Even a beautiful day isn’t motivating me to get outside and run. FAIL AT LIFE!
It has been months since I worked a 7p-3a shift (I worked one Monday night). I really forgot how much it messes me up for days! Last night, I took a nap in my car for 25 minutes before class at 7pm. Then it took me forever to fall asleep last night despite being absolutely exhausted. I have been having really vivid, awful dreams that something is trying to take over my body and I keep trying to get Jon to help me in my dreams but he can’t. It’s those dreams where you feel like you’re awake but you’re not. This is the third night I’ve had them. So I woke up freaked out and couldn’t fall back to sleep for another hour. Apparently vivid dreams are a sign of very early pregnancy (like, before you know you’re pregnant). So now I feel the need to double check that I am not pregnant.
Because of my sleep being so messed up, I was still exhausted when I got out of bed at 10 today (which is late for me). I just finished my biology paper and am about to read my book and post for my discussion so I’m not having to worry about it on Friday, which is the day I leave for Wisconsin! The paper caused me to skip CrossFit, but I told myself I’d run after my paper was done. But I really think I need to finish my biology before going shoe shopping with Laura today, causing me to skip my run this afternoon (I have to get my wedding dress altered so need to find shoes ASAP- and since I’m not doing white heels, I need to figure out my alternatives- either wedges or flat shoes- I don’t know!). Maybe tonight I can go to the gym and do a treadmill run. If I’m not still so tired. I don’t even feel guilty today for skipping a workout. I just don’t care. I really just want to sit and watch TV and then take a glorious nap.
I believe I put in for another 7p-3a shift the week after I get back in town, and I am already dreading it. I don’t even know if it’s approved or not, but it really does mess me up for days to have my sleep scheduled messed up so much. And it’s not even for a fun cause, like drinking alcohol and passing out drunk (just kidding- I don’t even consider that fun anymore). It’s for work. I wonder if this is a sign of old age to not be able to function for like, 4 days because I had to work till 3am (and fell asleep at 8am on Tuesday morning- which was the real problem).
I know thats look like a pile of throw up with apples sprinkled on top, but that was my dinner last night and it tasted amazing. All I wanted to do after class last night was go out to eat (I’m really on an eating out kick, although I still really haven’t eaten out that much) but I need to break those urges! So I cooked some apples in coconut oil in a pan, threw in some cut up deli turkey, a tablespoon of raspberry jam, and some goat cheese and there you go! It really was SO good and it was so quick and easy. I want some right now but need to go get apples from the store!
Blah blah blah. I’m so boring.