Happy Friday guys! Although I feel like it should be more like “Unhappy Friday” since I have to work all weekend and this day will be my day to hopefully get sh*t done since it’s my 3rd day off in a row. I started it off by staying in bed till just after 11am though, so we’ll see if I get a swift kick of motivation or not! I think it’s just the impending doom of schoolwork looming overhead ruining all motivation. Womp womp.

I’ve had the last two days off and while I seriously considered picking up some shifts, I think I needed that time off to let these fat little legs recoup. While my legs are feeling better (although still a little fat), I have horrible lower back/upper butt pain right now. I’m sure it has to do with my new posture, since my belly protrudes so much, and I also wonder if my hips have started widening. Since I’ve gained so much elsewhere though, I really can’t tell if my hips are any bigger or not. I also reached this level:

Wednesday and Thursday ended up being gym days both days! I’m not even going to lie and pretend I wasn’t surprised that I’ve gone two days in a row. I’m shooting for a third today, but it’ll have to be somewhat light because my back hurt even worse yesterday after doing legs. (Random side note: I don’t get why people hate leg days. Back squats are my favorite move by far and I really love all leg moves best.) Also, since I cancelled my ClassPass, one of the coaches who owns a CrossFit gym near me emailed me asking me when I was coming back to see them. He’s an Army veteran also so we connected well when I went, but I told him I had cancelled ClassPass because I didn’t feel like it was working out to have to modify at so many different gyms. He told me to name a price and we could see what we could work out till the baby is born, which was super nice of him. However, I had kind of comes to term with just having to use LA Fitness and saving some money, so I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I would love to keep on doing CrossFit, even if just once a week, but I’m going to think about it this weekend and then make a decision because I can’t help but think of all the baby stuff we could buy with even $50!

Other than that, Wednesday was an errand running day. I worked out, went grocery shopping, and made corn tortillas with beans and cheese for dinner for Jon and me. I did some reading for school and we called it a night pretty early!

This is totally random, but Jon just got home from work a few minutes ago and the cats are going nuts because a bird is trapped on our porch. Cats do this little meow thing when they’re hunting so both cats are just sitting at the patio door doing this bird call. Jon just yelled at Tom and I was like, “Don’t yell at him! He’s just bird calling!” and he was like, “He’s barking.” I have no idea why I found it so funny, but he’s definitely not barking.

Yesterday I got out of bed around 11. I have been waking up a ton at night and then usually wake up for about 2 hours around 5:30 or 6, but I still feel so exhausted when I wake up! So my mornings have been super late mornings in bed. I relaxed in the morning and then went to the gym. Gina and I met for coffee around 3, where I planned on doing schoolwork but we really just talked the whole time. And then we had a book club meeting for a book that I didn’t even read (The 5th Wave- I couldn’t get into it because of the style it was written in- way too young sounding). It was still fun to see the book club girls though! Jon crashed as soon as I got home last night so I caught up on an episode of Teen Mom because I really wanted to elevate my legs before going to bed, even though I was super exhausted when I got home at 10pm. Old lady right here.

Today I need to cook up some veggies for work this weekend, finish laundry, pick up the house, go to the gym, and read as much as possible for school and get started on discussions cause I’ll be busy next week on Monday and Tuesday. Jon has a case downtown around 3pm, so I’m not sure when he’ll get home again tonight. But hopefully we can hang out for a bit this evening, even though it’ll probably just be at home since we’re on that baby budget.

Jon is moving our guest bed to my parent’s house this weekend so Jackson’s room will FINALLY be getting started! We really need to empty out the bookshelf and organize the closet so we have some room to put all of our stuff! I can’t believe my baby shower is next weekend! We’ve already received gifts from two people in the mail and I just feel so humbled that people actually buy us gifts for our baby! I know this is what happens, but still, the fact that people even think about our baby or want to buy gifts for us just sort of makes me speechless. I don’t even know how to describe it! I feel really weird about receiving gifts in general because I feel like as adults, we should just buy the things we want/need, so next weekend is going to be a struggle accepting gifts at a baby shower and being the center of attention. Jon doesn’t even buy me gifts! I would rather just have an experience with people than get an object. (Fun fact if you don’t remember: I never even had a bridal shower because it’s just not my things. We asked for “honeymoon donations” on our wedding website for those that wanted to get anything for us.)

Okay, time to go cuddle up with Jon for a few minutes before he leaves again and then I need to start being productive…

I’m just going to make a quick list since I’m lacking motivation to formulate any sort of blog post that makes sense or flows.

1. I’m tired. Very very tired. I’m really hoping that I start nesting soon and that I’m not one of those people that magically skips the nesting phase. There seems to be so much to do before this baby comes, but with work and school, I just feel so insanely exhausted. The couch seems much more appealing than doing anything productive.
2. Jon really wants me to quit working two jobs now. He’s never pushy because I think he knows it’s pointless and that I pretty much do what I want, but he has expressed some dislike for how much I’m still working. (I did work more in the last two weeks, but I will only be working 8 12 hour shifts a month till Jackson is born.) I told him I was going to pick up a few extra hours at work (probably just 4 hours at a time!) and he was kind of irritated. Most people work full time till their babies are born (bless those nurses working three 12s until they’re 40 weeks pregnant!!!), but I think he can just tell that 12-13 hours on my feet in one day is taking its toll. I’m going to see how these next two work weekends go, but I may end up needing to figure out how to get out of my last work weekend on Feb 20 & 21. At 38 weeks, I may not make that!
3. My legs are like stuffed sausages with numb toes. The edema (swelling) is real. And it’s no joke. I forgot my compression sleeves when I went to work yesterday and about had a meltdown. Jon actually surprised me at work in the middle of the day with them, so I got to put them on for about 7 hours and they made such a big difference in how my legs were feeling, but they were still huge when I got off work.
4. School started and I already hate it. All I’ve done is post my introductions but looking at the assignments just made me feel overwhelmed. I’m overwhelmed knowing I need to still prepare 100% for a baby and work enough hours to get some money back in the bank (so we don’t start diving into savings before I even go on “maternity leave”), and then the second half of the semester I will probably be distracted by lack of sleep and a new baby. It’s only four months out of a lifetime though. I can do it.
5. I cancelled ClassPass officially. I thought about keeping it, but that extra money right now convinced me. I didn’t work out Monday because my legs were hurting so much from working all weekend. I need to go today, but now I’m so exhausted that I don’t feel like it. I really hope to make it. Eight weeks left in this pregnancy and I really don’t want to get out of shape this early. It’s just getting harder and harder to keep working out, and I really just want to go to CrossFit but financially, I think the best decision is to stay in shape at LA Fitness for right now. Even if I only make it twice a week, I’m going to be happy with that right now and stop feeling guilty for not working out like I want to.
6. I had an OB appointment today. I’m sort of sad that I only have a few appointments left with my OB and then I’ll see random doctors since my OB is all booked up for my weekly visits from 36-40 weeks. I love my OB (she also did a surgery on my lady parts in the past and I have been seeing her since- I think she’s absolutely fantastic) and I’m really hoping she’ll be able to deliver Jackson, but I doubt it. They have too many people on call at that office so the chances are slim! But anyway, I asked her how Jackson is laying in there and he’s head down, laying on his side with his feet to my left side and his butt since to the right of my belly button. It totally makes sense now. So it’s always his little arms that I see swooping across my belly and it’s probably his elbows that always stick out right at my belly button. I always assumed that, but wasn’t sure where his head was. Glad he’s already in position!
7. Speaking of babies, I can’t stop looking at cloth diapers. I want to buy all of them. I even dream about diapers. Like, regularly. I want these Workhorse diapers so bad for the newborn phase, but I was trying to keep that phase super cheap and fold my own diapers. But these look way easier! I’d still need to buy covers, which I’m buying anyway, but prefolds alone are only $12 for 12 diapers.
8. I need to go see if my beef is still good enough to make chili, go to Whole Foods, and go to the gym. And then try and get some school stuff done. But I don’t even want to make chili. I just don’t want to waste a pound of expensive beef (but it may have already gone bad). I still just want nothing to do with eating meat. I did start drinking my Orgain protein in the mornings. I was just starving all morning long so I knew I needed something, and with not eating meat for protein too, I figured why not? I’m not typically big on protein at all, as you all know if you’ve been reading my blog for awhile, but there was no filling me up! I was seriously eating almost my entire lunch by 11am at work. So I pulled out my ol’ jug of protein that’s been sitting in there for months on end and have been mixing it with my whole Grassmilk and for some reason, it just tastes so insanely good now. It must be a pregnancy thing, but the chalkiness of it is seriously delicious and I’m always super sad when it’s all gone. And now I can make it till about 10am before I start wanting a snack, which is back to normal for me (I eat breakfast on work days at 6:10).

What a long, random, boring post. Bye Felicia.

Hey-o 🙂 This week flew by! Maybe it’s because I’m in the last two months of pregnancy and told myself that this time would go way too fast! And it is!

Wednesday night, Laura and I went to find some mini pine trees with burlap sack bases for my Lumberjack themed baby shower! We ended up going to Hobby Lobby and I was in love! I have no idea why, but I always thought Hobby Lobby was a ghetto version of Michael’s! I was so wrong! I loved everything in that store and all I want to do now is decorate Jackson’s room, but I’m not going to because the cost of that stuff is insane! We did find everything Christmas for 80% off at Michael’s, so I got four of those trees that I wanted for less than $12!

I barely slept at all on Wednesday night. Jon was out of town and the cats were annoying and I was uncomfortable. So Thursday morning was rough getting up to go to work! Thankfully it was only an 8 hour day! I had big plans of going to the gym after and then getting together with Crista, but Crista had to cancel and the gym definitely wasn’t happening. Jon gave me a cold so I’ve been even more exhausted than usual, so I came home and crashed on the couch for awhile. Then I spent my evening watching TV and coloring in my coloring book before falling asleep.

I woke up at 5am today and couldn’t fall back to sleep. Everything in my belly just feels off. My muscles feel weird. My ligaments feel tight. I feel like I might be having Braxton Hicks contractions occasionally too. And Jackson has been getting hiccups and for some reason, every hiccup was so uncomfortable the other night. And my back has started hurting again and my feet also hurt just a few hours into work these days. But anyway, enough complaining. So I just felt kind of miserable this morning and laid in bed till 6:50. At that point, I told myself if I couldn’t fall asleep by 7, I had to get up and start my day. Apparently that (and laying on my stomach) was all I needed to go back to sleep!

9am rolled around and I dragged myself out of bed so I could go drop my car off near my parent’s house to get an oil change and new brake pads. My dad picked me up and took me to their house. I was going to watch TV, but the TV wasn’t turning on so I took that as a sign to nap instead.

I woke up at 11:46 and realized I had set my alarm for 11:30pm! Woops! So I threw on some shoes and went to my super old CrossFit gym! It’s the one I went to when Jon and I were broken up for that year, where I really lifted heavy and got way into the whole gym thing. I haven’t gone there in so long due to some odd situational stuff that happened shortly before I ended up moving, but it was so good to see the owners there and work out with some of the same people I used to work out with three years ago there! Thankfully, the WOD wasn’t super insane! I did do 75# thrusters which felt insanely heavy going overhead. Sad, considering all my WODs used to be Rx’d usually with 85# going overhead tons in WODs. But, whatever. I’m pregnant and don’t ever lift heavy.

After the gym, I went to eat lunch with my dad! I definitely carb loaded and had grilled cheese, sweet potato casserole, and mac n’ cheese. I LOVE  the barbecue chicken there, but for some reason, I’m still really not feeling meat at all and actually felt kind of nauseated (probably from the cold- I tend to get kind of nauseated with colds) so eating barbecue chicken just sounded unappealing. And I’ve actually heard that at the end of pregnancy, your appetite changes completely again, so maybe I’m just in that phase now too.

My car was finished after that, so I picked that up ($175 for that- $78 of which was labor for brakes! I totally should have had Jon put the brakes on my car!) and went to Whole Foods. I really hate trying to feed myself for a workday now. Honestly, all I want to eat is yogurt, pineapple, oranges, apples, and hash brown soup. And more yogurt. I eat way too much yogurt now.

I’m home now. I need to clean up since we have a guest staying with us for 5 days starting tomorrow. I’m actually excited to have her stay, but I have a problem with anybody seeing our house messy. Right now, I don’t care too much that the room she’s staying in is a mess, because we’re obviously transitioning it to a baby’s room so that’s understandable. But the rest of the house is a mess because I’m sick now and pregnant always and lazy as can be. And I DON’T want to clean it. I also don’t want to cook anything to take with me to work tomorrow. I really just want to sit on the couch and take another nap.

This is a really inopportune time to get sick. I was just scheduled for a work class on Monday morning, so I now work 12 hours tomorrow, Sunday, Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday, and Sunday next week, plus I have a work class on Monday from 8-12 and an OB appointment at 9:30 on Wednesday. And I can’t sleep for shit. So, having to work 60 hours in the next week is really looking super exhausting right now and I can’t even sleep in until NEXT FRIDAY! Plus grad school starts again on Monday, so I’ll be trying to get back into the swing of things there and I’ll have schoolwork to do, which is usually fairly time consuming. Ugh. I also want to try and make it to the gym on my three days off next week because I really can’t get out of the habit of going now! And I’m 32 weeks pregnant 😦

Maybe I just needed to write today’s blog so I could complain. I mean, life is good and this pregnancy is still going really well overall and I still love all of Jackson’s tumbles, but I think I’m just feeling really overly exhausted and discouraged about how many hours I have to work this coming week. And my lower abdomen has been hurting a ton since I left the gym in one spot and I keep getting sharp pains, so that’s no fun… Oh wait! I actually just looked at my schedule and I’m only on call Thursday morning from 7a-11a! We have Book Club that night but if I’m really THAT tired, I’ll skip that. I feel better now. I’m still tired, but I feel about 10% less stressed! And the good part is that this is really my last rough week before my hours drop back down. I didn’t put in for ANY extra in February at all (although I may pick up some hours because we really need the money before my “maternity leave”) so I will be doing my best to take it easy. I also just realized that Jon and I only have three weekends off together before Jackson is born (although, one of those is my baby shower weekends so my sisters will be here for most of it).

This is getting long. Too much procrastinating. Jon just got on an early flight home from New York so I should probably go get stuff done so that we can relax (/fall asleep) when he gets home around 8 tonight!

Well guys, the holidays are over! I’m sort of glad. Although this means grad school starts back next week (which I am totally not looking forward to!), I’m just over the craziness that came with December! It was not nearly as relaxing as I had imagined! And at over 31 weeks pregnant now, I am really feeling the need to have some relaxing!

It has been a week now since I’ve been to the gym. With working the holidays and going on a cabin trip with Gina and Kassie, I didn’t even try. And this past weekend, well, I just wanted some time with Jon without even worrying about the gym. The last few times I’ve gone, it has been so physically exhausting that it basically ruins the rest of my day because all I have the energy for is sitting on the couch and I was a little worried that would happen and our weekend would be shot!

Saturday morning was finally Christmas with my parents! My brother went over on the actual holiday, so it was just Jon and I for brunch over there. Brunch is my favorite meal and I happen to have an insatiable appetite in the mornings these days, so brunch was perfect! After eating, my mom asked if we wanted to go look at a model home to get ideas for redoing their bathroom. I seriously love looking at houses, so of course, we were up for it! The model home was in a new subdivision so they had a ton of houses to walk through and they were all amazing! The layouts were literally exactly what Jon and I have been looking for and they were just so perfect! And they were at least $350,000, so there’s that too. But they were gorgeous and I WANT!

After our house adventures and a quick game of Scrabble (I WON! And my dad played “clit” and “sexy”- too much for a 67 year old man, haha), Jon and I headed out since we had plans of meeting up with Crista and Billy!

We headed downtown to Joystick around 6:30. I had no idea what it was, but it was a gaming type bar with all sorts of board games and arcade games. I’ve been out of the whole bar scene since long before getting pregnant, so it wasn’t necessarily my type of place. Not to mention the fact that people really do stare at pregnant women in a bar. We grabbed some pizza afterwards and then it was almost 10pm, so Jon and I headed out for the night while they went on to the next place! Jon passed out as soon as we got home, so it was a pretty early night for us!

Sunday morning was a total disaster. My pregnancy hormones are back in full swing again, which the babycenter website warned me about! (Babycenter has been right on with all of my symptoms of pregnancy, oddly enough.) So we had a very rough couple of hours where I had a meltdown over not being able to communicate and I threw a hissy fit and cried all morning long and laid in bed. It’s pretty impressive that Jon still loves me, even when I act that ridiculous. About five hours later (for reals), I decided to get it together and we went and ran some errands and rented Southpaw since my mom got us a Blu-ray player for Christmas. Ours stopped working a long time ago and we just never replaced it, but we used to love Redbox nights so it was fun to do that again! I actually spent the entire movie coloring in my adult coloring book and then we laid in bed with candles and talked to each other and felt Jackson go crazy in my belly.

Speaking of Jackson, I am definitely getting way more excited about meeting him. The change in lifestyle thing is still not looking very fun to me, but I am starting to really look forward to having him lay on us while we’re watching a movie or laying in bed with us (we are not co-sleeping because Tom would probably suffocate him- so he will be in his crib in his own room). I can’t wait to see what he looks like and watching all his little movements that he’s been doing in my belly! I know they say babies sleep about 20 hours a day in utero, but this baby is nonstop and I love it. However, I am definitely more emotional. I even cried at watching a cartoon baby being born on the babycenter website last night cause we’re getting so close to our own baby being born! I also cried at the Christmas Shoes song on my way to work the other morning. I am rarely ever completely comfortable anymore and sleeping is becoming a real challenge some nights, but it’s still not too bad! I just can’t believe that we’re technically in the 8 week countdown now (8 weeks, 5 days till the due date!).

Anyway, I better be off to get stuff done for the day! I stayed in bed till 10:30 even though I had wanted to get up early. I plan on just going to LA Fitness since I don’t have the energy or the motivation for ClassPass at some point today, but I need to run out and get groceries and work on cleaning up this house a little bit more. It’s super sunny out and I feel like I should be outside, so I considered going to a coffee shop but eh, we’ll see.  Honestly, I feel like the workout will be the first to go. I need to get my motivation back to work out but it’s hard to gather any motivation when I’ve felt so depleted of energy after even the easiest, shortest workouts lately! But I have almost 9 weeks to go so it’s too early to quit!