Hey-o. Happy Thursday. I’m feeling stressed out today and irritated with Jon (always). There was a house we found super close to downtown Charleston last week (in West Ashley), but Jon kept telling me we could find a house for that same price in Mt Pleasant and that he really wanted to live in Mt Pleasant. So he decided to wait on getting a lease on that house until he could go back and look at houses in Mt Pleasant this week. I kept stressing that the house was nice, close to downtown, cheap (especially because they dropped the price by $250 a month the day he looked at it), and I thought that house would be rented by this week. Of course, the house is rented, and there actually aren’t any decent houses in Mt Pleasant, or West Ashley now for that matter, that are anywhere even close to that price. Basically, for a decent house now, we’re looking at spending $6,000 extra in a year than we could have spent on that house. Although I’m excited to explore in Charleston, I’m getting frustrated with the decision not to buy a house in Atlanta and to put ourselves through this, especially because it would have been cheaper in the long run to just buy a house in Atlanta. And the market has really slowed down in Atlanta (I’ve still been tracking the houses, and a lot of nice looking houses are coming on the market in our price range and aren’t going nearly as fast), so I feel like we could have found something decent here in our price range. Also, it’s already getting old being alone at home with Jackson. I know my parents are here (obviously, because I live with them) and they are a huge help, but I’m ready to be out of my mom and dad’s house! I want our own space as a family! And I also want to be able to take vacations, but if I’m only keeping daycare in Georgia, then my mom has to agree to watch Jackson if I take a trip because I can’t leave him in Charleston with Jon since we don’t have daycare there! I am starting to wonder if I need to somehow work out a way to do a nanny in Atlanta and daycare in Charleston. But I really like our daycare here and I hate always placing Jackson with new daycare ladies!
I’m SO READY to get back to the gym now. I don’t crave working out at all. But I weighed myself with my boot on yesterday and was 95lbs. So I’m probably like, 93lbs, and that was after eating all day. My legs are so small and people are constantly telling me how thin I am. And my pants are so baggy on my legs now! I’m only making about 30oz of milk a day now and I feel like I’m eating a decent amount still (I eat when I’m hungry, as always), so I don’t know why I’m not gaining any weight back! I think once I quit pumping for good and get back in the gym, I’m going to have to start adding protein powder every morning to try and put on some weight again. And I need to start lifting to get my muscle back. And maybe just eating even more, even if I’m not hungry, so that I can pack in the calories.
I need to go work on my paper. I’m not feeling motivated at all. I think I’m just too frustrated today and it’s nice out and the last thing I want to do is work on this stupid paper. I can’t think of any words to use and my eyes hurt from looking at my computer. Ugh. I’m grumpy. And I am getting my hair cut tonight and the last thing I want to do is sit in a chair for hours getting my hair cut.
Maybe I should go eat some chocolate and turn my frown upside down.