Wow, it’s been almost a month since I updated! I should be working on grad school right now since I’ve barely been able to get anything done in the last few weeks and need to get caught back up, but that can wait a second.
It has been a crazy month! I went to Yosemite with Laura for 10 days which was amazing! I can’t even begin to tell you all how nice it was to not be responsible for another human being 24/7. The freedom of being away was indescribable. And I slept like a rock every single night! Not having to worry about a baby waking up or hearing my mom get up at 4:30am for work or Jon get up at 5:30am and then hearing Jackson fuss or Rascal meowing was so nice! And it was just all about me for 10 days! Jon was stressed and hated every second of me being gone since he had to take care of Jackson and he told me I don’t get to go on 10 day trips anymore now that I’m a mom, but we’ll see about that. It was amazing to get out and hike again and be in nature. I used to hike a ton when I did travel nursing, especially in Massachusetts, but I haven’t really hiked since being back much. Our longest hike was 7 miles out to Cathedral Lake. I wouldn’t have minded a longer hike, but Laura isn’t much of a hiker and 7 miles is still a good trip. Cathedral Lake was marked as moderate and I thought it was pretty easy. I think we kind of killed it. I LOVED Yosemite though! It really inspired me to start backpacking more and start doing overnight hikes, but then there’s this whole baby thing… So, who knows if that’ll ever happen. While I missed Jackson a ton and couldn’t wait to get home to him, those 10 days of freedom definitely made me wonder why we decided to have kids. Not that I’d give my boy back now that he’s here- but I really thrive on traveling. Probably way more than I do being a mom.
Jackson is a lot of fun right now, though. He’s almost 8 months old and he crawls and pulls up on everything and babbles and is really just a ton of fun. He is SO much work though! So dang much. I can spend two hours in the morning just following him around making sure he doesn’t crack his head open on the tile. I’m pretty relaxed about him, but still, I hate to just let him go get stitches because I wasn’t watching him. But he gets his fair share of bumps and bruises. He’s been staying home more often on my days off again since I really missed him this month. We’re still living with my parents and my dad is between jobs (or possibly on his way to retirement, who knows- he wants to work but he’s almost 68) so my dad has been a huge help. He watches Jackson in the morning while I pump and I set him down by my dad all through the day while I finish getting stuff done for a few minutes. It’s going to be hard to be back on our own again, but hopefully in our house, we’ll have an area that’s baby proofed. I’ve also had tons of help from my mom picking him up and watching him.
I’m still pumping, magically. I’m down to three times a day and still make more than he eats, but I need to drop to two pumps soon. It’s harder to wean mentally than I thought t would be. It’s really strange knowing I won’t be providing fresh milk for Jackson every day. I said that after Crista’s wedding, I would wean. Now I say by the time we get into our new house, I’ll definitely wean. It’s hard pumping with such an active baby and I won’t have my dad’s help anymore. It will be nice to have my boobs back. Jackson has been doing baby led weaning lately, which means we feed him table foods instead of purees. He choked on a banana pancake the other morning and it was terrifying! I know I’m an ER nurse and I deal with unexpected critical situations at work, but holy shit. My own baby choking was terrible! I actually called my dad over since he was on the couch (my dad used to be an EMT for years and years when I was younger) and he picked him up and did back slaps and Jackson spit his pancake right out. I guess because I see so much death, it just really scares me because who knows what would have happened if something was really lodged in there! So it has made all his subsequent feedings really stressful for me. I’m way paranoid now that it’ll happen again.
This past weekend, Jon and I went to St Pete, FL for Crista’s wedding. If you live near St Pete and haven’t gone, GO! It was SO cute! Billy’s (groom) parents live on this section called Pass-A-Grille and it was adorable! I really wish we had more time to explore, but wedding festivities kept us pretty busy. I really loved my dress, but this big boobs were just out of control and I’m pretty sure I’d have to re-alter the dress to wear it again, despite trying to get it super tight so that wouldn’t be the case. It was really nice to get away with Jon though. We haven’t gone anywhere together since early May, so we needed it.
Speaking of Jon, today is his 33rd birthday. I’d like to say I have big plans, but I don’t. I didn’t even get him a card. Life is way too crazy lately. We’re either eating dinner with my parents or Jon and I may go out and do dinner together. No clue.
Ummm… I’m in a boot now on my left foot. Apparently back when I first ran after having Jackson (very first day back to CrossFit at 6 weeks postpartum), I got a stress fracture in my foot. So now I’m in a boot. I have an appointment on Nov 1, but I don’t know that it’ll be healed in 3 weeks after putting it off for over 6 months. So no working out. I’m feeling out of shape, but then again, life should just be slowing down right now, so I haven’t even had time to work out lately. Or maybe I did, but I didn’t care to make time to work out with all that was going on. Hopefully I’ll get back into a good routine once we get into our own house.
Still on the house hunt. We found the perfect house and of course, they didn’t accept our offer. I should have been keeping track of how many offers we put in. We have one pending a counteroffer right now, but the house needs a TON of work. It’s pretty big though, but it’s in the middle of our price range and honestly probably needs $75k of work to get it where we want it. We’d never make that back in the neighborhood it’s in. We found a house I loved last night, but it looks like it has fairly extensive termite damage to the back of the house. I’d be willing to replace the damage we can see, but who knows how deep it goes into the structure. It could end up costing more than we bargain for. On that note, who owns a house and doesn’t have a termite bond? What is wrong with people?! And who doesn’t take care of their house, too? Some of the houses we’ve seen amaze me. The carpet is in terrible shape. The kitchens are a wreck. I get that there is normal wear and tear, but really… Maybe I’m just obsessively clean like my mother, but it appalls me. My parent’s house is 16 years old and Jon was actually just commenting the other day on how impressed he is that this is original carpeting in the house because it’s still in really good shape. That’s because it’s important to take care of your house!
Alrighty, time to get ready for the day and finish up some discussion postings so I can move on to my final papers. I have a busy end of the week (work Thurs/Fri 9a-7, Sat 11a-3p with a wedding that night, Sunday 11a-7p) and HATE my late days at work and not seeing Jackson. So 4 days in a row of late nights is too much for me!