A Little Cabin In the Woods.

Happy Wednesday night! It’s been a good few days but I think I’m reaching a total meltdown phase. I don’t really know how to word that. I thought December would be so relaxing since school is out for the semester, but we really just packed the month full and I feel like I’ve been ruin ragged, despite a lot of our travels having a lot of down time. But after getting in super late Saturday night, working Sunday till 11pm, and leaving early Monday for the cabin, I need a break. I have periods of extreme fatigue. Sunday morning was horrible for this. I went to LA Fitness to get in a quick 30 minutes workout and left feeling completely defeated and terrible. I didn’t want to do anything other than lay on my couch and not move for the rest of the afternoon. I felt drained going into work and was tired all day, but made it through. Thankfully, the day wasn’t too insane aside from one sick baby that I transferred to Children’s Hospital.

Anyway, so Monday morning, Kassie and Gina came over at 10:45 for our cabin adventure! Laura was supposed to come too but had come down with something so she had to cancel. The three of us girls went to try on bridesmaids dresses for Gina’s wedding which was totally ridiculous! I need to upload my camera photos for sure! I had no idea how large a pregnant belly really is! Most of the dresses were a size 16 and we weren’t even able to zip them over my belly (I wear a size 0 or 00). It was pretty entertaining! Luckily, we got an idea of what sort of dress we want and then found them online, so we’re going to order them and hopefully that’ll fit me! (Gina’s wedding is mid-June, so hopefully I’ll be mostly back to normal other than some big ol’ boobies from breastfeeding).

We headed up to the cabin afterwards. We made a quick lunch stop in Dahlonega to get sandwiches and some coffee and then spent the entire afternoon lazing around at the cabin.


Kassie brought stuff for a quinoa and turkey chili, so we didn’t have to go anywhere. I was pretty thankful for that because it was drizzly and gloomy all afternoon! We played some games that night, did lots of chatting, and Gina and Kassie finally got to watch Jackson’s nightly activity time! I always sit and watch my belly at home because it’s really one of my favorite things ever to watch Jackson move in there, but Jon is just never as impressed as I am! It was so fun having them be as into it as I am!


They were loving every moment of it! And they finally got over the fear of pushing him around in there and trying to get him to move back! I always tell people that he’s surrounded by fluid, but most people barely even want to apply pressure to my belly!

We woke up Tuesday morning and went to breakfast together! I enjoyed some French toast, eggs, bacon, and hash browns! No holding back! It was a beautiful day out (70s and sunny) so we went for a walk at a park with a little river running through it. Then we grabbed some groceries, dropped them off at the cabin, and went to a coffee shop to work on some baby shower and wedding stuff. Unfortunately, Kassie’s computer started downloading updates as soon as we started, but we managed to entertain ourselves by talking to each other! We also went in search of this sign that Jon and I saw the last time we were at the cabin but he refused to take a picture of me with it!


We had another lazy cabin night with games and girl talk! I loved every little bit of it! We haven’t had sleepovers with each other in so long! I guess those are the things that just sort of fade away as you get older and have husbands to go home to, but it was definitely fun to stay up late (well, till midnight) talking and then have them there for porch and coffee time in the mornings!

This morning we all slept in till around 9:30 and then made breakfast at the cabin before cleaning up and heading home! I was definitely getting tired by the time I got home around 1:30 so I guess it’s a good thing our cabin weekend wasn’t too long!

I had to run to Whole Foods when I got home and clean up some of the mess we have going on here. With being away so much, the house is turning into a disaster! I still have tons to pick up but no energy! Wah! I considered going to the gym for about 1/2 a second but decided against it. I’m at a point where the gym wears me out for hours afterwards and knew I didn’t need that today. Instead I did a bunch of cooking for work and preparing some ham, mushrooms, tomatoes, and onions for omelets. After I finished that, I had another period of really extreme fatigue so Jon cooked us up some beef for taco salad for dinner. Once I started eating, I just felt really off… So I ate a few bites of that and then went for the hash brown soup that I was making since it seemed like it’d sit better! We watched an episode of Making a Murderer and then Jon had to run to Andrew’s to let his dog out (he lives like 30 minutes away so it’s not exactly a quick task) and I’m about to clean up so we can watch one more episode when Jon gets home and then I think I’m going to try to get some extra sleep to prepare for two days of work over New Years!

I’ll be back sometime this weekend or Monday! Jon and I are both off and HOME this weekend for the first time in forever! (I had two weekends off in December but we were in Tahoe and then in Florida.) I think the last time we were off together at home was back in late October or early November! We’re having Christmas brunch at my mom and dad’s house on Saturday morning and then the whole weekend is ours! Can’t wait! I’m thinking we’ll be hitting up some coffee shops together and doing some relaxing!



Christmas Updates!

Merry late Christmas everybody! This is going to be quick because I want to head out the door to the gym and run to Whole Foods before working from 3-11 today. I also really want to nap again before work! I’ve entered the stage of bad sleep this past week so I’m feeling it today! I finally came to the couch around 3:30 last night and got a few hours at least. The bed just isn’t cutting it anymore!

Jon and I had a great time in Florida these past few days! We ended up leaving on Wednesday evening and getting in pretty late that night. Thursday was spent relaxing around the house with his sisters that stopped by and visiting with Adam and Jessie! Christmas day is always a good day over there with all of his family! It’s always quite the gathering, as he’s one of five and all are married with kids! We didn’t get any pictures this year! I would have grabbed one with the tree like we have the last few years, but my mother-in-law decided against putting up a tree this year.


Our brother-in-law made the best cinnamon rolls EVER that morning and they were seriously the best cinnamon rolls I’ve ever had. So good! Although, my cinnamon roll never really digested so I spent the day kind of full and yucky feeling. That night, Jon and I worked on a puzzle with his mom and dad for awhile. I totally forgot how much I like puzzles and I wish we could set one up at home, but we just don’t have a space in our house where we could keep a puzzle out! Maybe I’ll set one up at my parent’s house for when we go to Sunday dinners!

Yesterday we planned on getting biscuits and going out to the beach, but we never made it to the beach!


We did definitely get our biscuits from Maple Street Biscuit Co because they’re the best biscuits ever! I really wish Atlanta would open one! I’ve never tried their coffee before either and their maple vanilla latte was so delicious! If you ever visit Chattanooga, Jacksonville, Tallahassee, or Gainesville- you must go to this place!

We ended up visiting with Jessica and Ryan (Jon’s oldest sister and brother-in-law) for a few hours afterwards. We rarely get a chance to just sit and chat with them for long periods of time, but both of us really enjoyed it. We talked about cloth diapering, labor, delivery, being a new parent, and all other kinds of random stuff. I was enjoying chatting with them so much that we just kind of skipped the beach, even though I love going to the beach!

We met up with Rebecca and family (another sister) for a super quick maternity photo shoot at the park where Jon and I got engaged.


I love that park! The views of Jacksonville are awesome there! The shoot was quick and Jon and I left by 5pm for our long drive home! I haven’t seen any photos, but whenever Rebecca is finished editing them, I’ll be sure to post a few! I’m hoping there are a few good ones since my hair was blowing all over the place!

While in Florida this weekend, I found out one of my best friends from high school is 13 weeks pregnant! She lives a little farther out of the city and I don’t see hear nearly as much these days, but I’m so excited that somebody else is pregnant with me! It’s kind of lonely being the first one pregnant. Even though my friends are super excited about having a baby around, I don’t know that it’s something you understand until you have one of your own (I’m assuming- I don’t even understand parenthood yet!). Rachel (my pregnant friend) and I texted a ton last night while Jon and I were headed back and I am just so excited about her baby girl! (WHY DOES EVERYBODY ELSE GET A GIRL?!?!?! I’m kidding. Kind of. I’m excited about Jackson.)

Tomorrow I’m off to my parent’s cabin with Kassie, Gina, and Laura for a girls’ trip! We’re staying for two nights and then I come back to work New Years Eve and New Years Day. So, I probably won’t have many updates in the next few days!



Quick Monday Updates

Happy Monday! It’s a bit late for my usual Monday post. Not much happening around these parts lately. What I was hoping would be a productive, calm December has ended up being a little crazy. Definitely not too productive, either. I still haven’t even ordered books or paid tuition for spring semester! Woops!

Friday was spent being lazy and cleaning the house. Thankfully, I did get all the floors and bathrooms done and am really hoping that I only have to get down on my hands and knees to do the floors one more time before Jackson is born! It wasn’t really comfortable, but I’m one of those people that feels like that’s the only way to really get things clean…

Saturday and Sunday were workdays in PCU. Very easy days and I loved one of my patients! (I had the same patients both days.) Although I hate working every third weekend, the weekend shifts are just so easy at that job. I also really like my weekend crew and am a bit sad because I don’t know if I can return to that job when the baby is born. My ER job is just way more flexible and maintaining two jobs, grad school, and a brand new baby may not be as doable as I was hoping. I’m going to see what I can work out there, but that job may have to go.

Jon and I cuddled up to watch some murder show on Netflix and he rubbed my feet! I also spent the whole time breathing heavy because laying down is just not as easy these days. Nothing is really as easy these days. I feel so short of breath just laying on the couch or I get back pain or my arms fall asleep since I sleep on my sides every night. 11 more weeks. Not that I’m in a hurry cause I’m not. But 11 weeks till I can breathe again and hopefully until my stomach pain is finally gone!

This morning I had planned on working out at 10am, but I ended up staying in bed and cuddling with Jon. He had a flight today so it was nice to relax with him before I had to go. I was meeting Brianna for brunch at 11:30, so I got up to shower and get ready around 10.

Brianna and I met up downtown for brunch for almost two hours! I haven’t seen Brianna in so long! We’ve actually been friends since high school, but her (now) fiancé was my real estate agent when I bought this condo and we had some issues which put a wedge between us for a bit. In the last 2 1/2 years, I’ve only seen her once for my bachelorette party, so this was our first actual chat. It was so good to catch up and we discussed the condo situation and it’s not a big deal at all. I’m glad it’s all worked out now since we had spent a ton of time together during the year that Jon and I were broken up and I had really missed seeing her!

After that, I went to Whole Foods to grab some eggs. I was going to drop them off and go to the gym, but I lost my motivation. Traffic was just insane this afternoon! I’m assuming it was holiday traffic, but ugh! Awful! I was so irritated and honestly didn’t even want to leave my house after dealing with it!

Instead, I started reading about cloth diapers! I received my first box of cloth diapers from Amazon today and am finally starting to get excited about it. I’ve known all along that we’d be cloth diapering since it’s way more cost effective for multiples (as in, this is our first baby and there will be more to come) and I’m kind of a tree hugger and don’t like how much waste is produced by disposable diapers! But it is so overwhelming to read about! I have a small stash of 10, although I need to get everything for newborns too. I had actually planned on not cloth diapering during the newborn stage, but I’m going to go with prefolds and covers since it’s the most cost effective way. It’ll be under $100 for the entire diapering process for the newborn and I’m assuming we’ll ended up spending about $250 for the other diapers, based on what I spent for the diapers we received today. Not bad for an entire stash that we’ll be able to reuse with baby #2 down the road!

And that was literally my entire Monday! I need to get the invites for my baby shower tonight from Laura and am still considering the gym just for a quick and easy workout (about all I do these days but at least I’m staying in the habit of working out!). I work tomorrow and then Wednesday is my 29 week baby appointment and then our Christmas celebration starts! Unfortunately, we still have to buy ALL of our gifts, but since we went to Tahoe and Jon unexpectedly went out of town on business and I had to work all weekend, we’re a bit behind!

Once our Christmas shopping is done, we’re on a strict budget. For reals. I texted Jon today and told him that our fun is over! Our Tahoe trip is done and it’s time to buckle down. Since our income is about to drastically change (I’m not counting on Jon’s commission and even when that does happen, I hope it’ll go towards a downpayment on a bigger house!), we need to get used to living the cheap life.

Time to go do something… Just not sure what!



Weekly Updates & Flywheel Review

Well hello everybody! My posts are getting a little more sporadic these days, but I’m fine with that. I’m either busy or don’t feel like blogging on my days off work!

Tom is having serious depression right now because I won’t let him cuddle in my arms like I usually do. He’s just laying his head on my arm (while laying next to me, not in front of me), making depressed eyes at me. What a sad cat.

In other fun and exciting news (not), I had planned on having a productive day of cleaning my house. I have been meaning to do my floors all week now but keep getting busy, and then when I got home from the gym today, my water was off! Apparently I missed that email yesterday so I had no clue… And now all my motivation to clean the floors and bathrooms has gone out the window. This lack of motivation is probably made worse by the fact that my belly is so large and it’s not really comfortable to be down on my hands and knees scrubbing floors… Also, my breakfast dishes are all piled up and once things pile up, I just get overwhelmed by mess and want nothing to do with it.

I tried Flywheel for my first time this week. I was supposed to sign up with Laura on ClassPass, but then I filled the last slot and it was within 12 hours of the class so I couldn’t cancel! I hated every minute of it. First of all, I arrived just on time since I hit so much traffic getting there. Then they wanted me to fill out this whole thing on the computer but the internet crashed while I was doing it so it didn’t even save. Then they took me in to the class that had just started and the lights were all off! I had no idea Flywheel was in the dark! The guy couldn’t clip my shoes into the pedals so I sat there awkwardly for a few minutes while he went to get a flashlight and then he had me switch bikes and finally it worked. Everything from there was even more downhill. The room was so crowded and dark and I was in the very back corner, so I actually got really anxious and claustrophobic for a few minutes until I was able to talk myself out of it. Then I had no idea what the lady was talking about since nothing was ever explained to me, but I figured out how to adjust the torque eventually. My crotch hurt so freaking bad the entire time and every time I pedaled, I felt like I was squashing Jackson in my belly and just had so much pressure in my pelvis. So, not fun… I was thisclose to getting up and leaving but I suffered through it. I was so glad that the class was 45 minutes long and not an hour! But I can pretty much guarantee that my Flywheel days are already over!

Laura took a sick day on Wednesday (my Flywheel day), so we went down to Atlanta and had coffee together and then headed over to Gina’s when she got off work. We made a gingerbread village and just hung out.


I had to work in the ER yesterday. My morning was pretty easy and then I precepted the last 8 hours of the day. It was supposed to be the girl’s last day in orientation (she extended it) so she was self sufficient. I basically just helped everybody out and had a fairly easy afternoon.

I got up this morning and went to MissFits. I’ve been really missing my CrossFit classes at my favorite gym, but they offer early morning or noon classes only. I was supposed to have a coffee date with my friend that never worked out, so I’m a little bummed that I skipped that CF class (and the WOD was good too) for no reason. But MissFits was alright. I’m getting a ton of PVCs now when I work out, so I’ve been having to take a lot of breaks because it throws me off. (My PCP was very concerned about this, but I ended up googling it and it said that it’s common in pregnancy with strenuous exercise, so we’ll see what my OB says about it next week.) My hip was also hurting a ton from my old hip injury, so I majorly scaled the workout… I can’t wait till I can work out like normal again! It’s getting progressively harder to work out these days.

I’ve also gained a ton of weight since my last OB visit. By a ton, I mean 6lbs, but that’s 6lbs in 3 weeks. So, a lot. Especially since she just warned me to watch what I eat. And I may not have done that. By “may not have,” I mean I ate 10 Christmas cookies on Wednesday… And four (very small!) slices of pizza yesterday… And four sugar cookies today… I did eat a lot of healthy stuff in there too, but the sugar is getting insane. I need to cut it out for real. Not even because of my weight gain, but because it’s just disgusting to eat that much sugar, especially while I’m trying to grow a healthy baby! But I feel like my belly has popped a lot in the last two weeks and even everybody at work has been commenting on it. It’s kinda crazy.

Jon comes home tonight after being out of town all week long! He was at training for work and heads out for a night next week too. I’m pretty excited for him to get home! He also got a promotion this past week and is going to be on a commission plan starting in January, so I’m super excited. His commission alone is my entire salary for a year (now that I’ve dropped my hours down), although he may not actually get all of that. Good timing though, with this baby coming and so many bills! However, while it sort of feels like we should finally be able to put money away to move into a bigger house, I also know that my hours are going to take a huge hit when I deliver Jackson, so it’s not like our income will really change a whole lot overall. Still, I’m super proud of him and am so excited that he’s doing so well with this company!

I’m going to go relax on the couch for a bit before our water comes back on and I have to be productive. I need to cook for the upcoming work weekend too 😦 SO tired of working all the dang time on weekends! Uuugh!

Pre-Baby Ambivalence

As I mentioned in my last blog post, I had some abdominal pain while in Lake Tahoe. I was definitely worried about Jackson and times like that really open my eyes to how devastating it would be to have anything happen to him and how protective I already feel over him.

However, I am still so ambivalent towards having a baby at home! Some days I can see myself having him here with us and other days there is nothing I want less than to bring a baby home! (Maybe that’s extreme- I still would not want anything to happen to him!)

I’m not sure if all moms-to-be feel this way or if just moms who didn’t really ever want kids feel this way or if I’m like, the only mom in the entire world to feel this way. I sort of feel like the only mom in the entire world to feel this way. I’ve briefly mentioned feeling like this to my coworkers who have kids and while some of the women do say that having a newborn is hard and that it took them awhile to really fall in love with their child, most of them just say, “Wait till you hold that baby! You’ll just fall in love in a way that you never have before!”

I have to be honest here. That is the line I have come to hate the most. Without a doubt. I think it really sets new moms up for failure. I do think that the majority of new moms genuinely do feel that way- like they are just so overcome with love when they hold their new baby. But there are moms who aren’t. (Clearly I can’t speak from experience, but I have heard.) Some moms take months to fall in love with their babies or to feel connected to them. While they may feel something indescribable when they hold their baby for the first time, I don’t know that women should set this expectation that it’ll be this amazing love that you suddenly can’t imagine living without. I sort of feel like I’m going to hold Jackson for the first time and be overcome with emotions but have no clue what those emotions mean. I won’t know if I love him or if I am terrified or if I want to just go home to mine and Jon’s pre-baby life and leave him at the hospital! And that’s totally okay. I think it’s okay that some moms take months to feel like they love their child and I think that by feeding people this line about how they will just fall immediately in love is just dangerous. Many moms suffer from postpartum depression and I’ve already said that is a huge fear of mine! Your hormones are all over the place after having a baby! I wish moms would tell me, “You know what! You may hate your new life. You might even hate your baby. You might wonder why the hell you ever thought having a baby was a good idea. And that’s okay. That doesn’t make you a bad mom. You’ll get there eventually, but it might take time.”

One of the pediatric nurses I work with (who has a 19 year old daughter) said to me the other day that when you’re tired and hormonal and your baby won’t stop crying, she totally understands why people shake their babies. I think that’s the most comforting thing for a mom to say (to me), because I imagine those times where you just want to go leave your baby in the woods far, far away at 3am when you haven’t sleep for 3 days happen. And I guarantee new moms feel that way. So completely and utterly overwhelmed and frustrated, and I’m sure it makes them feel like horrible mothers to be that frustrated with their children and with themselves. Instead of making them feel bad about it or like they’re abnormal for feeling that way, it seems safer to validate their feelings and acknowledge that those feelings happen and that one day, it will be okay… Just maybe not at 3am with your crying baby…

So, as I’m 12 weeks away from having a child for the rest of my life, I’m getting less and less exciting. I still enjoy being pregnant. I still love feeling Jackson kick and move around. But the whole thought of having a baby? It sounds so unappealing. I’m having a crisis and all I want to do is travel. I can’t imagine being married to a man who can’t clean up his freaking mess! How are we going to have a child together when my husband drives me freaking insane?! (And the other 50% of the time, I think he’s the best thing since sliced bread. I’m always a little crazy, so add pregnancy on top of it and I can’t decide if I think he’s the best husband ever or the most annoying husband in the world.) What if  get this baby home and hate it? What if Jon doesn’t even understand why I hate this baby and then he wants to divorce me? Would I be a bad parent thought if I just decided that I don’t even want to take care of him and just tell Jon to take Jackson and go make their own life and pretend I don’t even exist?! What if this baby is the biggest mistake of my life? What if I don’t ever get over wanting to go travel the world and feel trapped in this “mom-life?” More and more, I just want to cling to the life we have. I want to comfortably fit in our 1,100 square foot condo with two bedrooms, near Atlanta, that we can easily afford. I don’t want to decide if we should move to the suburbs or stay here until we can afford a bigger house in this area. I don’t want to give up my 10am and 12pm gym times. I don’t want my abs to separate. I don’t want to wake up and feed a baby. I don’t want to have to feed my kid from my boobs at all. I don’t even want to have to clean up poop and pee. I don’t want it to take me an extra hour to feed my baby and dress him before gathering up all his baby shit and running to the grocery store for two things. I just want this childless life to last way, way, waaay longer than 12 more weeks!

I wish when I said this to people, just one person would say, “I felt the same way. I went to deliver my baby and didn’t really want to take it home. I didn’t even want to take it home when I did have to leave. But it’s okay. And now, I wouldn’t change it for anything.” But instead, everybody says, “You’re going to hold the baby and forget all about it!” I hope that I do forget about all 29 of these awesome, childless years of my life in the split second that my baby pops out of my vagina, but I’m not buying it. I know how awesome my life is and how many trips I could afford to take if I wasn’t going to be lugging a baby around with me, and we all know that traveling is my real dream- not being a mother.

So guys, I’m just going to cling desperately to these last 12 weeks before Jackson is born. And I’m going to remember this post that I wrote so if another person ever says this to me and I forgot what it was like, I can remind myself. And maybe somebody else who is pregnant will read this and actually think, “Oh good, I’m not alone.” But hey, maybe I am alone. Maybe I am a terrible future mom for thinking this way. But ya know what? Whatever. This is how it really feels. If I’m going to talk about being pregnant and having a baby in my blog, then I’m going to be honest about it.

The Last of Lake Tahoe & Weekend Updates

After my last blog post, I went to the hotel gym for a pretty awesome workout. I was pretty impressed. Then, Jon and I went out to have our last breakfast in Lake Tahoe. Over the last month, I’ve had quite a bit of pain in my stomach region, mostly right under the left side of my rib cage. It seems uncomfortable a lot with certain positions, eating, and whatever else. It has been getting worse and I was commenting to Jon the other morning that even touching my skin over that area is tender.

Well, while we were eating, the pain there just kept getting worse and worse. It ended up getting pretty excruciating, so Jon and I headed back to the room. Once we got there, I ended up with a lot of left sided abdominal pain in general and lower right sided pain (which I get also on the lower right side- I think I have adhesions from having a hernia removed when I was a baby). It was pretty scary since we were nowhere near my OB and I had no idea if this was just related to a stomach issue or if something was going on with Jackson. I also wasn’t really thrilled about the idea of paying an entire deductible or even possibly hitting our out of pocket yearly max three weeks before the new year if we had to go to the hospital, especially since we’ll be paying it all again come March! After a ton of back and forth, I decided I’d try taking some Maalox to see if that helped and if it did, at least we knew it was just some acid irritating my stomach. And it definitely helped. (This portion of this blog will play into my next post…)

We made it out long enough in the afternoon to explore in the snow and play some more chess before cuddling up in bed for another movie.



The snow was beautiful and it made me want to stay even longer! Unfortunately, we had an early wake-up on Friday morning to head back to Reno for our flight home. Of course, I was a ball of nerves cause I absolutely hate flying and it was super overcast on our entire drive out to Reno. Taking off is the worst part of flying and if the weather is bad, I can’t stay calm no matter what because I know the take off is bound to be rough! I was pretty nervous for that entire flight, but thankfully it was only an hour. I did much better on the second (three hour) flight home. Because of the time change, we ended up getting home around 10:30pm!

Saturday was an 11a-7p workday, so I got up in time to go grocery shopping and head to work for a super easy day. That night Jon and I attended my ER Christmas party. Jon was dressed when I got home since I hit horrible traffic on my way home, and I casually mentioned as I was attempting to find a dress that fits my big ol’ belly that this was a Great Gatsby themed party. I didn’t care cause I was planning on wearing anything that fit, but he was like, “Seriously?! You didn’t tell me this was a themed party! I can’t wear this! I need to find a suit! I could have gotten a hat and a bow tie for this!” Men. We only stayed for maybe 1 1/2hrs since my heels were hurting my feet! Total mistake wearing them, but really, I’m not super into social work gatherings anyway so I was totally fine leaving.


I know that picture of us is super small, but I cropped it from a collage that a lady from work had posted on Facebook! I meant to have her text it to me when I saw her at work today, but then ended up being too busy to even think about it!

Yesterday morning was another 11a-7p day at work. Super easy day again! I was working with the kids all weekend, but even our adult side was tame! Love that on a weekend! When I got off work, I met Jon downtown at The Iberian Pig. I honestly probably wouldn’t have gone, but he had spent the day with his friends who were in from New York. We stayed with them when Jon and I drove through New York and I was such a butt during that whole trip. Not necessarily outwardly to his friends and I’m not even sure if they knew what a butt I was being, but I still feel like a jackass for how I acted. So there was no way I was going to skip a chance to meet up and redeem myself! I’m glad I went though because I did have a genuinely good time and it was nice to see them again too! Unfortunately, that restaurant is not cheap and it’s hard to leave under $100 and with so many expenses lately, I wasn’t thrilled about that. But alas, that’s life.

I picked up from 11a-3p today at work. I had planned on working out this morning, but I fell asleep at 2am and woke up at 6am and all I wanted to do was sleep! It never happened, so Jon and I hung out for a bit this morning before I headed into work. Today was an insane day at work but it was over within 4 hours and then I went to my mom and dad’s house to make Christmas cookies with the momma!


We used to be way more into it when we were little. I was surprised my mom even made shapes this year! No colored icing or anything crazy! My mom also made chocolate covered pretzels and peanut butter balls before I got there today, so we have tons of desserts at our house now! So much for eating less sugar. Woops.

And now, for the latest bump picture since we just took one this morning… I’m 28 weeks and 2 days today. (Also, Jon decided not to tell me what I went to work with my tag out and deodorant all over my work shirt. Like, ALL OVER it. What kind of husband is he?!) I gained 4lbs just this week and I definitely feel like this belly got bigger just in the last 1-2 weeks. It seemed huge today. Not sure what’s going on with it.


Lake Tahoe Vacation

Well well well… Lake Tahoe has been less than exciting since the last post I made! I was worried before coming here that we’d run out of stuff to do since it’s definitely a winter activity town, but we decided to come and have a relaxing trip anyway! And relaxing it has been!

Jon and I have both managed to stay on east coast time, so the latest we’ve stayed up is 9pm and our sleep hasn’t been great. It’s so incredibly dry here that we both wake up all night long blowing our noses and feeling uncomfortable in this bed. But I’ve still spent a ton of time in bed anyway. I eat breakfast and dinner in bed, lay in bed during the day, watch movies in bed every day… It’s kind of nice!

I am definitely looking forward to coming back here when I’m not pregnant and can comfortably hike! I’m sure the views are amazing! But with having to pee every 10 minutes and having the weight of a baby on my bladder, that just can’t happen this trip!

Since we don’t have a car anymore, we’ve gone exploring pretty minimally. We did walk out to the water yesterday and it was so insanely windy! There were also these huge metal things in the water blocking the pretty view.


We also rode the gondola up to the ski area the other day. I’m glad we decided to get it done that day because the gondola has been closed most of the days we’ve been here due to wind! Since I hate being in uncontrolled environments up high (like flying), I didn’t really enjoy the gondola ride. It was scary. But there was a platform overlooking Lake Tahoe that was beautiful!


Once we were up at the top, we just sat around watching skiers and snowboarders. There wasn’t much to do other than that! Jon wished he had gone skiing and obviously, I can’t ski anyway, so I didn’t really care. It was a nice few hours though!

We’ve also been playing a ton of chess. I hadn’t played in years!


Today is our last full day here! We woke up at 7am and ate breakfast in bed while watching Get Hard! Nice and relaxing! It’s snowing a ton right now and it’s starting to build up on the ground! I love it! I’m about to go work out (they’ve been super quick workouts here!), shower, and then Jon and I are going to go walk around in the snow! At lake level, we can have up to a foot of snow today and tonight, so we’re hoping we can get to the airport in the morning! Fingers crossed! Otherwise I’ll be calling out of work on Saturday, cause we already don’t land until after 9pm tomorrow!

Alright guys, have a great day! I better get my workout on cause Jon is nagging me, hah.

Lake Tahoe, Heavenly Village, & Virginia City

Hey-o from Lake Tahoe! Friday was a busy day preparing to leave! I had to work in the morning, went to CrossFit at noon, picked up some books at the library (which I have yet to even open one), and started getting ready for Lake Tahoe. I don’t remember what else happened, but something must have because I was up until 11:30 packing and it’s not even like it took me that long!

Saturday morning was a 4:15 wake up to finish packing and get ready before heading to the airport! For those of you that don’t know this, I am terrified of flying. I absolutely hate taking off and I prefer to take Ambien to make it through a flight, but Jon isn’t that comfortable with me taking it while I’m pregnant. Instead, I just had to suffer through two take offs in one day (also, since we live in Atlanta, I almost never have layovers and we seriously almost didn’t go to Tahoe because I was so terrified of having to take off twice in the same day). I cried almost as soon as we got on the plane and then while taking off the first time, but the rest of the flight was totally smooth and I managed to calm down (thankfully, since it was 4 hours!). Our second flight was totally fine but I was still nervous since flying over the mountains usually means a bumpier flight. It was all good though!

After we landed in Reno, we had to take a bus to Heavenly Village. The bus was late arriving and it was miserably hot. Like, everybody on the bus was stripping and the driver was in his jacket and hat. And I had to pee because I’m pregnant and always have to pee. I was getting so irritated after such a long and stressful travel morning (for me) and then I had to sweat my ass off on a bus when it was like, 30 degrees outside?! I don’t think I have ever been so happy to get off a bus in my entire life. (That’s actually not true. I once rode on a bus for almost three hours in the military and literally almost peed on myself because I had to go so bad.)

We checked in to our hotel, The Grand Residence Marriott, which is super duper nice. For some reason, when I read what the price was for the week, I felt like it was so cheap and such a deal. Then when Jon actually told me what it cost per night, I was like, “Oh, well no wonder this place is so nice.” I don’t understand how I never did the math in my head before we got here.

Jon was dying to watch a football game when we got here and I was exhausted, so I crashed while he watched football. Then we went out and walked around and had dinner at a sushi place (The Naked Fish). The sushi was so-so. I’m reminded every time we travel how good food in Atlanta is, so nothing ever really compares to our regular restaurants. They do make their own soy sauce there which was phenomenal though. For the price of the sushi though, meh. I could have passed. Jon thought his was good though.

After that, we came back to the room and Jon crashed at 7pm and I made it till 8 watching Forensic Files. And we slept all night long (although we woke up a ton) till Sunday morning!


Yesterday we had a date morning at The Ridge Tahoe Resort. You basically get $100 for going to talk to them about buying a timeshare there. The grounds were beautiful and we were almost sold on buying a timeshare, but with a baby coming, we decided the timing was off. We did end up buying a 4 night, 5 day trip back sometime within the next year though, so I think we’ll be heading out next September to come back to Tahoe. It also freezes our offer on the timeshare, so we’re going to look into it some more and think about it. Also, when we had back next year, we plan on hitting up Yosemite since it’s only 2 1/2 hours from South Lake Tahoe and the weather will be much nicer!


The view from The Ridge Tahoe.

That basically ate up our morning. Once we got back down to Heavenly Village, we went to get some groceries and then walked over a mile to get coffee. Then we decided not to get coffee there since it ended up being in a smokey casino and we went to Starbuck’s and sat outside. It was another early night in, which I’m kind of loving. Jon had pizza and I ate a ton of cream cheese and crackers (Way Better crackers- OMG- I have to find them in Atlanta), salad, and yogurt. We watched Forensic Files together again (I love having Forensic Files marathons while I’m vacationing! Jon’s not a big fan) and I passed out at 8pm.


Fountain and gondolas at Heavenly Village.

Today we woke up at 7am and I hit the gym for 20 minutes. Literally. It was sort of pathetic. But at the same time, my stomach has been cramping up so much lately on the lower right side, so the elliptical made me cramp up and then I did a super quick but intense arm workout. I wanted to get back to the room to shower and get ready though and I just barely made my timeline!

Jon and I headed out to rent a car for the day. We wanted to drive around Lake Tahoe since we heard it was so awesome. It was really pretty but so much is closed at this time of the year! Honestly though, I was totally unmotivated to do any hiking or cool sightseeing today anyway. Jackson has been sitting on my bladder all day long, causing me to have to pee nonstop and it’s just so ridiculously uncomfortable to have all of that weight so low in my pelvis. I also tend to have a ton of discomfort right in my stomach area for some reason, and today was no exception and probably worse than usual. I was actually kind of grumpy for a lot of the day because of all these pregnancy related complaints. My bad.


The view near Heavenly Village of Lake Tahoe. Frozen beach!


The above two photos are Emerald Bay.

We did have a fantastic breakfast sandwich and breakfast burrito at The Dam Cafe in Tahoe City. That thing was loaded with crispy bacon and I loved it.


After our lake viewing was done, we headed to Carson City for my Dutch Bros coffee! I got a large decaf kicker and was in absolute heaven. Dutch Bros is like, the number one thing I miss about living in Portland! I’m hoping we can get it again while we’re here but without our own car, it makes things difficult! Coffee in hand, we headed to Virginia City.

Virginia City was cute, but again, a ton of stuff was closed. We walked around a bit and Jon had some drinks at Bucket of Blood Saloon. The saloon was cute, but not much happening. Also, I came in and went right to the restroom, and when I sat down next to Jon at the bar, the bartender never asked if I wanted anything. I felt like it was pretty poor service since there was only one table of people in the entire place and then Jon and me at the bar.


We left Virginia City after that and went to Safeway to see if they had Tillamook Fireside Smores ice cream, but they didn’t! SAD FACE! That is the best freaking ice cream in this entire world, but I haven’t ever seen it outside of Oregon and Washington! I check pretty much every time I see a Safeway though!

Jon and I came back to the room and I just talked him in to taking the car back without me. We had talked about going out and exploring some more, but instead we rented Fifty Shades of Grey and I think we’re going to settle in and watch that and have another early night in bed. We have dinner to eat in the room again so no need to even head out of the hotel for anything! We’re trying to stay in Georgia time to make this coming Friday easier!


Zandaam & Amsterdam

I finally managed to make it through my Europe pictures this past week! I even happened to start on our Wyoming pictures! Just in time for our Tahoe pictures!

Jon and I went to The Netherlands, Belgium, Germany, and Austria for a total of 17 days in May-June. We booked our trip using SkyMiles for just over $500 total (we had to pay taxes and we also had to buy a few thousand miles). Our tickets were only 60,000 points a piece, which you can find occasionally on Delta to different locations. Iceland had been running at 60,000 points for awhile, so you just have to keep your eye out for those locations! We rented a car for our travel and stayed almost entirely in Airbnb rentals.

So, for the first trip recap, I picked Amsterdam! Honestly, Amsterdam has been the only city outside the US that I have ever felt like I could live in. I absolutely loved Amsterdam!

We got into Amsterdam in the late morning and had to work on our car rental, which took a little time. Jon was doing all of the driving since manuals are way cheaper to rent in Europe and I don’t drive manuals hardly ever (as in, I can barely even drive them).


Once we finally managed to make it into Amsterdam, driving around all the many bikers (which was super stressful), we found a place to park and started walking! It was way colder than we had planned for in Amsterdam! I had thrown my tennis shoes in for any hiking and that hat was only there with us as a camera “case” in my carry-on! I was super thankful for that, cause I ended up wearing pretty much every layer I could throw on, plus those shoes for the entire trip too.


I absolutely loved all the boats along the canal! People apparently live in them and we even saw one that was full of cats! What a life!


If you notice at the tops of the buildings, there are hooks for pulleys on them. Since the buildings are so tall and narrow, the furniture can’t fit up the stairwells. We saw a few of the pulleys actually being used to pull furniture up into the houses.

That afternoon was spent walking around, having a beer (Jon), and then heading back to the car for an hour long drive to our hostel. From there, we did a big loop and ended up back in Amsterdam at the end of the trip!

Once we made made it back into Amsterdam at the end of the trip, we decided to stay in a little town north of there, Zandaam. Hotels and Airbnb in Amsterdam were expensive and we didn’t really want to spend $100 a night! But we ended up loving Zandaam too, so it was totally worth it! And it was an easy train ride out to Amsterdam.

The next few pictures are out exploring Zandaam on our first evening there! Zandaam was super small, quiet, and quaint. Apparently most of the people there have had their houses passed down to them. It was also really awesome to see what the inside of the traditional houses there look like, since they’re so narrow and tall. The staircases were no joke with our luggage.


Below is a picture of one of the hotels there. It looked awesome and was right on par with the rest of the architecture right in that area (near the train station).

After a little bit of exploring, we headed into Amsterdam. Jon and I were both interested in going to the Red Light District at night. I didn’t actually get any photos there at night since it’s kind of awkward taking photos of naked women in windows. But you basically just walk around and there are naked girls up for grabs in the windows. They apparently all just sit in their on their iPhones texting, but I guess some men are into distracted women. That night, Jon and I also went to watch a live sex show. I felt like it was just something we kind of had to do since where else are we ever going to see something like that?! It was actually kind of interesting and not sexy at all. And the same exact show repeats every hour, so I’m sure those people get bored with it. It was super staged. Not quite what I was expecting, but I was still glad we went! Since it was late when that ended, we headed back to Zandaam.

The next morning, we ended up going to Zaanse Schans, which is a little tourist area outside of Zandaam! I loved this place, aside from the crowds! The windmills were so awesome and they had cheese shops, wooden shoe shops, and all the traditional Holland type stuff!




After our little excursion out to Zaanse Scans, we headed back into Amsterdam for the rest of the day. Again, we enjoyed just viewing the canals in the afternoon. We had planned on going to the Anne Frank museum, but tickets weren’t easy to buy online, so we waited till we got there. The line was insanely long, but below is a picture of where the museum is (it’s the more modern looking one by the church- but it’s hard to see on here). We decided we didn’t want to waste the day in line so we moved on! Also, you can see how close the cars park to the canals. There would literally be about 5 inches on the side of cars between the water, with no guardrails of any sort. It was crazy! I would never want to park there!




What other place has condoms just hanging all over the place? Definitely a different vibe in Amsterdam with all the reefer shops and sex shops, but it’s just so widely accepted there that it seems so normal.




And above is a smoke shop. They were really interesting to go in. They had a menu of different types of weed, with the price for a joint or for however much to take with you. It told what the weed was for (some were calming, some were happy, etc.) and you just pay them and can smoke in there or take it to go!

And that was pretty much it… We had to head back in the late afternoon to get our car to the airport in time, and then we spent the night at the airport for a super early flight back to the US!

Cats, Coffee, Crepes, & CrossFit

OMG so much to say, guys! I’m kidding. Except it has been a really busy week. Oddly enough, I took this week off to finish up my assignments for the semester and I have literally done no work at all related to school so far. But today I have to finish my paper because tomorrow, I have far too much to get done before we head out for vacation!

Anyway, so I can’t recap all my days in detail because that’d be too long and really, nobody cares, I’m sure. This post is brought to you by Tom and me.

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Sometimes you just want to eat a piece of cheese without your cat trying to be all up in your business, but I’m just so happy that this big orange blob is healthy again that I just let him run my entire house and sit anywhere he wants.

In other news, yesterday Jon got had a light day of work so I asked him if we could finally go to Julianna’s Crepes. I have been wanting to go there for so ridiculously long but just never end up going. It’s not really in a convenient part of town for us. But I saw it on a link I had saved and it reminded me how much I wanted to go, so we made it.


It was so freaking delicious! They have a handful of sweet crepes and a handful of savory crepes. Their Nutella and strawberry crepe was better than a lot of the ones I had in Europe. Their savory one was also really awesome too, so I am seriously excited about going back and trying more of their crepes. They brew Batdorf & Bronson coffee so it really put me in the mood for a latte, but they don’t make lattes there.

Afterwards, I got Jon to stop at Dancing Goats for a Batdorf & Bronson vanilla latte.


I’m definitely loving Batdorf & Bronson coffee lately. Unfortunately, there aren’t too many places that brew it around here (and make actual coffee drinks- some places make regular pots of coffee with their beans). The coffee is just so smooth though. It reminds me so much of Dutch Bros because Dutch Bros is some of the smoothest coffee I’ve ever had. Even Dutch Bros 911 (which is 6 shots of espresso) is super smooth and not bitter at all.

Speaking of Dutch Bros, there’s one in Carson City, Nevada! And it’s like, a mile off the main road we’re taking to Lake Tahoe! I am SO FREAKING EXCITED! I am definitely going to get some Dutch Bros! I seriously crave it all the time and can never get it, obviously, since it’s a Western US thing. I told Jon I want to open some franchises in Atlanta because Atlantans love their coffee too, but he told me no. #dreamcrusher

Monday night, Jon and I also had a date night together. We went to an older movie theater and saw Spotlight. We were one of three couples in the whole theater! And it was such an old theater and I just loved it. I want to make it our new date spot because it’s close and it was so cute! The movie was pretty good but the end was kind of disappointing. Gina said she saw the movie too and wasn’t a huge fan of it, but it has good reviews.

Tuesday night, Laura and I went and got Buford Hwy foot massages. Buford Hwy is the big international road the runs through the northern end of Atlanta, so anything “Buford Hwy…” usually indicates some sort of foreign experiences. The massages were not really anything special. The people did literally the exact same thing to our feet and I feel like if you’re going to give a massage, you need to make it specific to each person. What my feet need may not be what Laura’s feet need. There was also hardly any pressure and I left wanting Jon to give me a foot massage! But the atmosphere was nice and I decided I need to play spa music at my house more often to help de-stress. I haven’t done it yet though.

Thankfully, Jon did massage my feet when I got home from my foot massage that I actually paid for because he’s the best and he loves me. And then the next day Kassie told me that pregnant women need to be careful with foot massages because it can induce labor. So I googled it and there is so much stuff on google about inducing labor with foot massages! WTF! And the exact spots they showed were the exact spots where I have been sore and that Jon has really been focusing on. (My feet have reached a whole new level of being sore recently.) Good thing he hasn’t put me into labor yet!

Last night, we had our book club meeting at my house. Apparently there is a lot of drama in book club since I joined, since myself and one of the other girls don’t work normal hours. Before they would plan around her, but now there are two people to plan around. It has been so petty. And then at the last minute, one other girl cancelled. So it was Gina, Kassie, Rachel, and me. And we ate pizza and talked and I showed them all the baby clothes that Jon’s parents bought for us. It was just nice to hang to with friends, as always. I do love friend time!

I also made these Paleo pumpkin muffins that are delicious. If you leave out all the spices she mentions and just add cinnamon, pumpkin pie spice, and nutmeg, that’s what I did. Except I added a ton of cinnamon. And cooked them for way longer than that says, but they are super good. (I ate all the golden pieces off the tops while they were halfway through cooking. So that’s why every muffin is missing part of the top.)


Other than that, I managed to stay active this week. Clearly my sugar intake hasn’t decreased, but whatever. I did a 30-40 minute workout at LA Fitness on Tuesday. It was after I made my first French press coffee ever and definitely brewed it far too strong, but it was delicious and I drank all of it. So I killed the elliptical cause my energy was insane and then I felt totally out of it and weird from the caffeine. So the rest of my workout wasn’t that awesome. I went to CrossFit yesterday at my usual ClassPass gym and had to modify the entire thing since I’m trying to be careful not to further separate my abs. And then today I went to a CrossFit gym that I had gone to awhile ago on ClassPass (they didn’t have classes posted for a long time, so I haven’t been in a few months) and the owner was there, who I hadn’t met. But he was fun to talk to and I really liked the atmosphere and energy there today. I’m going back tomorrow, too. I plan on Saturday being an off day, and then our hotel has a gym in Tahoe so I’m taking gym clothes to hopefully work out every day that I’m there.

I also happened to work 4 hours this morning (I was called in) and I’ve already been called in from 7-11a tomorrow. So this afternoon will be my homework day and tomorrow will be my get-shit-done day before our trip.