrossFit class this afternoon, but I’m not sure if I’m feeling the gym today. Undecided. I won’t be able to work out till Monday though because of work tomorrow and Sunday, so I’m thinking I should go, but then again, my PJs and couch time is feeling fantastic too!

I want to start with a quick dinner I made on Wednesday night! When Jon and I were in Florida, we stopped to get Publix subs and tried a sample of some salmon that was delicious! They were giving away cards with the recipe so I grabbed one. Jon and I finally made it when I got off work and I was extremely pleased with how it turned out!

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I already ate half of it before snapping a picture to show his sister, but if any of you out there like salmon, I recommend trying this! It was super easy to make. My tip: Buy golden raisins from Trader Joe’s. They have the best golden raisins out there¬†by far. Also, we made about 1lb of salmon with the topping and that was good, so I’d make extra for more salmon. Oh, and I didn’t have herb garlic butter, so I added a heaping tablespoon of minced garlic (from the jars) to 4 tbspns of butter and heated it up on the stove and then just combined that with the rest of the topping. And I didn’t zest any lemons. Let’s be real. I’m too lazy for that.

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I tried a new ClassPass class yesterday! I actually really had fun there and will definitely go there again! It was one of the Hard Exercise Works¬†classes. The only really off-putting part of the class was that we started with clean and jerks and the coach didn’t even go over how to stand up out of a jerk! She demonstrated a split jerk, and then when she stood up, she brought her back leg forward, all the way even with her front leg. On a split jerk, the front leg comes back, then the back leg comes forward to meet it. I know it’s small, but if you want to teach olympic lifts, then know how to teach them properly. This was definitely a CrossFit-esque gym, but they said their difference is that they don’t go into heavy lifts as much (strange that I went on a day where we found a 1 rep max on C&J). It made me grateful for the good CrossFit coaches I’ve had that ingrained proper technique into me.

After my workout, I stopped home to shower and then met Laura out for sushi! I have really been craving sushi lately, so I was super excited to get some! Sadly, my shrimp tempura roll tasted a little strange. I’ve had the same thing from there many times so I know it’s not the norm, but it was a little disappointing. I also stopped by Costco after since sushi is right next door and was super excited to find that they have organic strawberries out now! 2 pints for $7.99!

Jon and I watched two episodes of House of Cards last night. I’ve heard really good things about it, but I’m just now getting into it after 3 episodes. I’m not really into politics so it can be kind of hard for me to follow at times. I think it’ll be easier to follow once the full storyline develops, but we had to pause it a few times for Jon to explain the first few episodes to me. And the way Kevin Spacey speaks in the show drives me insane. (Fun fact: I apparently had no idea who Kevin Spacey was. I’m not a movie watcher nor do I care about famous people, but that is totally not who I imagined as being Kevin Spacey. He kind of reminds me of my dad too, even though I assure you that nobody has ever looked at my dad and thought “woah, you really look like Kevin Spacey.”)

I slept in till 10 today (holy moly) and decided to start my day with making pancakes for work mornings. I really despise making pancakes for work, but I spent well over an hour doing it.

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All I used in these were protein powder, sweet potatoes, and eggs. Too lazy to add anything else (for one baked sweet potato, I add 4 eggs and 1-2 heaping scoops of chocolate protein powder- this was 3 sweet potatoes here).

Then I made myself some brekkie of hash browns, chives, cheese, and sour cream (baked potato style) and it was so dang good. I don’t know why I’ve never thought of this before! I was inspired apparently since Jon and I made potato pancakes to eat with out salmon the other night so I had everything available. Pretty sure I’ll be making this regularly.

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I had planned on cleaning the floors this afternoon but totally sat down on the couch to eat breakfast¬†and file my nails and then got started on the new Real Housewives of Melbourne and my productivity has gone down the drain. I think soon I’ll have motivation to either clean the floors or go to the gym. Not both. But definitely one or the other.

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Off to enjoy some more company with this guy before Jon gets home from work. Have a great weekend, everybody!

Wednesday Ramblings

Happy Hump Day! I had to wake up for a medication class at work today and it only lasted 1 1/2 hours, so now I’m home nice and early! Unfortunately, it was hard to fall asleep last night and Tom has gotten in the habit of laying on my face (literally, across my face) in the middle of the night and purring like a wild banshee. It’s hard to push him off when he sounds so happy, but he’s a fatty so it’s not very comfortable. And I’m having total flea paranoia lately since they seem to be scratching more, but I have a feeling it’s just their dry skin from the cold weather. I always get paranoid, deflea them, and then never see any dead fleas. Since we have people with pets visiting this week and bringing in luggage, I also feel the need to deflea them before anybody gets here and brings anything into the house. So that’s what I thought about in the middle of the night while the cat smothered my face. Sleepless nights.

I’m feeling exhausted but the bathrooms/floors in the house need to be done and I also need to go to the gym, although I’m super sore from my workouts lately… I’d take a day off, but since I’ll be taking all weekend off while Jon’s family is in town, I’m going to try and suffer through a tired/sore workout today. Maybe I’ll just do abs or something easy. I want to try to go tomorrow night as well, since my sister-in-law’s family will be getting in later on Thursday night.

I started working on taxes last night (the joys of being an adult) and am already over it. I should have saved more receipts throughout the year in case I get audited, and because I didn’t, I have to go through my bank statements to find hotel charges from traveling and all of that fun stuff. I also should have kept a lot of my miles for the year (to and from assignments, mostly, and my starting and ending miles for the year). Lessons learned. I really want to get everything submitted for taxes by February 1st so I can get that out of the way before getting all my travel stuff in order (since it’s always a pain in the ass to get ready for another assignment). Not to mention that I need to make sure I recert my ALS and BLS soon too so that I don’t expire while I travel in the summer/fall. I also finally finished up my resume for grad school and now I just have to mail that in and make sure the doctor and midlevel I asked to write my recommendations actually get them done. Fingers crossed they do them in time. Deadline is fast approaching.

I’m really in the mood to make a breakfast quiche with a hash brown crust, cheddar cheese, eggs, spinach, mushrooms, and bacon. Like, really really want to make it. Actually, I don’t want to make it- I just want to eat it. I have no idea how exactly to cook that so I’d need to Pinterest some baking times, but because we won’t be home this weekend and have a ton of food to eat over the next few days, I’ll hold off until Monday. But doesn’t that sound delicious? I’ve really come to love me some quiche in my old age. And I think Jon would really love some quiche too. I’m amazed at what a Betty Crocker I’ve become over these last few years (at least in comparison to my former, pre-Paleo life).

I guess I should be off to start having a productive day. It has just been so dreary lately and I’d really rather cuddle up on the couch with my cats and read a book or watch some trash TV. I could have stayed in Portland for all this dreary weather we’re having. People really underestimate the lack of sunny days we have in Georgia.